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Two Almond Moms at the stables
From Urban Dictionary:
A mom who is stuck in dieting culture. The mom who projects their fears of fat phobia onto their own kids. The mom who thinks she is doing good for their kids but is really causing trauma. The term originates from “The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills”.
“A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips is my almond moms favorite mantra”
So I was thinking about Almond Moms (this goes for Almond Daddies, Aunties, Uncles, Grandparents, etc.) and the damage they do due to their allegiance to a shallow, conformist society and unchecked trauma and I wondered which Mad Men characters would fall under this category; obviously we have Betty and Sarabeth (who discusses how fat her daughter is), Francine body shamed a PTA President (not to her face tho), Gail was clearly an Almond Mom to Joan (made that remark about postpartum Joan not at her "fighting weight"), Betty's mother was a total Almond Mom, Joan was a Hot Tea Office Mom to Peggy and made a remark about fat secretaries getting sandwiches, also we know how the men in the office reacted to Peggy's weight gain (makes you wonder how they'd treat their kids, especially daughters if they perceive them to have too much body fat, you don't need to be chubby to be on the other end of a AM's barbs).
But which other characters have this energy? Or would take a different approach? Did Margaret and Trudy grow up with Almond Moms? Peggy? Would Dawn or Meredith or Sally be an Almond Mom? Would Peggy care if her kid had thighs that touched?
Any thoughts (also if you downvote my post like you did my South Park one, I said nothing so I am not apologizing or gonna stop posting when I feel like it).

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What was the last episode reference to south park in stick of truth?

Over the past 15+ years the only park I've been to annually has been Knoebel's, with an exception for King's Dominion and Six Flags Great Adventure once each between 8-10 years ago. Due to scheduling, Covid and what not, last year was the first time I was able to get back to Knoebel's in 6 or more years. It was also the first time my daughter (4) was able to go to a park. After a successful day there, I decided to look into season passes for more local parks. We eventually settled on Hersheypark.
April finally arrives and I take the little one to the park. Early in the day it was easy to catch glimpses of Candymonium and Skyrush doing their runs along the track, and I didn't really pay much attention to the lift hill on Skyrush. Then of course there's the distinct sound of Great Bear. Whenever we heard the 'roar' we'd either watch it if we were close enough, or comment that Great Bear is going. One of my goals of the first trip was to test the waters with how she'd do on coasters. She loved Cocoa Cruiser, so it was time to move up to Trailblazer. She also had a blast on that, so I'm looking forward to when she's bigger for more rides. Next up would be sooperdooplooper for her first inversion!
I forget where exactly we were in the park when I finally caught a glimpse of Skyrush going up the lift hill. I was both fascinated and unsure of what I'd seen, so I made it a point to watch the whole process going up. Damn, that thing is flying up the hill! From there it jumped up on my 'can't wait to ride that scale'. Fast forward to last week and our 6th trip to the park (so far just the two of us), and relatives say they'll be at the park the same day. Towards the end of the day I finally got my first "big" ride of the season in with the Hershey Triple Tower while the little ones were on the nearby kiddie rides (not unsupervised). I'd forgotten what a rush the upward launch can be since the last one I remember being on was Dominator at Dorney Park probably pushing 20 years. We got to another small kiddie area and checked the lines for a couple big rides and saw Skyrush had under a 5 minute wait. I was excited. First coaster in years. My last one would've been Phoenix, Twister, or Impulse at Knoebel's. I thought maybe Flying Turns briefly, but I've only been on it once and I'm pretty sure it was the year or two after it first "opened". We hop in line, picking something with a minimal wait. 6th row, I grabbed the right wing. Here we go. It starts going and I'm absolutely loving that lift hill. We're to the top in no time and as we crest the hill, I remember one of my favorite things about coasters and that I'd forgotten what it's like to hit that first drop. The rest of the ride was a blur but I remember some bits of airtime, and obviously some twists and turns. Can't wait to do that again!
Finally the whole family is able to go in a couple days so I'm excited to finally get to ride the coasters throughout the day. My daughter also loves watching Storm Runner launch and finds it hilarious, so I'm sure she'll enjoy watching me go. I'm hoping to get to ride most at least once with careful, early planning but we'll see how the day goes. I'm going to skip sooperdooperlooper and Comet for now and just wait until the little one is tall enough, though I may test out Comet prior at some point just to check the roughness. Anyhow, thanks for stopping by and potentially reading this probably too long post.
TLDR: Title, and very little variety of park visits over nearly two decades. Fascinated by the Skyrush lift hill. Finally got a ride in after several visits to the park. Going again in a couple days where I should be able to get big rides/ coasters in.

Welcome

Spoilers DoD

Find the announcement post here
IMPORTANT- This is the discussion post for re-readers, who are done with the full Book of the Fallen series. To discuss events outside these, say from NOTME, PtA or Kharkhanas, please use spoiler tags. If you're not sure if your info belongs to MBOTF or not, just go ahead and use spoiler tags anyway.
Link to the general introduction thread

Prologue

Scene 1

This is our first introduction to the Snake storyline. It consists of a train of refugee children who are fleeing the provinces of Kolanse and are heading west. We are at the Elan Plain and the leader of this column of children is the oldest boy there, Rutt, aged about 13 or 14. He carries a small baby called Held while making sure she is protected from the sun by wrapping her well. Most of our PoV here is Badalle- a girl with green eyes and a way with words. The landscape is very desolate and it looks like Rutt is surprised every morning that they 'still live.'
Badalle describes various people/animals etc using unusual words. You can figure out most on your own, but could be a little frustrating, so if you would like to know-
Ribbers are dogs, Fathers are adults, Quitters/bones skins/Inquisitors are Forkrul Assail
She has come up from the south along Stump Road to join the rest of the Snake. She considers Rutt as the head of the snake and its fangs too. None of the children ask him where they are headed because it is the belief that he knows that is important.
We get the PoV of a 14 year old Visto who knows what the Fathers do to the children they steal away at night, because he has seen small bones in their campfires. The boy is full of a parasite called Satra Riders which would sooner or later burst out and kill him. He is impatient for the relief of death, and hopes atleast a ribber eats him and gets infected.
At the end of the day, Badalle looks back at the line of bodies of dead children they have left behind. The Snake of ribs is called Chal Managal in the Elan tongue. Don't skip her poems.

Scene 2

In the Wastelands, there is a nest of K'Chain Che'Malle called Ampelas Rooted. Our PoV here is the last surviving Elan tribal called Kalyth. When her settlement was attacked she fled the scene and feels guilty about her selfishness in abandoning her family. Alonmgside, we get description of this nest where the lower level is called Root, then Feed (where food is grown in the form of fungi and orthen- a type of rodents) then the Womb (where young ones undergo surgeries and are differentiated into factions according to the needs of the Nest), then to Heart which is guarded by Ve'Gath soldiers (these are purely for warfare and the Matron has been producing a lot of them, indicating that war is coming soon). From there she moves to Eyes, Inner Keep, Acyl Nest - home of the Matron. The final guard she meets is Brenigan, a 1000 year old J'an sentinel.
Sag'Churok and Gunth Mach have returned, and they report failure. Redmask was not the correct choice, and that Kalyth, who is acknowledged as a Destriant to the K'Chain, has made an error in choosing him. She, alongwith a small group of Guardians, is instructed to join this round of Seeking. She refuses but the Matron is adamant that they will find a Mortal Sword and Shield Anvil among humans. The adventure party consists of Sag'Churok, Gunth Mach, 2 more K'ell Hunters and a Shi'gal Assassin. The addition of the Assassin probably indicates that the Matron means business this time.
Quick note about the Shi'gal- there are always three present with the Matron because 2 alone might conspire among themselves and kill the Matron or each other. Sending away one of the Assassins is a huge risk, so maybe the Matron is descending into madness.
By spending all this time with the K'Chain, Kalyth has been given the gifts of their language and a higher percipience through oils.
Shi'gal Gu'Rull is sure that the Matron Acyl is insane. He considers humans, especially Kalyth, as weak. Since they returned empty handed from the west (Redmask), and the North is a realm of ice, they are to journey South. He takes off to do some advance scouting. He is flying out of Ampelas after 8 short centuries.

