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Ozempic Weight Loss Reviews 2023 - Ozempic Before and After Pictures, Results, Cost, Dosage and Side Effects

2023.06.10 05:55 jarimanre Ozempic Weight Loss Reviews 2023 - Ozempic Before and After Pictures, Results, Cost, Dosage and Side Effects

In the realm of weight loss solutions, Ozempic has gained significant attention. This revolutionary medication has been hailed as a game-changer for individuals struggling with obesity and its associated health risks. In this article, we will delve into the latest reviews and insights regarding Ozempic's weight loss potential, along with before and after pictures, results, cost, dosage, and possible side effects.
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  1. What is Ozempic? Ozempic is a prescription medication that contains the active ingredient semaglutide. Originally designed to treat type 2 diabetes, it has also shown remarkable effects in promoting weight loss. Ozempic belongs to a class of drugs called GLP-1 receptor agonists, which work by mimicking the effects of a naturally occurring hormone to regulate blood sugar levels and control appetite.
  2. Ozempic Weight Loss Reviews and Results: The weight loss results achieved with Ozempic have been highly encouraging. Many individuals have reported significant reductions in body weight and body mass index (BMI) after incorporating Ozempic into their weight loss journey. By targeting appetite control and regulating blood sugar levels, Ozempic helps users feel fuller for longer periods, reducing the urge to overeat and aiding in weight loss.
  3. Ozempic Before and After Pictures: Visual representations of weight loss journeys can be powerful motivators. While individual results may vary, there are numerous Ozempic before and after pictures available online showcasing impressive transformations. These pictures demonstrate the potential of Ozempic as an effective weight loss solution when combined with a healthy diet and regular exercise.
  4. Ozempic Dosage and Administration: The standard recommended dosage for Ozempic is 0.25 mg injected once a week for the first month. Afterward, the dosage can be increased to 0.5 mg once a week to optimize the weight loss effects. It is important to follow the prescribed dosage and administration instructions provided by your healthcare professional to ensure safe and effective use of the medication.
  5. Ozempic Cost: The cost of Ozempic can vary depending on factors such as location, insurance coverage, and dosage strength. It is advisable to check with your healthcare provider or pharmacy to obtain accurate pricing information. Additionally, some manufacturers and pharmacies may offer savings programs, discounts, or coupons to help offset the cost.
  6. Potential Side Effects: Like any medication, Ozempic may have certain side effects. Common side effects may include nausea, diarrhea, vomiting, constipation, and stomach pain. However, these side effects are usually mild and tend to diminish over time as the body adjusts to the medication. It is important to consult with a healthcare professional if you experience any persistent or severe side effects.
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Conclusion: Ozempic has emerged as a promising weight loss solution, garnering positive reviews and remarkable results from individuals seeking to shed excess weight. Combined with a healthy lifestyle that includes a balanced diet and regular physical activity, Ozempic can contribute to significant weight loss and improved overall well-being. However, it is essential to consult with a healthcare professional before starting any weight loss regimen and carefully follow the prescribed dosage and guidelines.
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2023.06.10 05:53 DerpyOwlofParadise Well this is it, I found the cause

Levorotoscoliosis… I had early childhood mild upper scoliosis… I went through pure hell to correct it. I remember my mom was so desperate she’d sometimes punch my back to stop slouching . I would lift heavy metal plates with my legs and I was even given a whole upper body plastic corset, going down to the hips - I couldn’t sit with it so I didn’t use it. And on with sports, swimming… the works but nothing fixed it
Fast forward to many many years later. I ignored the subject in high school. I was not in pain and doctors didn’t note it. I developed an entirely different kind of scoliosis found another decade later. This one is lumbar, to the left. God knows I feel twisted, it could even push on my heart.
I have been wearing crutches for 3 years now on and off… need wheelchair long distances. It started as foot pain. Then from limping I got hip pain. The SI joint /piriformis are doing poorly. And I JUST found out the link. My ever neglected spine
I got that diagnosis 2 years ago. That simple scoliosis worsened and become twisted like this. Twisted my pelvis too. But I got a clean bill of health. I was not sent anywhere. No actual specialist took a look.
Now I went to physio that specializes in spine and put it all together. Now it clicked and I can’t do absolutely anything about it. My doctor won’t send me to an orthopedist. Then I said “I can’t lay flat on my back anymore I need a spine doctor”. What is a spine doctor? And sent me to physio. My doctor… doesn’t know what a spine specialist is. Wanted me to tell her… orthopedist right?
I think I’m debilitated for life. No one cares. This is the most serious form of scoliosis and no one batted an eye. I’m disabled for heavens sake. I was more vigilant about it especially in the last few years. I did ask around for doctors and tests… latest being a private one…
I found out on GOOGLE that it’s a problem and needs to be looked at! Of all illnesses I thought I had, I sooner accepted a CRPS diagnosis than this!
What did you guys do? How do you live with scoliosis? Is strengthening the whole secret?
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2023.06.10 05:48 SanSattasi Please recommend me books to improve my administrative writing and knowledge for central goverment offices.

For context i am looking for Group A officers perspective specially in health care sector. I have been having issues to deal the administrative issues at various level.also i need to draft letters almost daily for various purposes. I need to improve my letter drafting skills also. Please recommend me books or any other thing which can help me grow in this field. I have read my medical subject throughout life but you all know how goverment offices work. Thanks in advance.
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2023.06.10 05:46 thenipsthatwontpop Hanggang kailan iintindihin ang childish boss?

I was forced to switched careers last year. Luckily, I have good recommendations from different people hanggang sa nirecruit ako ng isang company na ito ng Presidente mismo. Tinayaan ko na rin but I feel like I can go anytime I want if hindi ko talaga gusto yung industry. The company president assigned me to this business manager, a FilChi. Same age lang kami halos. Smart pero rude at may Anger Issues. Isip bata pero 30+ na! The President instructed me na intindihin si FilChi Manager and help bridge him to other employees.
People described us as polar opposites. Bilang feeling ko, wala naman mawawala sa akin sa industriyang ito, I was brave enough to confront him. Surprisingly, nakinig siya sa rants ko at nag-open up siya sa akin, sa childhood trauma niya and how his Chinese parents made him feel inept. Typical Chinese Nerd kid ‘to na kinulong sa bahay, ‘di pinayagan magkaroon ng social life growing up and pinaniwala na kailangan niyang maging MAGALING palagi kahit nakakasagasa na siya. So ako naman na may EQ, kahit napakasama ng ugali, inintindi ko siya kasi he’s like a kid at heart. Hindi siya pinalaki nang maayos ng cold chinese parents niya dahil busy sa business so na-neglect yung social skills and GMRC niya. Nasanay na lang sya na people adjust to him pero I can see that impulsive lang siya and deep inside, he has a good heart. Iyon lang, since hindi siya marunong mag-process ng feelings, ‘pag may issues sa work, ako yung nagiging emotional punching bag niya. Kahit anong effort ko maging affectionate, caring, sweet to the point na parang inassign lang ako dito para maging WORK YAYA niya, ang insensitive pa rin niya sa mga words niya. Yung mga positive/encouraging messages ko, seen lang. Hinahayaan ko na lang kasi alam ko maganda intention ko and I learned to love him (not romantically because hello, great wall).
Palagi pa rin kami nag-aaway, papangaralan ko siya, babait siya for a while then mang-aaway uli. Bumait lang siya ng super tagal because I was ready to leave and natatakot sya na yung resignation ko will affect his promotion. Na sinabi ng company President na umaalis lang daw ang isa tao dahil sa BOSS.
Recently, may family trip (cruise ship) siya na need niya mag-leave for weeks kahit ayaw daw niya pero hindi pwedeng ‘di siya sumama. Sinabi ko na lang in a series of positive messages na i-enjoy na lang niya kasi wala naman sya magagawa, ‘di siya makakatrabaho at wala syang internet doon at mag-recharge na lang sya. Nagalit siya sa word na “Enjoy”, na nakasalalay daw sa kanya yung salaries ng mga tao sa opisina so may mga deadlines siya so tigilan ko raw kakaisip na mag-enjoy siya. Sumagot na lang ako ng “Sorry” kahit na wala naman ako masamang intention.
Grabe na siguro yung tolerance na binigay ko sa kanya na namimihasa na siyang awayin ako. The company president told me I was a positive stimulus for him, na somehow, I helped him changed (bumait bait na raw sya sa lagay na yan) pero hindi niya tinutulungan sarili niya. Napapagod na ako sa privileges ng mga taong may generational wealth. I don’t want to invalidate his struggles pero pucha, nangigigil ako na ang tanda tanda na niya but he can’t stand up with his parents? Or mag-isip kung tama pa ba ginagawa niya? I hate his Chinese parents too because they were able to take care of their business at nagpakayaman but they failed to take care of their son who is obviously struggling with his mental health because of their unrealistic expectations. Parang kami pang mga mature sa opisina ang magpapalaki at magtuturo sa taong ito ng Good Manners and Right Conduct?
At kahit rude siya sa akin, natutunan ko siyang mahalin at natatakot ako na baka anong gawin niyang masama sa sarili niya ‘pag hindi niya na kinaya yung pressure sa work at sa pamilya. Hindi ko alam if mabait nga ba ako or tanga lang na pinoproblema ko ang problema niya kahit madalas ang sama ng trato niya sa akin.
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2023.06.10 05:44 Restless_Dill16 The end of this relationship was a reason I decided to deconstruct.

I originally posted this in exchristian. I have edited this version a bit.
At the beginning of my sophomore year of college, I met this guy who was a fellow Christian. I was really depressed during the summer, so it was nice to have a new friend to brighten my day, especially someone I saw as pretty chill. We had several classes together, had lunch together, and hung out in his apartment. I may have had a little crush on his from the get go (if it didn't start that early, it definitely came later).
Looking back, he was a bit weird. For example, he pretty much saw anything that wasn't praying, studying the Bible, worshipping, spreading the gospel, etc. as a waste of time. Also, he made himself out to be this horrible, wretched sinner because he...had sex with his high school girlfriends before marriage. I don't see being a horny teenage boy as a terrible sin; it's quite normal, I've heard.
However, I tuned that out and started trying to be more like him so he'd like me more. Even though I liked pop and alternative music, I tried to get myself to like Christian music (even though I found it samey and boring). I tried to act like I would rather study the Bible all the time than do other fun stuff like bowling or karaoke. He was anti-LGBT, so I tried to fight off my attraction to men (which is funny because, like I said, I had a crush on him). I thought he was helping me become a better person, but the reality is I am a people pleaser and only wanted to impress him.
Things started going south the following year. I was struggling with generalized anxiety disorder, and he was my go-to person when I felt overwhelmed. Things were okay at first, but he soon started saying I probably wouldn't be so anxious and depressed if I gave it up to God. He pointed out these people at church with chronic health problems who don't complain, so I should try to be more like them. I tried doing all the good Christian things like praying, helping others, reading my Bible, etc. to bring my anxiety down. While those helped a bit, the things that helped me the most were talking to someone (especially the counselor at the time), using my other grounding techniques, self-care and getting some exercise.
The deepest wound was when he straight up told me he didn't like me. He listed all these things he didn't like about me, including having to hear about my anxiety. He said he didn't really want to be around me, but he tried to love me because that's what Jesus would do. I was conflicted. It hurt that this person I loved so dearly felt this way toward me. I wanted to do anything I could to make it right. At the same time, I wanted to tell him to fuck off. If you don't like me, leave me alone. I'll go find people who do like me. I'm not your project. I probably should have ended things there, but I wasn't ready to let go.
We had some other ups and downs over the next year. Then the pandemic hit, and we had some time away from each other. During that time, he began saying that there are no true Christians on the planet because they didn't read certain books or writings. He soon ghosted everyone and joined a more extreme church (I've heard it's essentially a cult). I wrote him a letter a year ago telling him I missed him and I was hurt by him cutting me and other people off. He did respond, but his letter focused more on recommending things to read so I can become a "true Christian," whatever that even means. I was going to respond, but I just didn't want to. I think I was just tired of all of this.
If any good came from that whole experience, it's that I learned a lot about myself. I learned that I am a people pleaser; if I find myself changing things about myself, I need to step back and see if this is because I want to or because I'm trying to please someone. It is also a reason why I started to deconstruct my faith. I'm fed up with this "no true Christian" nonsense. Maybe an ancient book isn't the best thing to base your life around. It seems way too open to interpretation for that.
Even though I've had some distance, the wound is still open. I have times where he crosses my mind and I don't know if I want to cry or throw something (or both). I miss him sometimes, but I think it might be for the best he's not a part of my life right now. We may have had some good times together, but I think we were incompatible as friends. I guess I can care for his well-being without having to be besties with him. I wish I could let things go so the wound would close and stop haunting me.
I left some stuff out because I don't want to make this longer than it already is. I hope I got my point across. If you read through this thing, thank you.
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2023.06.10 05:41 Thefailuretryshard How do you reset for yourself with conviction and care?