Scene 3

At the Wastelands, a ghost travels with a small group. They eat stringy meat from scaled rodents and a type of rhizan. As a ghost he flits from one person to the next and finds innate resolve and strength.
Sheb declares that all empty lands are useless and one day all cities should be merged into one. Last, who is a farmer, says that there won't be food if there are no farms. Before they can argue, Asane tells them not to fight. Sheb yells at her and Nappet defends her. He threatens to cut out his tongue because he knows nobody would object. Rautos (yes, familiar name) complains about his wife. Breath thinks he killed his wife by holding her underwater and drowning her. Drowning seeme to be her pet subject. At a distance they notice a massive narrow edifice. Taxilian (yes, another familiar name) wants to go check it out. The ghost is content to go alongwith them. He finds that Taxilian's curiosity is strong enough to overcome any misgivings from the others.
Now, you can go back and read this section again or click here to get an explanation. Or keep reading if you like a challenge.
the capemoths overhead note a lone, green skinned figure who talks with seven voices. He carries a sword but is naked and he is lost, maybe for weeks, maybe months. Many of us miss this and so the rest of the Ghost sections can be very confusing

Scene 4

After a long time we meet Heboric. He has plenty of visions.

1. A short tail K'Chain looking at a dragon nailed to a huge wooden lattice, with the nails painted a "rust colour". The dragon is denied death and has been bleeding and suffering, while the short tail seems satisfied.
   
2. Two wolves watch him from a ridge as he walks towards a number of statues in the distance.
   
3. Overhead there are drifting stars from which faint voices are heard. As he stares he is unbalanced and floats up.
   
4. Looking down, he sees more stars which give up a dozen suns of green fire that grew in size and sound as it neared him.
   
5. He sees Fener, a cast down god who is trapped like him. Both are in the way of the jade suns. Heboric accepts all of it as "The Abyss cares nothing for us."
   

To end this prologue, here is a quote from Heboric, speaking in the voice of "his enemy", i.e. the Abyss.

Behold, my friends, I am justice.
And when at last we meet, you will not like it.
And if irony awakens in you at the end, see me weep with these tears of jade, and answer with a smile.
If you’ve the courage.
Have you, my friends, the courage?

What are your expectations and misgivings now that we are in the final stretch?
Next week we read Chapters 1 & 2 only

Welcome

Spoilers DoD

Find the announcement post here
Important: This is the discussion post for new readers. If you have ever attempted this book before, please don't talk about events from later chapters. Err on the side of caution and use spoiler tags if you're not sure. Head to the Spoilers MBotF discussion post if you are rereading.
A note for re-readers: Please don't bring up any series wide spoilers in this discussion.
Link to the general introduction thread

Prologue

Scene 1

This is our first introduction to the Snake storyline. It consists of a train of refugee children who are fleeing the provinces of Kolanse and are heading west. We are at the Elan Plain and the leader of this column of children is the oldest boy there, Rutt, aged about 13 or 14. He carries a small baby called Held while making sure she is protected from the sun by wrapping her well. Most of our PoV here is Badalle- a girl with green eyes and a way with words. The landscape is very desolate and it looks like Rutt is surprised every morning that they 'still live.'
Badalle describes various people/animals etc using unusual words. You can figure out most on your own, but could be a little frustrating, so if you would like to know-
Ribbers are dogs, Fathers are adults, Quitters/bones skins/Inquisitors are Forkrul Assail
She has come up from the south along Stump Road to join the rest of the Snake. She considers Rutt as the head of the snake and its fangs too. None of the children ask him where they are headed because it is the belief that he knows that is important.
We get the PoV of a 14 year old Visto who knows what the Fathers do to the children they steal away at night, because he has seen small bones in their campfires. The boy is full of a parasite called Satra Riders which would sooner or later burst out and kill him. He is impatient for the relief of death, and hopes atleast a ribber eats him and gets infected.
At the end of the day, Badalle looks back at the line of bodies of dead children they have left behind. The Snake of ribs is called Chal Managal in the Elan tongue. Don't skip her poems.

Scene 2

In the Wastelands, there is a nest of K'Chain Che'Malle called Ampelas Rooted. Our PoV here is the last surviving Elan tribal called Kalyth. When her settlement was attacked she fled the scene and feels guilty about her selfishness in abandoning her family. Alonmgside, we get description of this nest where the lower level is called Root, then Feed (where food is grown in the form of fungi and orthen- a type of rodents) then the Womb (where young ones undergo surgeries and are differentiated into factions according to the needs of the Nest), then to Heart which is guarded by Ve'Gath soldiers (these are purely for warfare and the Matron has been producing a lot of them, indicating that war is coming soon). From there she moves to Eyes, Inner Keep, Acyl Nest - home of the Matron. The final guard she meets is Brenigan, a 1000 year old J'an sentinel.
Sag'Churok and Gunth Mach have returned, and they report failure. Redmask was not the correct choice, and that Kalyth, who is acknowledged as a Destriant to the K'Chain, has made an error in choosing him. She, alongwith a small group of Guardians, is instructed to join this round of Seeking. She refuses but the Matron is adamant that they will find a Mortal Sword and Shield Anvil among humans. The adventure party consists of Sag'Churok, Gunth Mach, 2 more K'ell Hunters and a Shi'gal Assassin. The addition of the Assassin probably indicates that the Matron means business this time.
Quick note about the Shi'gal- there are always three present with the Matron because 2 alone might conspire among themselves and kill the Matron or each other. Sending away one of the Assassins is a huge risk, so maybe the Matron is descending into madness.
By spending all this time with the K'Chain, Kalyth has been given the gifts of their language and a higher percipience through oils.
Shi'gal Gu'Rull is sure that the Matron Acyl is insane. He considers humans, especially Kalyth, as weak. Since they returned empty handed from the west (Redmask), and the North is a realm of ice, they are to journey South. He takes off to do some advance scouting. He is flying out of Ampelas after 8 short centuries.

Scene 3

At the Wastelands, a ghost travels with a small group. They eat stringy meat from scaled rodents and a type of rhizan. As a ghost he flits from one person to the next and finds innate resolve and strength.
Sheb declares that all empty lands are useless and one day all cities should be merged into one. Last, who is a farmer, says that there won't be food if there are no farms. Before they can argue, Asane tells them not to fight. Sheb yells at her and Nappet defends her. He threatens to cut out his tongue because he knows nobody would object. Rautos (yes, familiar name) complains about his wife. Breath thinks he killed his wife by holding her underwater and drowning her. Drowning seeme to be her pet subject. At a distance they notice a massive narrow edifice. Taxilian (yes, another familiar name) wants to go check it out. The ghost is content to go alongwith them. He finds that Taxilian's curiosity is strong enough to overcome any misgivings from the others.
Now, you can go back and read this section again or click here to get an explanation. Or keep reading if you like a challenge.
the capemoths overhead note a lone, green skinned figure who talks with seven voices. He carries a sword but is naked and he is lost, maybe for weeks, maybe months. Many of us miss this and so the rest of the Ghost sections can be very confusing

Scene 4

After a long time we meet Heboric. He has plenty of visions.

1. A short tail K'Chain looking at a dragon nailed to a huge wooden lattice, with the nails painted a "rust colour". The dragon is denied death and has been bleeding and suffering, while the short tail seems satisfied.
   
2. Two wolves watch him from a ridge as he walks towards a number of statues in the distance.
   
3. Overhead there are drifting stars from which faint voices are heard. As he stares he is unbalanced and floats up.
   
4. Looking down, he sees more stars which give up a dozen suns of green fire that grew in size and sound as it neared him.
   
5. He sees Fener, a cast down god who is trapped like him. Both are in the way of the jade suns. Heboric accepts all of it as "The Abyss cares nothing for us."
   

To end this prologue, here is a quote from Heboric, speaking in the voice of "his enemy", i.e. the Abyss.

Behold, my friends, I am justice.
And when at last we meet, you will not like it.
And if irony awakens in you at the end, see me weep with these tears of jade, and answer with a smile.
If you’ve the courage.
Have you, my friends, the courage?

What are your expectations and misgivings now that we are in the final stretch?
Anything in the Dramatis that caught your eye?
Next week we read Chapters 1 & 2 only

Something I thought was worth mentioning, the Star Vs. the Forces of Evil Pilot, Star and the Forces of Evil, just turned up this week after being lost for a decade (The pilot was made in 2012, and has been missing since.)
I've seen hardly anybody talking about this, but the pilot showed up in my recommended, and while catching up on the Sourcebrew Iceberg series (I'm behind, catching up) I saw the Pilot was referenced during the third video of the series, and realized you guys here might want to see it.
The source of the video is BBC Rewind, a small channel that just out of the blue posted two videos, the first announcing that they had found the episode, and the second being the full 13 Minute pilot.
Watching through the pilot, it follows a similar route to the third episode of Season 1, Matchmaker.
Here is the link to the Pilot. Somebody please archive this before it gets lost again.