Hi all, basically(overthinker still) we see our flaws and issues and want to change them, so as an adult how do you start over ? The context here is if you have been repeating failure and ignorance for a long time, how do you basically turn off and on while installing a better program? (Horrible example)
What we mean is , well we have to improve many things about ourselves(grammar, speech, handwriting, taking care of our health, learning and understand what a person is saying without saying it), we live in a time we you can learn many things online. Yet I know myself ill be excited to start then get burn over not being able to do much or stay focused enough. I know it will take sometime and it had to start small, but well the real question is, how do you decide was is important and how to assign it? How do you also learn patience, not just in general but with yourself? I tell myself I want to stop being a child and grow up, yet if I accidentally miss an appointment or Didn’t get that job interview, ill just spoil everything else. Its not a way to live, I don’t see my future at all, but I do know, the least I can fucking do, is be a productive member of society, even if all I expect in life is to work until im dead, and to makesure to hurt as little people as possible. We have always been afraid of success in anyform. Were 30 and feel super stuck, but we know we pushed ourselves there. That’s really it, we ask this because we believe everyone is amazing and know its all, so we are quick to fall for anything, were 30. We just want these next final 5-9years to be something positive. That’s it, we know the one of the answers will be get of of reddit, that’s fine, we want open truthful even harsh answer, cause we need to just get it together now. Turning 30+ and the reality is all i want to do is pay back all the people ive hurt, any debts, then die.
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2023.06.10 05:40 Unhappy_Hamster69 Is it over for me?

I (26M) grew up in a typical poor first gen viet family with all usual trauma. No privacy or boundaries, no dating until I finish my degree, no going out, no going to birthday parties. Didnt get a phone and pc until 16 and that was only because it was required for school.
At 18 I had enough and left home. I was completely socially stunted at this point and really struggled to get a job. Like at the interview they would ask how i was and i wouldn’t know how to answer or i would panic and saying something really dumb. I might aswell been mute.
HR: can you tell me about your past job experience? Me: nah past is the past, its not a good indicator of who i am now
Anyways, i managed to get shitty jobs in warehouses and factories that exploited the fuck out of me. I was making enough to live pay check to pay check working long hours everyday. I had no free time for hobbies or to improve my social skills. The only social interaction I had was at work with mainly immigrants who spoke to each other in their own language… so pretty much nil.
At 24, i got lucky and got a high paying job on an oil rig. Its a pretty masculine and racist industry. I struggled at first due to my lack of social skills and being weird (doing inappropriate stuff stemming from parents boundary issue) but had an empathetic non racist white guy who had an asian wife take me under his wing. Im now at a point now where my social skills is good enough for work. I bought my first car and learnt how to drive. Can afford gym and build muscles.
Fast forward til now, my health is good, i am going back to college for a stem degree (expected to grad at 30) so i can better work life balance. Hopefully with my degree ill be rich atleast, if i fail at everything else in life.
Kinda embarrassing but ive never been on a date or even know how to talk girls. I stopped talking to girls in like 6th grade cuz while waiting for my parents to pick me up after school i would talk to girls. My parents would embarrass me by asking the girl if she was my girlfriend. Like in 6th grade i didnt even have any attraction for girls. I didnt even know what sex was til 8th grade and thought babies came out of asses. For highschool they put in an all boys school.
Now that i have my shit kinda together i want to start dating. I dont wanna die alone and so much things i wanna do in life isnt really that great without someone that you care about. Someone that you can create and share memories with.
Im also not autistic so i have no excuse for being socially inept. Just missing out on those fundamental years in hs has caused me so many problems. I dont know how to recover from my current situation. I keep trying but things take so long to improve and im afraid ill be too old when i get my shit together.
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2023.06.10 05:40 Unlucky_Ducky23 I think my boyfriend's housemate is manipulating him

A few months after we started dating, his old friend moved in with him.
A few months later I moved in with my partner after loosing my accommodation. It's a pretty big house so you'd think it wouldn't be an issue.
I was only there for about two weeks. His housemate, long-time friend did not approve of me. I am autistic so I can be fairly closed off and bad at communicating. He did not know this. One day housemate ranted to my partner about how I make him uncomfortable and I can't stay there. My boyfriend didn't care and said it's his house and he'll make it work.
Against my will, I noticed boyfriend started hiding me from him in the house. Housemate came in his room, saw me and raged, yelled at me to leave. Partner tried to calm him but he appeared to (almost) start crying so he got his way and we left. Along with this he called my boyfriend's parents telling them a bunch of bullshit like I was on crack.
I obviously refused to go to his house any time soon. A month later I decided to go back because it's my partner's house and I believe I should have the right to go there and spend time with my boyfriend, he apologized and I thought it was sorted out, I also explained to him I'm autistic so I'm a little more to myself and bad at communicating, he said it's understandable.
After this, he was still pretty rude to me, making smart and rude comments around me, completely ignoring me during conversation, my boyfriend seems oblivious to it. It was destroying my mental health going to his house so I thought it would be good if me and my boyfriend had a break.
After the break, a month after being together again, I finally get the confidence to spend one night at his house, next day he messages my boyfriend raging about me again. Still carrying on about me after 5 months. My boyfriend got mad and told me he will kick him out (again) but I highly doubt it. He apologizes and says it's his mental health and my boyfriend forgives him. This doesn't sort out his grudge against me.
I think It is simple, he is trying to ban me from going to his house, so I will agree and not go. If my boyfriend wants me to stay at his house I won't go until he is out. Sounds rude but his housemate is causing too much drama when I go there.
I feel like he is trying to manipulate him to ban me from there, turn his family against me while still trying to live there with his girlfriend and his friend with me out of their life. Exactly like he said "just like the good old days".
Yes, I am also jealous he can enjoy his relationship to the fullest potential at my boyfriend's house while our relationship is restricted because I can't go there.
I need some advice. I don't want to destroy their friendship, even when my partner says he will kick him out I don't even agree or disagree with him. But it seems his friend is trying to destroy our relationship, and I'm watching it happen.
I should also mention I don't care about living there anymore, I have found decent accommodation. It's just unfortunate I can't go there at all.
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2023.06.10 05:38 GrafaCharts Discretionary stocks, highway to the danger zone? #News #Australia #Technology #HealthCare #Tech

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2023.06.10 05:32 Infinite_Yellow_1149 Need Advice Regarding Family Civil Law Case.