I am high as balls and all the other stuff aside. That is something I just can't get over that one simple fact.
I mean, I am high on weed. But I did all of it when I had depression. Heroin, meth, cocaine, shrooms, and even the pills Johnny was addicted to. The best high there is Mary Jane.
So I have been on all types of highs and I never even came close to losing my bowels. So how fucked up do you have to be to do that???
And they weren't sleeping in the same bed. So she had to make the active choice to do that, walk down to her husband room, and then do that. What the hell was thinking during the walk.
And don't tell me it ain't human. I saw it and I have four guinea pigs the size of purse dogs. They poop gumdrops, that shit was bigger than them.
Like I have been married for 10 years. We have had our "squabble", it has never ever crossed my mind to even do such a thing.
I was a teacher and did have one student that did. He was 13 and had home life problems. He saw the South Park episode when Cartman craps on his teacher desk. Guess what happened to one of his teachers chairs overnight. He broke in the middle of the night to do so. He ended up in foster care after an investigation and did better after being placed in a stable home.
But he was a troubled kid, this was a grown ass woman.
My mom died from domestic abuse (guess why I took Johnny's side straight away. I saw my mother in his eyes) from my father and even he never even did that.
It is so embarrassing that I am embarrassed for her.
This dumb cunt could be living every person's dream of running around Johnny Depp private island, butt ass fucking naked and rich as hell. So why the fuck would you do it? And why the fuck would you downgrade from Johnny Depp to Elon Musk? He is not worth a few billion dollars when Depp is your last name.
Did she shit in Elon's bed too??? Did she tell him???
She can never outrun this. She can move to a cave in the middle of nowhere for 20 years, come back to society, and people will still recognize her as the girl who shit in Johnny Depp bed. That is embarrassing.
How does she buy a mattress? She can't go to a store and buy one cause people will make jokes. And she can't tell a personal assistant because she will always know her personal assistant is laughing on the inside. So how does she do it?
You know my husband and I use her name as a noun? Amber means "I am about to shit the bed". Like "I don't feel good, I am about to Amber the bed" of "I need to pull over, I am going Amber this car". It is because our two year old laughs at the word "shit" and repeats it.
My toddler is more potty trained than a full grown woman. That is embarrassing because our kid is afraid of flushing and public toilets.
I volunteer at the women's shelters in my mom's name and have helped dozens and dozens of men and women leave their abusive spouses and not one of them took a crap.
Why??????????? Why would you do something so embarrassing??????

Controversial, I’m aware (and no, this isn’t a post about being transgender). I know im going to get absolutely destroyed with mens mental health is ignored comments but I don’t care. People say they’re so lucky and happy to be born a woman but I don’t understand how. I’ve seen things like south park and the movie grownups and while they’re funny i feel heartbroken. “Why wasn’t that me?” The way they bond the way the don’t need to be pretty. Everyone finds them funny automatically but i’ve had to work for it, even after all that I still get shamed for being a woman. If a man said what I said they probably piss themself but no, because of the F on my birth certificate is also a F for failure. It’s so funny when boys pretend to flirt with each other but when I do it with my girls im called a lesbian. I hate it. I’m devastated.

I was messing around with chatgpt and we have came up with this episode outline. Im working with the AI now to hash out a script but im running into an issue about the length of the script and how long its responses can be. What do you all think about the outline as it is now.
"Certainly! Here's an updated 5 act outline for "Byte-sized Bedlam" incorporating our discussions:
Act 1: - The town of South Park is introduced to a new social media platform called "MemeWorld," which becomes a viral sensation. - Stan's father, Randy, becomes obsessed with creating controversial memes, leading to a divide in the town. - Cartman sees an opportunity and decides to form his own social media empire to capitalize on the meme craze.
Act 2: - Randy's controversial memes start causing turmoil in South Park, with the townspeople taking sides and the kids getting caught up in the chaos. - Stan, initially against his father's memes, begins to question the truth and becomes influenced by Cartman's manipulation. - Meanwhile, Kyle tries to stay out of the controversies and focuses on the fun aspects of the meme game.
Act 3: - Butters unwittingly collects and shows off Cartman's memes, including some with antisemitic undertones that deeply offend Kyle. - Kyle confronts Cartman, but Cartman takes a righteous stance, defending himself by pointing out Randy's equally controversial memes. - The townspeople, driven by the mob mentality, blindly follow and amplify the memes, causing further chaos and division.
Act 4: - Stan, misled by Cartman's misinformation, joins forces with him against his own father and becomes a prominent figure in the meme craze. - Kyle, disillusioned by Stan's alliance with Cartman, feels isolated in his efforts to combat the spread of misinformation. - The townspeople, consumed by the meme frenzy, begin to lose control of the situation, leading to unintended consequences.
Act 5: - The townspeople, realizing the negative impact of the meme craze, transition to dangerous TikTok challenges, with a particular focus on extreme food fusion. - Kenny unwittingly becomes involved in one of the challenges and, amidst the chaos, ends up in the pot of food prepared by the townspeople. - The kids witness the mishap, but their attempts to stop the townspeople from consuming the food go unnoticed. - The episode concludes with the townspeople unknowingly devouring the food, while Kenny's fate remains a darkly humorous secret.
Please note that this outline is a general overview, and specific details and comedic moments can be further developed when writing the actual script.
Let me know if you have any further adjustments, preferences, or additional ideas, and I'll be happy to incorporate them into the script."
About 90 percent of whats written all came from the AI, I suggest cartman was being racist to kyle because he always is, and i asked it to add in the death of kenny when it came up with the new craze as the cause i decided to make it into a tiktok challenge. I will continue to work with the AI and if it looks good ill post the script for everyone to see.

This story happend a little less then a year ago, I've posted it before in another subreddit but I stumbled across that post again today and it made me smile again so I thought I might share it here as well.
I work for a fastfoodchain with a big shiny yellow M on the roof and back then I just got promoted to manager like 1 or 2 months before this little story happend. A few trashcans in the kitchen were broken and since I was the only manager present with a car another manager asked me if I maybe wanted to go to a store to buy some new ones. - it was a beautiful summer day say ofcourse I said yes to the oppertunity to go out for a bit. So hopped in my car to the shopping center parked my car, walked to the store and bought 2 new trashcans. Due to the great weather I didn't wear a jacket or anything, just my work clothing. So I walked pass this random store where they were doing some sort of constructions and two lady's were smoking infront of the store. So I walked pass them and all of the sudden I heard "wait! Do they have an Mcdonalds here!?" But the shopping center didn't have one, my work is like a 15 minute drive. So I smiled to the 2 woman and explained where my work was located and had a little chat with them. At the end of the conversation one of them said something like "to bad, I really would've liked some chicken nuggets right now." We said goodbye and I drove back to work to finish the last two hours of my shift.
On my way home I still thought about the two woman and suddenly I was like "let's get them their nuggets!" - hoping they were still there - but I didn't wanna drive back to work so I drove to another Mcdonald's bought two 20 nugget boxes and drove back to the shopping center. Walked back to the store where the two woman were before and REALLY hoped they were still there. And yes! They were. This time I saw them before they saw me so I walked into the store and shouted "suprise! Nuggies arrived!" They looked up a little surprised, then saw me... and then the bag full of nuggies and started to scream of exitement - I've never seen someone so happy for nuggies before - so I gave them the food and had another little chat with them. And after them saying thank you so much for another 10 times we said goodbye again and I went home with the biggest smile on my face.
And even though I never saw them ever again this story still gives me a big smile on my face everytime I think about it.
So remembee people; sometimes its just about the little things to make someone happy :D

This story happend a little less then a year ago, I've posted it before in another subreddit but I stumbled across that post again today and it made me smile again so I thought I might share it here as well.
I work for a fastfoodchain with a big shiny yellow M on the roof and back then I just got promoted to manager like 1 or 2 months before this little story happend. A few trashcans in the kitchen were broken and since I was the only manager present with a car another manager asked me if I maybe wanted to go to a store to buy some new ones. - it was a beautiful summer day say ofcourse I said yes to the oppertunity to go out for a bit. So hopped in my car to the shopping center parked my car, walked to the store and bought 2 new trashcans. Due to the great weather I didn't wear a jacket or anything, just my work clothing. So I walked pass this random store where they were doing some sort of constructions and two lady's were smoking infront of the store. So I walked pass them and all of the sudden I heard "wait! Do they have an Mcdonalds here!?" But the shopping center didn't have one, my work is like a 15 minute drive. So I smiled to the 2 woman and explained where my work was located and had a little chat with them. At the end of the conversation one of them said something like "to bad, I really would've liked some chicken nuggets right now." We said goodbye and I drove back to work to finish the last two hours of my shift.
On my way home I still thought about the two woman and suddenly I was like "let's get them their nuggets!" - hoping they were still there - but I didn't wanna drive back to work so I drove to another Mcdonald's bought two 20 nugget boxes and drove back to the shopping center. Walked back to the store where the two woman were before and REALLY hoped they were still there. And yes! They were. This time I saw them before they saw me so I walked into the store and shouted "suprise! Nuggies arrived!" They looked up a little surprised, then saw me... and then the bag full of nuggies and started to scream of exitement - I've never seen someone so happy for nuggies before - so I gave them the food and had another little chat with them. And after them saying thank you so much for another 10 times we said goodbye again and I went home with the biggest smile on my face.
And even though I never saw them ever again this story still gives me a big smile on my face everytime I think about it.
So remembee people; sometimes its just about the little things to make someone happy :D

I recently made this post:
https://www.reddit.com/AncestryDNA/comments/13r1ggstrange_ancestrydna_ethnicity_composition/
Several people wanted to know the outcome of my sister's strange ethnicity results after I had my DNA analyzed by Ancestry.
Well, I got my AncestryDNA results on Thursday at 4am. It's been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster since then, and I'll explain why and give you all an update.
My "sister" matches with me at 1696 centiMorgans, or roughly 24% autosomal DNA. Whilst she could be a full-sibling still (but right on the very cusp according to The Shared CM Project and with virtually zero percent probability), on the balance of probabilities, she's most likely my half-sister. Ancestry list her as only having the possibility of being a half and not a full-sibling, too. There are obviously a couple of other relationships we could have in the same category (such as aunt), but given we're only four and half years apart in age, I think half-sister is most likely.
If you read the original post, you'll note my sister appeared to have one parent that is completely South Asian and this is what triggered our initial surprise and questioning as we're supposed to be a very Welsh family that can trace their ancestors back to the 1700s in mostly Southern Wales.
I got a predominantly, and expected, Welsh ethnicity estimate (78% Welsh). My father, per Ancestry, appears to be 96% Welsh and that seems inline with his recent ancestry from what I've been able to figure out. The rest of my ethnicity estimate was 9% English and Northwestern Europe (my mother had some English relatives), 2% Scottish (because, Ancestry), and the remainder split between Scandinavian counties (because it wouldn't be an Ancestry ethnicity estimate for someone in the British Isles without some viking DNA, right?). Zero South Asian ethnicity for me. I also happened to notice that my sister gets a Community: Bangladesh. I get West Wales, Central Wales, and South East Wales as Communities.
I match to Welsh people on both my paternal and maternal side. I've managed to link some of those matches to my family tree, and have now validated that it's very likely that my mother and father are the people who I think they are.
My sister shows matches on what she believes are her maternal side. And indeed, she matches to people in my mother's family. So she's also somewhat validated that we share a mum.
On her paternal side, she has zero matches. Zip. Nil. Zilch. Complete dead end. Ancestry can't find anything.
But this is also where things start to get really weird. And why I've gone through a certain kind of hell in the past couple of days trying to figure out what the hell is going on.
(1) I have a first-cousin (a maternal uncle's son) who's apparently taken an Ancestry test. He matches with me and my sister at between 1800 and 1950 centiMorgans (the lesser amount for me). Our genealogy doesn't seem to involve a double first cousin relationship, so I'm a bit lost here. There is absolutely no way he's our first-cousin at nearly 2000 centiMorgans. But wait...there's more.....he shows as a "both sides" connection from both me and my sister. Even though my sister doesn't appear to have the same father as me. Given he's twenty years younger than me and my sister, I think we would have noticed if my mother had another baby and he was somehow my half-brother. If I were to try and add him as a relative to my tree, Ancestry predicts his relational as grandson or nephew.
(2) My sister (half-sister) shows "both sides" as a link to me in Ancestry, despite the fact Ancestry shows zero paternal connections at all for her - but I have literally thousands of paternal matches and was able to trace back to who I think is my father through them. Again, she has what's most likely a half-sister relationship based on the number of centiMorgans matched between us.
I did go ahead and run my DNA through GEDmatch's "are you parents related" analyzer and it didn't find anything.
So, that's the update. I'm trying to currently convince my sister to upload to GEDmatch so I can do a more thorough match and see what actually matches between us. Ancestry seems to give us conflicting information and just doesn't go into enough depth in this situation.
tl;dr My sister still appears to be half-Indian, I'm Welsh, she's likely my half-sister, and we have some bizarre family endogamy or something going on.

June 5th
Europe
Bundesliga - Europa Conference League Semi-Final Playoff (Austria)
Maurice Malone (Wolfsberger AC on loan from FC Augsburg) Started at LW and went the full 90’ in a 2-1 Loss against Austria Lustenau (7.6/-) 0/1 shot on target, 24/27 passing, 2 chances created, 1 penalty won
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Allsvenskan (Sweden)
Kristoffer Lund (BK Hacken) Started at LB and went the full 90’ in a 2-0 Win at Varbergs BoIS FC (7.8/-) 0/1 shot on target, 37/49 passing Match Highlights
Tomas Totland (BK Hacken) Subbed on in the 81st‘ in a 2-0 Win at Varbergs BoIS FC (-/-) 2/2 passing
Joe Gyau (Degerfors IF) Started at LWB and played 84‘ in a 5-0 Loss at Malmo FF (5.9/-) 0/1 shot on target, 10/14 passing Match Highlights
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Superettan (Swedish 2nd Division)
Marcelo Palomino (AFC Eskilstuna) Subbed on in the 56th‘ in a 1-0 Loss at Skovde AIK (-/-)
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First Division (Irish 2nd Division)
Ryan Flood (Finn Harps) Started at LCB and went the full 90’ in a 6-0 Loss at Galway Utd, Picked up a yellow in the 54th’ (-/-) Match Highlights
Vincent Borden (Galway Utd) Subbed on in the 46th‘ in a 6-0 Win against Finn Harps
Giles Phillips (Waterford FC) Started at CB and went the full 90’ in a 6-0 Win at Kerry FC (-/-) Match Highlights
Patrick Hickey (Athlone Town FC) Started at RCB and played 89‘ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers (-/-) Match Highlights
Matthew Leal (Athlone Town FC) Started at LCB and played 66‘ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers
Isaie Louis (Athlone Town FC) Subbed on in the 83rd‘ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers
Franz Pierrot (Athlone Town FC) Started at ST and played 89‘ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers
Jamar Campion-Hinds (Athlone Town FC) Started at CAM and went the full 90’ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers. Scored their third goal in the 71st’
Matthew Baker (Athlone Town FC) Subbed on in the 89th‘ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers
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June 6th
Europe
2. Bundesliga - Promotion/Relegation Playoff Leg - 2 (German 2nd Division)
George Bello (Arminia Bielefeld) Started at LWB and went the full 90’ in a 2-1 Loss against Wehen Wiesbaden. Picked up a yellow in the 33rd’. Their now relegated to the 3.Liga (6.5/-) 0/1 shot on target, 18/23 passing
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Super League - Promotion/Relegation Playoff Leg - 2 (Switzerland)
Lucas Pos (FC Stade-Lausanne-Ouchy) Started at LCB and went the full 90’ in a 4-2 Win against FC Sion. Their Promoted to the Super League 6-2 on aggregate (6.6/-) 0/2 shots on target, 8/13 passing, 1 conceded penalty Match Highlights
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June 7th
Europe
NM Cup - 3rd Round (Norway)
Kobe Hernández-Foster (Hamarkameratene) Started at CDM and played 58‘ in a 3-1 Win at Baerum (-/-) Match Highlights
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Veikkausliiga (Finland)
Jack de Vries (FC KTP on loan from Venezia FC) Started at RWB and played 56‘ in a 2-1 Loss at FC Inter Turku (-/-) Match Highlights
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South America
Copa Libertadores - Group Stage (International)
Johnny (Sport Club Internacional; Brazil) Started at RCM and went the full 90’ in a 1-1 draw at Nacional(Uruguay) (7.2/-) 32/38 passing, 2 chances created Match Highlights
Michael Hoyos (Independiente del Valle; Ecuador) Started at ST and played 64‘ in a 3-0 Win against Corinthians(Brazil). Scored goals in the 17th’ and 24th’ (8.6/-) 2/3 shots on target, 9/9 passing Match Highlights
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June 8th
South America
Copa Sudamericana - Group Stage (International)
Alexander Succar (Universitario de Deportes; Perú) Subbed on in the 85th‘ in a 2-0 Loss at Santa Fe(Colombia) (-/-) Match Highlights
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June 9th
Europe
First Division (Irish 2nd Division)
Ryan Flood (Finn Harps) Started at CB and went the full 90’ in a 3-2 Win at Longford Town. Scored their second goal in the 58th’ (-/-)
Vincent Borden (Galway Utd) Started at LM and went the full 90’ in a 2-0 Win at Wexford Utd FC (-/-)
Giles Phillips (Waterford FC) Started at CB and went the full 90’ in a 3-1 Win against Bray Wanderers (-/-)
Patrick Hickey (Athlone Town FC) Started at LCB and went the full 90’ in a 1-0 Win at Kerry FC (-/-)
Matthew Leal (Athlone Town FC) Started at RCB and played 65‘ in a 1-0 Win at Kerry FC
Franz Pierrot (Athlone Town FC) Started at ST and went the full 90’ in a 1-0 Win at Kerry FC
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South America
Liga 1 (Peru)
Claudio Torrejón (Club Cienciano) Subbed on in the 70th‘ in a 1-0 Loss against Sport Boys. Picked up a yellow in the 90th’ (-/-) Match Highlights
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Past weekend's Post