I was served a petition on May 25th, 2023. This case is taking place in Texas.
The petition states that I am being sued for full custody of my son, and for child support. The petitioner is my son's paternal aunt. I am his paternal father. My son is 5.
My son's mother passed away on April of 2023. I was not notified of her death, until I was served May 2023.
When my son was born, I signed his birth certificate, and a seperate form acknowledging that I am his father. I am not sure what this form is called exactly, but I do have a physical copy.
What the petitioner is alleging:
• Petitioner alleges I have not seen my son in over 4 years.
• Petitioner alleges she feels I'm a violent person, and my son will not be safe around me.
• Petitioner is alleging that before my son was born, I had asked the mother of my child for an abortion, which she feels means that I did not want my son.
• Peitioner is alleging that my son does not know who I am, and that I should not have custody or even visitation rights.
My son's mother was told she would never have children. She made it clear to me, that if our personal relationship did not work out, she would not want me in my son's life at all. Prior to meeting me, she was looking to start IVF treatments to give her family a child before she passed away, which she knew was was inevitable. She had passed away once before, and was resuscitated a few months after our son was born. After that incident, conversations with her only became more clear that she no longer wanted me around. I felt I was only used to conceive a child with her.
Notes I feel are of importance:
• The petition states that my son remain ONLY at her families home address named in this case. Petitioner claims to have moved back to said family home to take care of my son, which is 3 minutes from my home, however I suspect she has taken him to her actual and main residence in another city, with her boyfriend. I had a welfare check done at said family home, and police were not able to locate him. I do not have proof of this as I can't hire a PI.
• In 2018, a protective order was placed against me by my son's paternal grandmother (on his mothers side) because I spat at her after a verbal altercation where she promised I would never see my son again. This has since been lifted years ago, and no other restraining / protective orders have been placed against me.
• After I received the petition, I had my brother type a short heart-felt letter offering my family & I's condolences, and explaining I would like to see my son via facetime or an in-person meeting to ensure his wellbeing. This note was left on the family home's door by my brother. I did not ask to take my son, just to see or speak with him. I've since found out she has filed for a temporary restraining order against me and used this letter as evidence. Her attorney states that "While this letter is not inherently threatening, we feel that My name does not need to see My sons name as this is a sensitive time for him." I now understand to only communicate via attorney's & not directly with petitioner or her family.
• I am financially stable, have stable housing under my name.
• I want full custody & want to include visitation rights to his mothers side of family as he has created a bond with them.
• I have since filed an answer & counter sued.
• I do have evidence of myself & other family members trying to reach out to my sons mother over the years, but were always ignored.
• I do have evidence showing I was financially taking care of my son, until his mother and family no longer accepted anything from me.
I am still actively looking for an attorney.
ANY advice, questions, or tips I am open to. I understand courts dig deep, So I am being as honest and forthcoming about my situation as possible to get the best advice.
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2023.06.10 05:29 Ashamed-Cow5638 Need advice on how to tell my friend I can’t babysit for her anymore

For context: I’m a VERY non confrontational person and my friend IS a very confrontational person. She has no problem saying how she feels when she feels it. I wish I could be that way.
I want to avoid ruining our friendship while also standing up for myself, my time & my life. I’ve been watching the baby on weekends, but more & more recently I’m just realizing how much I don’t want to do it. For context: The baby’s father died in a horrible motorcycle accident before my friend found out she was pregnant - so that’s why my friend has required so much help. After that happened, I suggested that she shouldn’t keep the baby, but she did anyway. At this point, I feel like I’ve done more than enough to help & support her & I feel like it’s time she gets the baby into daycare. I’m just looking for ideas on ways to tell her this without ending our friendship. Open to anything, I am also not above lying about the reason why I can’t help out anymore! Whatever works, works. I’m just exhausted & I’m beginning to resent my friend for relying on me so much & for almost expecting that I’m gonna be there WHENEVER she needs me. But I’m child free for a reason - because I DO NOT WANT A CHILD!! And just because I’m good at taking care of kids doesn’t mean I want to do it! I love her & I love the baby but this isn’t the life I chose for myself. Yes I agreed to help out, but when it’s coming at the expense of my own life, plans & mental health, that’s when I know I need to call it quits. Anyone got any advice on how to bow out of this? Thanks in advance!
P.S. once I figure out how I’m gonna do this, I plan on deleting this post because I’m paranoid she would find it (even though I REALLY doubt she would be in this subreddit, but still)
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2023.06.10 05:27 r4yanie I underestimated how hard it is to get diagnosed.

I've always known I've had ADHD since I was 14-15 but I didn't take an initiative to really try getting diagnosed till this year, I'm 21 now and I underestimated how hard it is to get a diagnosis when your out of high school and an adult.
I've been to three health care workers the first two brushed me off and basically told me it's just anxiety (which I'm already diagnosed with) and that it wasn't anything serious. I finally decided to speak up to a counselor I've had for a couple years who I trusted and I was so shocked by how dismissive she was, she basically told me that it was in my head and I was self diagnosing off google, she asked me to list some symptoms and off the top of my head I could only think of two or three and she actually started to laugh and went "is that it?". I pushed her to give me a refferal to a psychiatrist and she forwarded me the note she wrote to him and it was the most demeaning and humiliating note about how I self diagnosed myself and how my symptoms don't correlate to ADHD. I told her personal experiences of mine that I didn't feel comfortable with her sharing that she didn't even let me know about beforehand.
I don't know to get anyone to take me seriously I feel like me being undiagnosed is affecting my daily life so much.
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2023.06.10 05:27 Aware_Requirement_64 do i not like my best friend anymore

one of my best friends is a guy i went to college with. at this point we have been friends for 11-12 years. the past 7 years we have been really close, and he is one of my best friends. we talk often on the phone and hang out once a month or so.
both of us have adhd. we have the same type of humor and when we get going i swear i never have laughed so hard. sometimes we just totally riff something we never discussed and its still hilarious. i know he absolutely cares about our friendship. he can be really generous- during my covid birthday, he tried ti make it as fun as possible by giving me like ten gifts 😂
a few years ago i started to notice some annoying tendencies of his but no one is perfect. i cut down on our phone time a bit to try and temper that. a couple years ago i started a year of pretty bad mental health. i wish he had done a little more while i was struggling but i was so bad off, i wasnt able to confront him about at the time. i made it through thankfully. now for the last year, i still struggle with him really getting on my nerves. i feel like any time we talk, anything i say, he brings it back to himself. it's like he doesn't call to actually talk to me, it seems like the true intent is him wanting to vent and so he ultimately brings it back to that. there are times i will talk about something to do with my day or my life, and he will reply saying something entirely off topic about himself. no acknowledgment for the 2 minutes i just told a story or answered a question he asked. he often gives me unsolicited advice or invalidates my experiences when i do share something. ive been trying to figure out some health stuff and he even invalidates that? he will also give me unsolicited career advice often. i work 9-5, he was working as an entrepreneur and now is in sales so he isn't a salary worker. he often makes remarks about 9-5 jobs criticizing them. you know, not being able to totally make your own schedule, etc. and i mean while i agree 9-5 suck haha i also like the stability of salary. i dont think a situation like his would work for me. the difference is i dont shit on his life choices. i feel like i probably need better boundaries or to communicate better but i also feel like its been so long now i dont know how to say something.
fyi i will add, when we hang out in person we do always have fun. for some reason his behavior seems to be a little better in person and we have fun.
is it too late to salvage the relationship? if i talk to him what would i even say? you annoy the fuck out of me? 😂
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2023.06.10 05:24 DocWatson42 The American Health Care System