1 clue is that they r all came to fromville via a vehicle from different locations. If it's some sort of random Supernatural portal that appears out of nowhere we should be seeing folks that walked their way through it or we should be seeing more animals.

2 clue is the dude that came with the tech genius guy which was conveniently and automatically killed by the girl (can't remember their names I stopped watching 2 episodes ago) the girl trying to off the kid was just a red herring the real target was the 1st victim. The reason so that the tech genius guy will take it seriously because they know that he will not.

3 they r all incredibly stupid which is a clue to its own. U know how it is when u r in the dream most of the time u don't have a control. I've had vivid colorful dreams. And there r dreams when I suddenly realized I was on a dream but then I don't have control. So far there are 2 types of scenarios I have when I realized that I am on a dream either I try to wake up or I try go on with the flow and explore. Bottom line I seem to realize that even the me who realize that I am on a dream doesn't have the full mental functions. I cannot read stuff but I do recognize color and see beautiful stuff. They r the same too.

4 the dude with worm virus and the white kid r NPCs. The trees r in world portals or whatever is the proper videogame term for those. The amusement park engr's wife started having some visions, hallucinations after she dug the house. She was given those to stopped her from doing something like digging because they figured that she showed a threat to the game.

In summary, they r all victims of a vehicular car crash which the company acquired. They r not technically dreaming they r placed on a VR space (kinda like San junipero of black mirror) because they can do most stuff but not all of the capabilities of a normal person should have. Take for instance, Boyd is a very capable guy because of his soldiemilitary exp. I am not a soldier doesn't have any exp in disciplined, armed conflict, warfare but of those of u who had, u can tell that Boyd doesn't fully exemplify the full capabilities of what it's like who had a military service exp. The genius tech guy prolly was there to test his pet project or he got into an accident in one of his extreme billionaire adventures.

Hi, I've got an honest question. "Am I enough"? It sounds like a question that belongs in "Am I the Asshole" or "Forever Alone" But I'm neither an Incel, nor a Virgin. I know I'm not "Forever Alone"... but sometimes a string of short relationships with a long romantic slump between each relationship, can make it seem like I'm Forever Alone.
So, that's kind of where I'm at. About a year ago, I was dumped. It was a 2 year relationship. It was the longest and most serious relationship I've had, and I still have not gotten over it emotionally. I feel like I'm at a personal existential crossroads. I liked myself, and was content before the breakup, and before this other person came into my life... but now I'm second guessing my lovability. I'm questioning if I should just look for someone that accepts me as I am, Or if I should go against what makes my life comfortable, and livable, in order to fit the mold that my Ex would prefer that I fit into. I'm refraining from posting this in the Breakups subreddit, because I'm not looking for someone to be my cheerleader and tell me everything's going to be okay. I want to know, from others, that are alone, and are looking for relationships... Am I enough for anyone?, as I am? Or do I need to become someone else in order to appeal to a larger pool of individuals?
So I'm going to give a TLDR; version of my pros and cons. Then I'll expand upon those, and you all can tell me if you think any reasonable person could love me as I am... or if I need to cave to my ex's demands in order to win her... or someone like her [because I really liked her, and want someone just like her, but I'm very resistant to the idea that it's okay to butter someone up, and then write up a list of qualities that your perfect partner would exhibit... and try to force someone to be that ideal person under threat of loneliness].
CONS: Divorced in 2014. Don't have kids, don't want kids, had a vasectomy to insure I don't have kids. Don't want to live with a significant other, and do not want to get married.(+) I am 5'10 and I maintain a weight between 165lbs and 190lbs. I do not exercise or pay much attention to my diet until I start to get closer to 200lbs.(+) I do not cook for myself.(+) I enjoy P0rn before bedtime(+) I am an insomniac that used to take prescriptions for sleep, but since legalization, I now use weed for that.(+) I live with roommates. I plan on buying a house someday, but I'm taking one of my roommates with me.(+) I am not poor, but I'm also not so wealthy that I can just throw money at any hardship that comes up without looking at my budget.(+) I have had many hobbies and interests, but as I grow older, I have less time and energy to put towards them. I also have less interest in them.(+) I don't like watching sports or talking about them. I do own a Gaming PC/VR and a bunch of different Consoles, but I don't play them often unless I have someone to play them with.
Pros: I'm very Kind, Patient, and Slow to anger. I'm very honest (but not in the "Don't like what I have to say? I'm just being honest" way that some people consider to be honest. I'm honest in the sense that I loath the act of lying, and I learned at a very young age that I'm just not good at it, so I just don't deal in dishonesty, and I don't get a long with dishonest or disingenuous people). I'm a very chill and "go with the flow" kind of person. One positive thing my ex did acknowledge that they appreciated about me, is that I am "Like a human anti-anxiety pill". I have a calming effect on those around me. I have a good sense of humor, that makes use of puns, is referential, spontaneous, and adaptive to those I'm around. I am a left-leaning democratic socialist, but I'm not "too woke to take a joke". I do not road-rage, nor drive like a maniac. I do not hold grudges, and I am not vindictive. I always prefer to forgive, and forget... or in the most extreme cases of slight against me... I prefer to remove myself from the situation. I also know when I am not needed nor wanted. I have no interest in stalking or bread crumbing someone that has dumped me. I'm not a jealous person. I don't pursue flakey, disloyal, untrustworthy people... and I'm not avoidant when it comes to confrontation... so if I'm with you, it's because you've earned my trust, and someone would have to be doing things that are pretty Sus in order to trigger my unfaithfulness Spidey Senses. [I'm not going to tell you to ditch all your guy friends... and I'm not going to get upset if you mention an Ex. I will get perturbed if I have to be constantly compared to an ex though. I wouldn't consider that jealousy... it's more like "I'm not that person, I am me, please don't bring baggage from your past, into the present"].
I'm a very cuddly person [with my partners]. My love language, in order of importance: Physical Touch (Giving and Receiving: Cuddles, Hugs, Head Scratches, Back Rubs, Sex) Quality Time Spent together (It's tough to engage in physical touch without Quality time) Words of Affirmation (I miss telling my partner that she's the best, she's my favorite etc... and hearing the same in return. These are, of course, earned words of praise. I would not say them if they weren't true. It may take a long time before I am comfortable enough to say them with the satisfaction that I'm being 100% honest).
I enjoy watching movies/tv and listening to music with my partner. I enjoy night drives to nowhere in particular. I enjoy musical events. I enjoy amusement parks, museums, zoos, going to the movies, grabbing a meal. I used to make music, and I'm contemplating getting back into that. (I do own a bunch of Synthesizers, Pedals, an Electric Guitar, and a Bass) I ride Motorcycles. I make silly sound fx with my mouth. I make silly voices and I do impressions.
Okay, so that' the Pros and Cons. I didn't go into musical/movie/tv tastes... but I have a pretty eclectic DVD/CD/VHS/Vinyl Collection as well.
Let's expand upon the footnotes I had up above:
Aversion to Marriage and Co-habitation: (I'm not afraid of commitment, nor monogamy, I just go between cycles of introversion and extroversion, and when I'm in my introverted headspace... I cannot live in the same house as my significant other, and I am of the opinion that there's no reason for two people to get married if they're not going to have kids or move in with eachother).
Living situation: Like I said. I currently live with roommates, in a house. One of the roommates is my best friend, and I've roomed with him before. My plan is for the two of us to take advantage of the cheap rent we currently enjoy until we've saved enough to get a place of her own. The only reason I mention this, is that one of the things my ex wants [in addition to me not owning a dog], it to live in my own place... without roommates. I almost lost my best-friend and roommate for good when I got married [and then divorced] I finally have him as a roommate again and It's basically a deal breaker for me... if I can't let him rent a room in my new place when I buy my own house. I'm never getting married... and my Significant other isn't moving in with me... so it's none of their business who I rent rooms in my house too [as long as it's not some horny party-girl]
Fitness: I'm no stranger to Keto, I'm no stranger to the Gym. I just don't bother with strict diet/exercise regiments unless I hit that 195lb mark and I'm looking to get back down to 165-175. (my ex would prefer I goto the gym regularly, because I'm an investment, and she's convinced I'm going to die if I'm not as strict about my health as she is).
Aversion to Cooking: I am not opposed to the thought of following recipes in order to prepare a romantic meal for myself and my partner... but the bottom line is, that I am not a food person, and it's no ones business what/how I eat when my partner isn't there to enjoy the fruits of my kitchen. If I could take a pill that would quell my hunger & provide all the necessary nutrients to support my health, my sleep pattern, and my mental acuity... I would totally opt for that pill. My ex is convinced that all adults should be cooking most of their meals at home, because it saves money, and is healthier. I call bullshit on this. Cooking for one, is not as economical as cooking for 2 or more people. I also work a job with a 45-60 minute commute each way... and when I get to the office... I'm usually dispatched all over the city. It's impractical for me to prepare meals to bring to work cold. I might not be anywhere near the work fridge when hunger strikes (and when Hunger strikes, I need to eat... immediately, because I get headaches and become faint... due to a combination of Long-Covid, Chronic Fatigue, and weariness from my struggles with insomnia). If I cooked all my own food and went to the GYM as often as she would prefer. I'd be losing an hour to the GYM each weekday, and an hour in meal prep [most likely while I'm hungry to the point of headache and brainfog]... and an hour and 1/2 to my commute. I need those two hours a day for rest and relaxation, and if I ever hope to get back into music/sound production... I'm going to want those two hours.
Weed: I wouldn't say I'm a daily weed user, but I am a nightly weed user. I don't identify as a hippy/stoner, nor do I resonate with the stoner lifestyle. For me, it's medicine and I treat it as such. I do not use it recreationally. I only use it at bedtime).
P0rn Consumption: This has been a major sticking point in every relationship I've had. My previous partner was the 1st person I've been with that didn't initially judge me based on my p0rn consumption. In fact, she was a consumer of it as well, and we would sometimes watch it together, and trade our favorite videos and NSFW memes. It was really nice to be able to share those kinds of things with a partner. I never hid my p0rn use from previous partners... but it was a situation where I mentioned it at the start... they weren't into it... I didn't mention it again... and then several months into the relationship my partners would always get restless and start looking for things about me that they could pick apart and dismantle and once they had nothing else to criticize me about... they would come for the p0rn. In some cases I would Quit consuming, and things would go on a bit longer until the relationship naturally ran its course... and in other cases I would Quit consuming... and my partner would constantly shame me and accuse me of consuming it when I had not... (and then they would run away with someone else... and expose themselves as a total hypocrite like my Ex-wife did).
In my most recent relationship, everything was amazing for 2 years. No shaming, No judgement, mutual enjoyment of eachother's company. We shared everything with each other including kinks and p0rn and movies, and music and hope and dreams. I moved 2.5 hours away from friends and family to live closer to her because it was a long-distance relationship. Then she leaves for a summer internship and when she comes back... she dumps me. She asks for "No contact" so the two of us can emotionally move-on without breadcrumbing eachother. I'm not a desperate stalker, so I obliged. 4 months pass, and I no longer want to live in that City away from my friends and family. I break "no contact" when I see her at the Gym, because I want her to know that I'm leaving town for good... and if the thought of running into me in public has ever given her pause about leaving the house and hanging out around town... she no longer needs to worry because I won't be living in that city any more. This breach of "no contact" ends in a weekend fling between the two of us... and then I proceed with my plans to move back. It's when I arrive back in my home town that I get the email from her with all the bulletpoints that she wants in a perfect mate. She basically insinuates that as long as I continue working towards becoming this hypothetical person that she wants... we can see eachother once a month. but... As I'm struggling to give up porn, and develop an exercise routine, and get back into hobbies, and start reading books, and consider cooking for myself... her friendly txt chats and phone calls become less about enjoying the conversation, and less about having movie/TV show watchparties on the internet... and more about her interrogating me about "What did you do today to improve yourself... what are you doing in your everyday life that indicates you're serious about continuous growth?" And I really started to resent this lifestyle that she wants me to live as a pre-requisite to someday being able to call her my Girlfriend again. Eventually she told me "I'm sick of playing Barb the Builder with you" and my response is "I'm not broken, I never asked you to fix me. Do a cost-benefit analysis of our relationship... if I don't bring you Joy anymore... or if that Joy is outweighed by this obsession with molding me into your Fantasy man... then maybe we should actually go our separate ways." And that's what we did. I haven't talked to her since January... And then... a few weeks ago I get drunken texts from her. She still misses me. She still thinks about me just as much as I think about her. She drunkenly says several times "I wish you would just give up porn so we can be together"... And part of me has been so lonely, for so many months... that I'm honestly considering Quitting p0rn... and then breaking no contact to ask "Remember when you drunkenly said you wanted to buy a house near me, in Phoenix... and move... and you wished I would "just Quit Porn so we could be together???" Is that all it will take to get you back?... or Am I going to have to tick off all the other boxes on your "Ideal man" checklist?
It's been 9 days without porn at this point. I'm trying to see if it's really true that the urge to view p0rn goes away after 3 weeks. But part of me wonders if I should just try my best to emotionally move-on... and find someone that's not an over-achiever, and accepts me as I am. I like being a chill person. I like being a calming influence. I hate taking life so seriously. I don't want to be like her. But I do want to be with her... or with someone that treats me the way she used to before she got it in her head that I'm a broken person that needs to be fixed.
What do I do? Am I an unlovable unambitious p0rn addicted loser who is undeserving of love until I fix myself?... Or am I okay the way I am, and I should just move-on and hold-out for someone that appreciates me just the way I am? Do you know anyone that could love someone like me, as I am now?

When I was in high school somehow miraculously I managed to have relatively good time - I had friends, girlfriend, was fit and performed very well academically, all of that despite suffering abuse in middle school and home, and lack of any space for studying (single room for 3 people, TV was on all the time). I was leaving that part of life filled with hope for better tomorrow, finally leaving my abusive household and going to one of the best universities in my country. Of course I was going to excel here and after finishing degree I would get good job.
Little did I know that these problems were not past me - they were just about to strike me with full force. First sign, that now I think of as giantic red alert, was that I spent 3 months laying in bed and playing games on my laptop just before uni started. When I actually moved to new place I dissociated all the time in front of my laptop screen browsing reddit and watching youtube, while falling behind in my studies. I dropped out after one semester and switched majors. But same thing kept happening - I was numbing my pain in reddit posts and comments, I had noone to hang out with and did not know what is going on. After few semesters I dropped out again.
Now, few years later, I am moving from one shit low wage job to another shit low wage job, making around 1k usd per month, renting room, no friends, no achievements, no qualificactions, no prospects to obtaining any valuable skills, drinking few energy drinks per day, literally vegetative state. On top of that I look like combination of drug addict and alcoholic because of rosacea and my mother's neglect of dental care, and it shows in a way people treat me. Now I look back at these years and I have no memories of them - when I try to recall any events my minds is just like blank page, basically dissociated my youth.
I am in state where I no longer believe my life can get better - I look like shit and fixing that would cost me enormous amount of money (orthodontic treatment + surgery, laser treatment for rosacea, etc.), when I try to learn something I think how ugly I look and no one will hire me anyway, what leads to flashbacks of many abusive moments in my life and covid time, when wearing mask made people being so much nicer to me. That leads me to feeling of despair, suicidal ideation and crying over how my father could left me when I was kid and let my mother neglect and destroy me, what leads to browsing internet like I did just before writing this post.
So here I am now, missing feeling of connection to society and hope for the future, both of which I took as granted almost a decade ago. Fuck my life.