This thread is about the recurring topic on Reddit.
My lists are always being updated and expanded when new information comes in—what did I miss or am I unaware of (even if the thread predates my membership in Reddit), and what needs correction? Even (especially) if I get a subreddit or date wrong. (Note that, other than the quotation marks, the thread titles are "sic". I only change the quotation marks to match the standard usage (double to single, etc.) when I add my own quotation marks around the threads' titles.)
The lists are in absolute ascending chronological order by the posting date, and if need be the time of the initial post, down to the minute (or second, if required—there's at least one example of this, somewhere). The dates are in DD MMMM YYYY format per personal preference, and times are in US Eastern Time ("ET") since that's how they appear to me, and I'm not going to go to the trouble of converting to another time zone. They are also in twenty-four hour format, as that's what I prefer, and it saves the trouble and confusion of a.m. and p.m. Where the same user posts the same request to different subreddits, I note the user's name in order to indicate that I am aware of the duplication.
For information on the American health care system (pre–Affordable Care Act (ACA)/Obamacare) compared to those of a selection of other developed nations, see:
See also:
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2023.06.10 05:18 The_Invisible_Force WIBTA if I ruin my parent’s vacation by starting a fight with my aunt?

I (24f) am engaged to another woman who’s around the same age as me. I just noticed my aunt post some stuff about how “marriage is between a man and a woman” on fb. She’s done this in the past too. The first time, my dad called her out and cut off contact for a long time. However, he later started speaking to her again after a death in the family, stating that he realizes that you never know when someone could pass away. I can understand his feelings, it’s his sister, but it still hurts. He doesn’t seem to understand why I can’t do the same though and has gotten mad that I won’t invite her to my wedding. She, for some reason, WANTS to go to my wedding. I really wanna type a comment that says something like “why tf do you even wanna go to my wedding if you don’t even think it’s a valid marriage?” I know if I post it, one of two things will happen. 1. My parents will get mad at me and a big argument will break out and they’ll be thinking about it during their entire vacation. 2. Or they will be like wtf aunt?? Argue with HER, and have to deal with that heat for a whole cruise and ruin my cousin’s retirement party. I don’t wanna cause shit at a bad time, but I’m so tired and haven’t been able to get my meds (state’s health care sucks) so my mood is really wack. I know I shouldn’t be following he in the first place, but small dumb part of me just hopes I can finally get my parents to see she is a pos, like they did in the past. I do love my parents and, at the very least, they finally agreed to go to family therapy and wanna be friends encouraging if they agreed to take some steps to help us get better, but I hate dad’s sister so fucking much. WIBTA? Should I wait to confront her?
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2023.06.10 05:13 hnqn1611 13 Signs You Are Suffering From Too Much Stress