PLEASE HELP I CAN’T FIND ANSWERS i (19f) was diagnosed with adhd and generalized anxiety disorder during an extreme depressive episode the winter of my junior year (the first full academic year after covid started). in the past 2.5ish years since being diagnosed, i’ve gotten a little better at managing the symptoms of these, and also take medication for both. i am now seeking a potential autism diagnosis (if you know anywhere near buffalo that diagnoses adults w adhd pls let me know i can’t find anywhere.). i have noticed that some of my potential autism symptoms have gotten stronger / my adhd symptoms have gotten weaker since going on adderall (such as making lists for my activities, being more motivated, focusing for certain time windows during the day, etc.), yet i ended up getting academically dismissed after my freshman year at my dream school because i couldn’t keep up. the first two months of school were fine; i was really happy, meeting lots of new people, going out, and maintaining relatively good grades, although it was a minor struggle due to my adhd (the strategies i learned in high school helped me manage). but some time in october, things started to go downhill. i had broken up with my ex, was drinking and going out more, hooking up with random guys, and just overall not living a healthy or happy life. (injury tw) the thursday before my birthday (which was saturday oct 8) i suffered a really bloody head injury (wasn’t deep, but a huge part of my scalp was scraped, and it got SO MUCH blood in my hair and on my friends white shirt that he had taken off to hold against my head until the ambulance got there) and got a pretty major concussion while drunkenly running while i was walking home with my friends and tripping on the sidewalk. i had obtained at least 3-4 /four concussions before this while playing sports (had three diagnosed by a school athletic trainer from sports but don’t know how accurate / fainting and cutting my forehead on my bathroom sink / having experienced two major car accidents, one of which was the summer before this. i was unconscious for 15-20 minutes, woke up right after the ambulance got there, stood up and got on the stretcher, and blew a 0.31 in the ambulance; i don’t know how so coherent or how i remember this in so much detail (also i watched my fyp with the really nice nurse bc he suggested that while they put the iv in so i didn’t faint which was very sweet). as i had mentioned earlier i got kicked out of college for failing both semesters i was there, which i had previously thought was because of my worsening adhd and possible autism (or even ocd), but since my inability to complete assignments and gain an understanding of the concepts i was learning at an efficient rate / communicate well with others / remember simple things (even short term) really all started in october, could it be a TBI or result of multiple concussions / repeated head impacts? especially considering i downplayed my (now in hindsight, really severe) concussion because i thought i didn’t feel any symptoms, therefore drank too soon after, and i still have a bump on my head where it hit the ground that still hurts to touch, and i sometimes get headaches on that side of my head. is it my already diagnosed and medicated adhd or anxiety? autism? ocd? tbi / similar effect from multiple concussions? where do i go from here?

(In case you didn’t see my edits to the first post, I decided to split these by type so they’re more digestable. Also, though I happened to do 1 first, I won’t necessarily do them ‘in order’.)

justification

Naranjo explained this explicitly but folded it under part of reaction formation, however I think it’s distinct enough to be discussed on its own – BHE also discussed this in a podcast episode without assigning it a name.
What happens is, the 1 has strong ideas and preferences about how things ‘should’ be and how they want their life to go in a regular, orderly manner – starting from the part of the reptile brain that is to do with regularity & sense of order, and then building on it further with their search for “the best way to do things” and the experience-based judgements of their implicit mind.
Much of the goal behind this is autonomy – Like the child that gets trusted with more decisions because they are so mature & responsible & don’t give others reason to scold them.
But what if someone comes along & tells you to do things differently anyway?
You argue that your way is right, whether that means its more efficient, more rational, more moral, more responsible etc. and so by extension theirs is wrong.
In this, the rational mind may well be employed to great effect (many 1s are doctors, engineers, philosophers etc.) but sort of in the way that philosophy was employed in the middle ages: Any paths of reasoning that could contradict “what is right” (in the case of the medieval philosophers, church doctrine) weren’t going to be pursued.
So if you have an 1 who prefers to get up early, they might espouse beliefs in the advantages of getting up early & how this is the most disciplined & virtuous way to do this, whereas if another 1 is a night owl they will embark on a mission to make workplaces more friedly to people with different circadian rythms, and neither might connect it to their own preference -
Instead they will completely frame it in impersonal terms of competency and/or superego – this way is most efficient, this way is correct, this way is what’s right. Or: That thing is objectively wrong & disgusting and anyone who doesn’t see that is a sick fuck. You’re not nitpicking, you care that it’s done right.
When others get the impression that you’re just trying to boss them & force your way on them, you don’t see where it’s coming from – it’s not about your way, you think, it’s about “what’s right”… so you figure it must be because they’re debauched or something.
Useful Question:
If you strongly feel that something is right: Is it truly the best method, or is it maybe just the way that you personally prefer it?
Note also that realizing you simply prefer it doesn’t mean you have to give up or self-flagellate for being selfish or failing to be impartial.
In some situations you might have an easier time getting your partner to agree to consider your needs & preferences if you say it personally bothers you rather than argue about the objectively correct way to load a dishwasher.
It’s ok to have wants, preferences & be subjective in some areas. Obvsly if you’re doing surgery you should totally follow the protocol as perfectly as possible, but ‘correct’ clothes or hairstyle is much harder to define.
You can prefer something even if it’s not “Objectively The Best”. It just ‘feels’ less ‘defensible’ because as a competency type you have a neutrality bias. And of course once you allow that it becomes natural to let others have different preferences.
Meanwhile, if you strongly feel something is wrong: Why is it wrong? Get that head center online. Now if you’re not used to it, this can be uncomfortable: 1s have a high need for closure and hence dislike ambiguity – they tend to want a clear answer, now. When you’re used to relying on the implicit mind whose output feels very solid, real and obvious, going into the abstractions of the mental center can feel airy & ungrounded – you might be worried that you might come up with an excuse or talk yourself into thinking some terrible thing is actually ok. But your implicit mind can mislead you as much as abstract theory might.
You might find that forbidding a lot of what’s universally agreed to be awful can easily be justified in terms of logical reasons. Look at the 6s – you can use your head center and still be morals-oriented. Be more willing to consider logical counterarguments even for things that trigger repulsion in you – just considering them without per se accepting them. Even if you still disagree, knowing how the other side thinks can help you persuade them.