13 Signs You Are Suffering From Too Much Stress
13 Signs You Are Suffering From Too Much Stress
Unless you’re a millionaire, you probably stress about all kinds of things, and most of the time, it’s over money. That’s not to say millionaires don’t stress, but they usually stress about how to make even more or they fear losing it all. Of course there are many other things that also cause stress but shit imagine if you didn’t have to worry about bills, school, and work and you could just do whatever you want all the time because you never had to worry about money. Anyways… Feelings of anxiety and tension probably get you at some point just about every day and stress is an emotional issue because it’s the way your body responds to what it perceives as an acute threat. The nervous system releases adrenaline and cortisol which are both stress hormones. People often don’t realize they’re stressed out and they minimize the stress they’re under and the effect it has. Now, in this video, you're not gonna learn to become rich, but the good news is that you can train yourself to spot the signs of too much stress before it becomes a chronic health problem. Sometimes, physical signs of stress are mistaken to be symptoms of some other issue, so pay attention to what your body is trying to tell you.
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Number 1 - Forgetfulness If you find yourself forgetting to do things lately, like forgetting to lock the front door or flush the toilet, you probably don’t have Alzheimer’s but it can be much more than a silly accident. Stress and anxiety can mess with your head and result in decrease in concentration and this can cause forgetfulness. Ongoing stress can shrink parts of your brain that are responsible for emotion, memory and your nervous system. The best way to fight this symptom is to exercise and everything will return to normal once your stress goes away.
Number 2 - Weight Gain Around The Waistline When you’re overstressed, your habits change, including your diet. If you find yourself eating and drinking more, this will result in weight gain. The “stress hormone” Cortisol plays a role in the fight-or-flight response, which is the physiological loop that gears your body up to fight against danger, or to run for your life. This is vital when faced with immediate danger, but increases in cortisol also occur in response to chronic, everyday stress. When cortisol is too high for too long, it can increase the amount of fat you hold in your belly. So, if your jeans don’t fit anymore even though you exercise regularly, stress is likely the cause, and it’s time to combine a healthier diet with stress management.
Number 3 - Stomach Aches Your nervous system is tightly linked to your digestive system and stress can interfere with this connection. If you just had a taco and your stomach is a mess, then just head over to the toilet. But if it happens often, and you aren’t on a taco diet, it might be stress. That uneasiness you feel in your belly, might be more than what you just ate. You can try over-the-counter pills, but the best natural way to deal with this symptom is to exercise.
Number 4 - Sore Jaw During the day, you’re ok, but then at night while you’re sleeping, you could be grinding your teeth. You don’t know it’s happening until you wake up, but then damn… you feel that sore jaw. Now, if you have a black eye complimenting your sore jaw and no recollection of the night before, then you probably ended up in a situation that you wouldn’t have if it weren’t for your drunk ass. Otherwise, it could be stress. It’s very common to grind your teeth when you’re stressing, and this is really bad stuff because it can lead to tooth damage and cracked teeth. It’s best to visit a dentist to see if there’s anything you can do. Usually they’ll give you a mouth guard for grinding.
Number 5 - Back Pain The fight-or-flight response to stress increases your blood pressure and speeds up your heart rate, and the stress hormones tighten the muscles. This can be very painful. Move as much as you can. If you have a desk job, get up every half an hour to stretch and walk around. If you have a shitty job where your boss is breathing down your neck constantly and you can’t afford to take a quick break for a stretch every 30 minutes, well, what can I say, perhaps it’s time to find a better job.
Number 6 - Constipation You feel like you need to go but it just doesn’t come out. Well, it’s probably not the tacos. Perhaps you could try to eat some in this case. But the cause is likely stress and this time you need magnesium. Stress hormone production requires high levels of magnesium, and stressful experiences lead to depletion of this mineral. In addition, if you’ve been eating loads of sugar, this could be further depleting your magnesium levels. Magnesium is often referred to as the “calming mineral” because it affects the way the brain and muscles relax during stress. And this includes the digestive tract. So, you gotta do what you gotta do, and try eating some more spinach, quinoa, almonds and cashews - and cut down on the sugar.
Number 7 - Cracked Lips or Sore Mouth This is a classic sign of vitamin B deficiency because B vitamins are necessary for extracting energy from the carbs, protein and fat we consume every day. When you stress, you use a lot of energy and the vitamin gets used up. B6 especially, plays a key role in our bodies producing the happy hormones serotonin and dopamine which are responsible for our mood, and melatonin which controls sleep. Eat more foods that are rich in Vitamin B6, such as bananas, leafy green vegetables, spinach, and potatoes.
Number 8 - Sleeping Too Much Snoozing and stress go hand in hand. Stressful situations and feeling stressed over an extended period of time can really mess with your sleep cycle and daytime alertness. It’s possible that what you are experiencing is your brain subconsciously making you sleep longer in order to avoid daytime stressors. Or, the stress is disrupting your sleep so the hours of shut eye you get are less restful, causing you to wake up tired. While a good night's sleep is essential for health, consistent oversleeping has been linked to a host of medical problems, including diabetes and heart disease. Practicing good sleep hygiene will help you get a healthy seven to eight hours of sleep each night, and experts recommend keeping the same bedtimes and wake times every day. They also recommend avoiding caffeine and alcohol close to bedtime. Exercising regularly and making your bedroom a comfortable environment can also help you get the amount of sleep you need.
Number 9 - Weird Dreams All The Time Strange dreams or even the same ones every night can be a symptom of stress. They make you feel anxious and on the edge. If you normally don’t dream (or don’t remember your dreams) and now all of a sudden it’s the opposite, try to figure out what’s changed in your life and if there’s anything that adds stress to your day. It could be the trigger.
Number 10 - Can’t Fall Asleep If you’re having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep, and you know that the cause it’s not caffeine, it’s time to do something about your stress levels. Stress can also lead to insomnia and then you can’t sleep at all. According to studies, stress increases the chances of that happening by 19%. When you’re worried, your nervous system doesn't shut down and you can’t sleep. Your brain stays hyperactive with no chance of resting. Try to spend some time "winding down." A person with insomnia needs a "buffer zone," a period of time to allow the activating processes in the brain to wind down. This allows the alerting mechanisms to decrease their activity so that the sleep systems can take over. Start winding down two hours before bedtime. Stop all work and end phone calls, and get off the computer. Instead, watch a light movie, read a book or listen to some calm music.
Number 11 - Can’t Concentrate Do you feel like you thrive under tight deadlines and tense situations? Maybe you do, but most of us don’t. I know I don’t. And even if you do, it doesn’t last. Chemicals in your brain help you stay focused for a while producing adrenaline that enhances your senses. But the more time you spend doing this, the more damage you’re causing. Too much adrenaline for long durations will make your brain notice and feel every little thing, making you distracted. So, instead of dwelling on a problem you can't solve, get your mind off it for a while. Shift your focus. Try whatever works for you, whether it's yoga, deep breathing, meditation, or just having a good laugh with a friend. The goal is to occupy yourself with a pleasant task. This will provide the energy to regroup later.
Number 12 - You Obsess Over Your Problems You can’t seem to get your mind off things, regardless of what it is. Whether it’s financial worries, relationship issues or whatever. This is a warning sign that stress is taking over your life. With excessive worrying, your mind and body go into overdrive as you constantly focus on "what might happen." But, you won’t be able to find a solution until you detach yourself from your problems and think more objectively. You need to think about how you can stop the stress. Set aside 15 minutes each day where you allow yourself to focus on problems and fears -- and then vow to let them go after the 15 minutes is up. Some people wear a rubber band on their wrist and "snap" the rubber band if they find themselves going into their "worry mode." Do whatever works for you!
Number 13 - Your Patience Is Wearing Thin Finding yourself becoming less patient with everyone around you, including people you actually care about, is often one of the first signs that stress is slowly starting to get to you. We often displace our anger and anxiety, taking it out on those nearby as a way of ensuring it gets expressed in some way, and this can do far more harm than good. If you’re snapping at people or feeling annoyed when in their company, let them know that you are stressed and consider that you might need to ask for help coping with stress. If any of these symptoms sound painfully familiar, it’s time to figure out exactly what is stressing you out and how you can deal with it effectively. Long term stress is detrimental to your mental and physical health, so it’s important to take care of yourself. It may be an unavoidable part of life, but there are healthy ways to manage stress and minimize its side effects. Examples include exercise such as walking, running, yoga or meditation; eating a healthy diet; and whenever possible, eliminating the source of the stress. If you wanna stress less, subscribe to our channel, and let us know in the comments below, what stresses you out the most?!
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2023.06.10 05:12 JLN030319 My relationship is falling apart