reaction formation

But what if there is a desire that cannot be justified in this way, perhaps because it clashes with the 1s stated values, principles and beliefs? You can’t easily give up on the principles if those feel integral to who you are, why you do everything you do & why you should get anything at all.
So, the incongruent impulse is transformed into its opposite.
To consider why it has to be like this, it might be illustrative to tell you about a discussion I read on here once of various 8s (whose default tendency is to act on most impulses in an unmodified form) on how to overcome problems with impulsivity. Just trying to hold in the impulse through sheer will often doesn’t work because the next thing will just set them off, there is a quick connection between stimulus & response, thinking their way out of it like a head type might won’t cut it, but what does work a lot better is to point the ‘kinetic energy’ somewhere else, such as by exercising.
The gut types take in the world on a viscerally felt, kinesthetic level (Rohr, a 1 himself, referred to it as ‘full body blows’) & this leads to building up immediate reactions to it. So ‘redirecting’ the impulse, or rather forming an immediate counter-reaction to it, is more natural than just extinguishing it.
The purpose of the reaction is not only to “defend” against acting the ‘unacceptable’ impulse, but to “defend” your conscious self from the distress and incongrence of even recognizing the impulse, that is, to push it out of consciousness. Like saying some prayers to make the “dirty thoughts” go away.
If you read the experiences of 1s (or even 1 fixers) you see that the impulses already arrive in consciousness in this ‘civilized’ form: Not ‘this annoys me’ but ‘this is not good enough!’
The physically felt swell of what might otherwise be irritation comes in as frustration about how the thing was done wrong & how it could all be perfect if only the co-workers bothered to be a little more dilligent.
This is part of why experiencing an actual unmodified impulse can feel so threatening or shameful.
First they would be experienced as unwanted, ego-dystonic, incongruent with the self.
A rabit horndog is not who you are… and certainly not who you want to be.
There is not so much previous experience of thinking ‘I kinda want to do violence to this jerk’, or of having a horny thought… and then not acting on it for a variety of reasons.
So you might fear that if you loosened up you would actually be violent or sexually inappropriate. (which isn’t helped if the only time you cut loose if when you got so much pent up frustration you can’t hold it in anymore, so you overcompensate like a person going on a binge after an overly restrictive diet.)
What this may concretely look like is being extra polite to someone who lowkey irritates you (disowning the “bad”/”unresonable” feeling), or condemning something that you actually find tempting on some level –
Tom Condon described the case of a type 1 friend who liked to collect rocks. One time they came across a cool-looking amethyst geode in a shop window and the friend’s eyes lit up, but then he saw the hefty price tag and at once he started ranting about how ppl these days waste so much money on frivollous impulse buys. (his desire for the rock had conflicted with his value of being thrifty, so a reaction against it was formed.)
Condon then said something like ‘You really want that rock, huh?’
In this case the friend had the self-awareness to admit it, but with some immature 1s (or ppl with strong 1 components), they can get weirdly obsessed with the thing they’re condemning & the lives of people who are doing it. ‘Oh this fetish porn is so horrible!’ ...why do you know so much about it, mate?
(part of it is also that by confronting the “bad” and rejecting it, the sensation of your boundaries holding firm against the outside, you feel your existence, so when you are having self-doubt…
It’s the frustration thing of using “not that!” as orientation.)
This is how you get ppl complaining about people taking breaks, gender non-conformity, childfree couples, divorce, more empathetic rather than strict parenting etc. because how dare those ppl not give up the desires you renouced?
Ppl complaining about divorce have the unhappiest marriages, ppl complaining about the “selfishness” of the childfree are some of the most emotionally distant parents and so on.
Maybe you remember that horrible “marriage requires a mute button” article a while back whre that woman tried to sell you on the idea that every responsible adult must accept that marriage is constantly being irritated at your spouse. (with zero self-awareness of how she described constantly nitpicking, criticizing & failing to show empathy for the husband, & refusing to communicate her wants/needs)
When ppl responded to it saying they actually like their spouses or pointing out that divorce is a thing, she accused them of being naive because A Mature Person(TM) is supposed to make it work and accept that marriage isn’t a cakewalk, damnit.
Reading it you might wonder “why is she torturing herself?” but probably the value of “making a marriage work through realism” is very important to her.
Useful Question: Could it be that this thing bothers you because you kinda want it but think you’re not allowed to have it?
Now for the love of sanity, don’t go torturing yourself by thinking you must secretly want everything that grosses you out. This question is mostly useful to ask when you find yourself disproportionally fixating on something. Being outraged about child labor is probably just because child labor is outrageous, but if it’s a minor lifetime choice thing that won’t kill anyone, it might be worth considering.

suppression

The next ‘layer’ of defense, if incongruous desire or anger does leak out in its ‘raw’ form, is to tamp it down asap & deliberately suppress it.
You try not to be angry or desireous.
As gut types experience feelings mostly through body sensations so suppressing them also means counteracting the bodily impulse that comes with them – this is sometimes described as feeling like the rising heat of anger gets stopped at your neck & jaw, like a cork on a champagne bottle, or the relaxing sensation of pleasure is stopped by tightening & straightening the spine & pelvis.
So there can be actual physical tension held in those areas.
This also feeds into the self-judgement, because a suppressed reaction still happened and you still feel it, even if you put a stop to it.
In that sense 1s might be uniquely cursed among the competency types. You’d physically feel the anger or desire & the need to stop it. So someone might beat themselves up for even thinking of getting angry.
Another thing to note is that while this might seem at first like a relatively voluntary/ semi-conscious action, but when some 1s try to deliberately express their feelings more, they sometimes find the habit to clamp it down has become quite automatic.
- an extreme case of this might be ppl raised in very conservative towns who were told to suppress all sexual desire until marriage, but then when they’re finally married they’re too tense to have enjoyable relations.
Unhealthy 1s can get quite dour & joyless cause pleasure is suspect & suppressed.
- though healthier 1s will be able to relax & express feelings when appropiate, but still be able to restrain themselves where this is useful, like if you’re a surgeon or an emergency responder & need to keep your cool & keep doing the task. In that setting “defending” against getting irritated or otherwise emotional is arguably a good thing, at least for the duration of the important work, it allows 1s to be level-headed professionals.
Useful Question: Being patient, disciplined & restrained is often very useful, but are you counterbalancing this with some outlets? (dance, time in nature, and regular vacations seem to be some popular ones with well-adjusted type 1s)

Reparation & undoing

This is sort of a cousin of reaction formation in that it also involves “making up” for a “bad” thought/deep by doing something “good”, but the difference is that in this case, the horses have already left the barn, rather than preventing an incongruent thought or action these are about coping with the aftermath after it has already occurred.
The above constellation (particularly on the less aware/mature side) can easily produce a lot of guilt that then needs to be ‘defended’ against lest it set off the fear of condemnation.
Undoing is to take an opposite action immediately afterwards, which in the person’s mind makes it so the “bad” thought or deed never happened.
For example you thought about blowing up at someone and then acted extra nice to them because you felt bad about it, or you actually did blow up at your spouse but then buy them some flowers to “make it okay”.
In the case of reparation, the bad deed is not quite considered ‘erased’, it still ‘counts’ and there are still feelings of guilt and accountablity, but you made up for it. You’re a changed man.
This is like those people telling you about the wicked life they used to live before they came to jesus, but now they are completely different.
Sometimes making amends or focussing on doing a better job next time is, of course, a constructive way to deal with mistakes. (and 1s for their part also forgive more easily if they see someone’s willing to make amends, have consequences, show they learned something etc.)
There are two ways this can become problematic in less aware individuals, however.
First, when it becomes a compulsion to constantly make up for perceived ‘guilt’.
Cracked and ate a chocolate muffin? Now you must do 20 extra minutes of exercise!
There was an interesting anecdote on a podcast about an 1 woman who got involved with a more ‘wild’ guy, and then immediately chopped off her hair to something more austere looking, like she’d strayed too much to the wild side & needed to correct it.
The guy took it as mixed signals.
The Second is when the person considers their deed ‘made up for’, but others don’t. The wife doesn’t forgive you despite the flowers, because you can’t really erase what happened or the concerns she has with you.
Or the preacher guy who ‘came to Jesus’ expects to be forgiven by everyone now because he “repented and made amends”, “overcome his struggle with temptation” & that was “his old life”.
Another way this may look is someone considering that their spouse & kids shouldn’t bring up past grievances anymore because they apologized and promised to change.
others might well find it hypocritical when someone who has clearly messed up at some point in his life starts talking to you about the Best Way To Do Things and how you should be following their sage advice. They won’t just act as if the past actions never happened.
There is, of course, a strong incentive to believe in an espouse the redemption narative when it feels like the only other alternative is that you are an Irredeemable Bad Person(TM) forever. Trying harder to strive for the perfect world that ought to have been is one’s saving grace – if that doesn’t count, then what does?
So as understandable it is that others might call bull/hypocrisy, there is also a lot of pain behind this which, alas, often only causes the counterproductive patterns to become more rigid.
Someone’s response being “try harder!” (for all that it can be the 1s greatest strength in other contexts) can also make it harder to recognize situations where it would be better to walk away or stop trying to do the impossible.
Useful Question:
On the one hand: Will anything good come out of continuing to be harsh on yourself? Maybe you can forgive and/or accept yourself without feeling like you need to constantly work on “redemption” or “betterment” – especially if the cause of your feeling guilty is just being an imperfect fallible human.
On the other hand, especially if your actions impacted another: Does your idea of what would constitute restituition align with the wronged party?