My boyfriend (M25) and I (F20) had a really great relationship at the start. Within the last couple months everything seems to be going downhill.
I have always struggled with my mental health as I have anxiety, bipolar, and depression to name a few. He knew this before we even started dating. He use to care when I’d get into a bad space. He’d lay with me when I was feeling suicidal, he’d talk to me to calm me down when anxious, and he always helped when my bipolar flipped. We even came up with a code when I felt like self harming or had self harmed. “I want to play fruit ninja” or “I played fruit ninja” just so I didn’t have to stress myself more with the words. I loved our relationship.
Recently he has seemed to stop caring about me in general. I tell him somethings wrong and all he says is “well, that’s not good.” And goes back to his video games. I slack with house work because my depression makes it hard to do anything, he gets mad and says I never do anything. He’s started throwing things at the wall and yelling at me.
The other day we were sitting and talking and he tried to break his phone in half before I stopped him. I told him I’m scared of him and he told me I’m too sensitive.
He keeps yelling at me over little things, he says I do nothing around the house and I do nothing for him (I just bought him the puppy he wanted.)
I have a 3 strikes rule. I’ll ask things to get better once, the second time I will ask again but say I will only ask one more time. The third time I will say that this is the last time I’ll ask and if I feel like I need to have the conversation, I’ll leave. He knows he’s on his third strike and I told him I’m not going to let him walk all over me anymore.
He said if I leave he will kill himself, to which I replied by saying “Holy, manipulation at it’s finest.” He told me he wasn’t manipulating me but he would do it. I told him that if or when we break up I will call the police to put him on suicide watch. Which, yet again, I got yelled at for.
I don’t know what happened to my sweet man. He use to show love with every part of him. He use to be a big teddy bear. He use to be caring and kind. I want that man back. I moved 6 hours away from everyone I know and love to be with him. Now I’m stuck with him in a city I don’t know and with nobody to help me.
I miss my kind hearted and gentle man. Now instead of the kindness and love, I feel fear and stress. I’ve started self harming more recently and he doesn’t give a single fuck. I tell him I’m suicidal and he just tells me “that’s not good.” I’m stuck in a place I don’t want to be in physically and emotionally. I don’t know what to do.
He keeps threatening to shoot and kill my dog just because she growled at the puppy who was trying to bite her tail. He threatens to kill other people’s animals just because their owner made him mad. He tells me I can’t be friends with the neighbours because he thinks they need to stay out of our business. These neighbours have become my closest friends here since they have come to comfort me as I sit in my car and cry my eyes out.
I have nothing here and nothing to live for but my dog.
I want my man back.
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2023.06.10 05:12 chancelessdude Depressed down and out with no direction in Life

Just finished my first year in CS and thought I'd have an amazing summer filled with work, projects, a good social life, and some free time for doing whatever I feel like. Fast forward 1 month into summer, pretty much none of these things have come true.
After first week of summer, I started feeling a bit depressed, but it wasnt too bad. Now, I feel like crap for most of the day. Mornings are the worst, and I often wake up with my heart pounding very fast at negative thoughts. I come from a lower middle class household and despite this, my parents are super supportive of everything, wanting to provide me with the best resources to succeed. My parents have had to bear the expense of sending me and two other siblings to post secondary all within the last 2 years. Because of this, I absolutely do no want to let them down in any way, and I also worry a lot about their future, both health wise and financially. Thinking constantly about my parents finances and health is pretty much the main source of the depression.
Because of these mental health issues, I'm never able to focus and put my mind to anything, whether that be working on projects, trying to find a job, or interacting with peers. My days usually pass with me having accomplished nothing from the time I wake up to time I go to bed, and this makes me feel even worse. The fact that my parents are so supportive and care so much about me makes me feel even more guilty and sends me down an even deeper state of depression.
Not sure what I'm even trying to get at here, but if anyone has thoughts, comments, or has experienced something similar, please share.
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2023.06.10 05:10 Budget-Bluebird-334 How to create a framework using DG

I am working on an SCP campaign for my friends, and I decided that I would use DG as a framework. My main issue is I've never even heard of DG before this and have no idea as to how to even start creating a "framework", so I was wondering if anyone here had any idea about how to go about that? Like, where would I even begin to get the stuff based on the system and how to convert DG opponents to SCP lore based enemies?
The party appears in the middle of one of the worst containment breaches ever, causing most of the anomalies to be left unguarded. The Foundation, meeting these new individuals who appeared out of nowhere, employ these people to go out and contain the anomalies. In the process, they discover a grand conspiracy that spans dimensions, and have to stop the 8th( and likely final) occult war.
The themes I want to include/encourage:
-Investigation/puzzle solving
-Race against the clock scenarios
-Different maps depending on time and dimension
I want to include a healthy sense of both puzzle solving, investigation, and anomaly based action on both sides. I should make it known that the characters won't just be your average MTF, but a collection of anomalous individuals themselves who use various anomalous weapons to take care of enemies, aka, not completely human. So if the characters need to be human for it to work please let me know.
My main concern with Delta Green is that it sets them up as essentially detectives fighting gods, when i want them at least somewhat strong enough to fight back. I want it difficult, but not so difficult they can't even win the encounters. I will likely increase their health pools, but it will still be challenging. Please let me know about any ideas or if you think DG is the wrong framework for this.
If so, please provide recommendations.
Thank you!

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2023.06.10 05:10 Few_Appeal_1620 Is it unwise to use only condoms + FAM?

My doctor put me on birth control pills that almost gave me a stroke because she didn't think to screen me for contraindications with aura migraines. Plus I felt nauseated, bloated, confused, and full of random attacks of despair prior to the potential stroke symptoms.
When I read about the experiences other women have had with IUDs it really doesn't sound much better. A PAP smear was excruciating for me. I don't trust that an IUD won’t be even worse. Plus I have a masculine build and I have to be extremely careful about my weight because I have a nonexistent waist and my body refuses to store fat anywhere but on my belly. All of my friends who went on birth control also gained a lot of weight and look sickly now.
I'm moving in with my partner soon and at times I'm overcome with anxiety at the thought of having to try birth control again. I can just see myself ruining my relationship or becoming suicidal or fucking up my new job because of health complications. My family has a consistent history of debilitating mental illness. It just doesn't seem worth the risk.
My friend has successfully been doing FAM + pullout + condoms for five years (minus the three month period where she also tried BC pills, and consequently triggered interstitial cystitis which still causes her constant pain and prevents her from eating most foods.)
Attempting to even explore birth control sounds like inviting a shit-show into what is already a tricky transitional period of my life. An abortion sounds less traumatizing than dealing with this. Some people still get pregnant even when they're on the other methods anyway! My partner and I have not yet done any penetrative sex. He has phimosis so I’m hoping he might prefer condoms anyway since it’s very painful for him to have his foreskin pulled back all the way. Still, some gentle motion on the foreskin seems to help him so I’m not sure if the condom will ruin it or help. He might be in pain either way, but I'm worried he's going to feel frustrated if we don't at least try without them.
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2023.06.10 05:09 Hidden__Gem 60 [F4M] #WashingtonDC #MD #DMV #NoVA Relationship I'm looking plain terms

Hi. I'm a divorced, well established Black woman who is nerdy. I chose full retirement in my late 50s to have more time to just enjoy life.
I want to meet a mature single man, the closer to my age the better. (My son is 28. Near his age or younger is an absolute no!) I seek a gentleman who wants a long term relationship with a strong mature woman that includes:
-Hugs -Cuddles -Holding hands -Text messages that make us both smile -Date nights out/romantic evenings in -Voice calls/vid chats that make you sigh in comfort or shiver with need
Things I want: -Your time, attention and devotion -You sitting in a chair with me on your lap, while I whisper in your ear -Your eyes to light up when I walk in a room, knowing my eyes and smiles are just for you -old fashion courtesy/manners; open minded thinking and intellect -a best friend that I cannot keep my hands off
Things you want: -Attention from a real woman who will genuinely care for you -Praise when you've done well, encouragement after a rough day, respectful guidance if needed -A nurturing supportive presence in your life -Someone who knows what she wants and what she doesn't, and will tell you so you don't have to guess -A woman who will respect the man you are in the world and the good boy you are just for her -someone resilient who understands that anything meaningful takes hard work, commitment, good communication, room to mess up, own it, and forgive it (for real) to keep things moving forward
Things I need: -someone unattached (emotionally and legally) -someone masculine (doesn't mean you must be muscular) -someone well established in life who is not intimidated by a strong, intelligent, financially independent woman -someone comfortable with interracial dating (not someone who fetishizes it) -someone local to me or able to travel to me often (I have health issues that make it hard for me to travel solo. Happy to say more if we connect and see potential.) -someone with a sense of humor -someone who wants an actual relationship, not a dispenser of sexual acts
Things you need: This is for you to say, should you decide to message me.
What 60 looks like
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2023.06.10 05:05 Ok-Celebration4596 I'm scared

[Tw mentions of disordered eating]
I almost relapsed again tonight.
But my boyfriend just has a way of knowing these things. I swear, it's like magic. He doesn't even KNOW that I self-harm, but he seems to always know when I need him. He messaged me just as I picked up my blade. Said some sweet things, completely unprompted, which helped me to calm down. The whole issue is I was feeling unwanted, unloved, useless and worthless because of some dumb stuff my mom did. But he made it feel better, just by showing me the tiniest bit of fucking love.
Which is why I'm so fucking worried. My mom is starting to revert back to her old ways again. Yelling. Treating me not so great. She's started turning the WiFi off so I can't speak to my boyfriend, (We're currently long distance unfortunately) and my phone contract runs out soon, which means mobile data can't save me. If the WiFi goes off, that's it.
It's scary. I'm finally starting to get back on my feet. Starting to appreciate the fact that I'm still alive. I haven't attempted suicide in a whole month. A MONTH. Going from multiple attempts a day to a whole month without one was hard. But my boyfriend just makes me feel better.
He's the only person in the world who is genuinely nice to me, and does things for me without holding it against me after, or using it to justify doing bad things to me. He makes me feel safe, and for the first time in fucking forever, I feel happy. But only when I'm talking to him.
And I'm scared. My mom is being really snappy. Says I'm in my room too much. That it's all my boyfriend’s fault, and I talk to him too much. Because of the damn time difference, we BARLEY talk. Two hours a day is all we usually get, because of time limits my mom has enforced. And now she's saying that I'm isolating myself again and it's all his fault.
I'm not isolating myself. I'm just struggling to sleep at night, so I've been sleeping during the day. I don't have school, and I have nothing to do, so I don't see what the big deal is. It's exam season. I'm drained as hell and so, so tired. I've got one more exam to go, and then maybe I can try to shift my sleep patterns. But now I'm too focused on studying and planning and trying to scrape by and pass at least SOME of my exams.
And even if I was, it wouldn't be because of him. She won't stop making comments on what I'm eating and my body. About my scars too. She doesn't realise, even if she's complaining that I've lost weight (I haven't lost anything) or that I'm not eating enough, it can still be fucking triggering to be constantly reminded of the way I look and that people are paying attention to what I eat and what my body looks like. And when she mentions how my scars are fading it's even worse.
Her solution to my problems?
She said she's going to take my xbox (which I paid for) my TV, my computer, and my phone away from me if I don't spend time with everyone, dont start socialing more, don't stop sleeping during the day, and don't start eating properly. I've told her before all of the noises from all of my siblings really triggers my sensory issues and stresses me out, but she said I need to grow up and deal with it. And now I'm panicking slightly, because the only way I can keep in contact with my boyfriend, is online.
I'm worried if I can't talk to him he'll get bored of me and leave. And the thought of losing him, pushes me closer and closer to relapse. My mom said she's going to take everything from me if I don't clean my room, socialise, eat properly and basically act 'normal' and I'm freaking out here. I'm on the edge of a massive breakdown. If my mom does go through with her plan, then I'm definitely going to spiral.
Without my boyfriend to talk to, without him to distract me and show me that at least SOMEONE cares about me, I'm going to be all alone again. I'm going to relapse. I'm going to lose everything I've been working for and it's not fucking fair. I just want to run away at this point. I've finally found something good, someone who makes me want to live, makes me want to stay clean and makes me feel like I'm WORTH something, and my mom wants to take it away.
I'm just so scared. He's my everything. I know it's wrong to need a person so bad, but putting it bluntly, I get treated like shit most of the time. So when someone is nice to me, with no adverse motivations, no using it against me, just kindness, decency and understanding, it feels so magical and special I swear to god.
He makes me feel Wanted and Needed and Important and Loved. And I never get to feel those things. People always want something. But he doesn't. He just cares. He cares, and doesn't ask for anything in return. He doesn't make me do things I don't want to and justify it by bringing up things he's done for me. If I don't want to do something, he tells me it's okay and I don't have to. If things go wrong he doesn't tell me its all my fault. Even when it IS my fault. He just says we shouldn't dwell on it and we should move forward.
I just- he's so fucking nice to me. He makes me want to live. But my mom wants to take that away from me and I don't know what to do. There's no way I can fix my eating by tomorrow. No way I can fix my sleeping habits or clean my room in a day. And no way, without relapsing can I force myself to interact socially with people when I'm so fucking tired and drained.
I wish I had someone to help me. I would tell my boyfriend, but he has really bad anxiety and worries about my wellbeing too much already. Sometimes he has panic attacks because he gets so worried about if I'm going to be okay after hearing some of the stuff my family has done. I don't want to ruin his mental health over this. I'm just frightened and upset and frustrated. I just don't know what to do.
I don't want to go back there. Back to the constant suicide attempts, the cutting every morning and every night, the going days on end without eating. I'm finally starting to get better, and my mom is going to rip it all away. I'm so scared.
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