Erika jayne spent 25 million

Hey all, first off, thank you for following my account over the years - just for being here. Sounds cliche, but "Shittymorph" wouldn't be much, if anything, without you.
As a man that has spent a significant amount of life homeless or living in vehicles, I empathize with the lower and middle class - I understand and see how important it is to take a stand against corporations when they act out of line.
Also, I was the first Reddit user to be tippable out of 350 million in real money - helpful for a guy like myself - in this way, the corporation of Reddit blessed me in a very personal way - and recently I've felt like my friends are fighting my family. It sucks but I also understand.
My point here is to let those of you who are leaving know that I appreciate you so very much. My account was essentially a self made treatment plan to deal with the suicide of my father - a way for me to find some laughter in this crazy world and I'm incredibly grateful that you participated and followed my shenanigans. I'm sorry things are the way they are right now, but please know that I appreciate each and every single one of you. Thank you so very much. - SM
P.S. If any of you want to connect on other platforms... I am Juicemorph on tiktok. Or you can email me directly at [email protected] - much love.

Just ended a DiD playthrough today, an incredibly strong mage in Fellglow keep hit me with a Blizzard spell and I was knocked down and killed, from just about full health to nothing... anyways, time for a write up!
This was my second playthrough of Wildlander (first one was an Atronach spellsword that died at lvl 16), and oh boy was this fun. A pure Atronach mage has been on my list of builds for ages, well before I started Wildlander. Many said it can not be done, that is false. It can be a very strong build, but not at the beginning.
Main skills at time of Death:

1. Destruction - 60 (mainly fire)
2. Heavy Armor - 55
3. Alchemy - 51 (if you want it to not be OP don't take the second lvl of the first perk until mid playthrough, it breaks the economy if taken early, much more fun like this)
4. Enchanting - 85
5. Speech - 70
6. Alteration - 25
7. Lockpicking - first perk

Dark Elf, started crossing the border near Falkreath.
The main problems with this build:

1. Obvious one: You don't regenerate Magicka, and as a pure mage that is something that is going to limit your growth in the beginning.
2. HA severely increases your Magicka costs, which can be offset by perks, enchantments, and a huge Magicka pool, but is still a problem to overcome. The benefits are great for DiD though. You can survive a lot more than a LA or Robed mage.
3. Magicka potions are 33% less effective. With Magicka potions being almost the only way you can gain Magicka until the mid game, this sucks.

Now I was able to overcome each of these problems, but they all took some time.
Solutions:

1. Carry 120,300 restore Magicka potions in your inventory. Always use them, hotkey them to the comfiest hotkey. The need for this never goes away (gets better later on though). When you're strong enough to beat shouting Draugr go to Solstheim and do Azhdal's quests. Do them as early as you can. You need the Ring of Arcana that gets you a flat 2 Magicka per second. This was such a game changer later in my build. I should have rushed this earlier. It won't make a difference in a fight, but it will save you a ton of Magicka potions by just waiting an hour in dungeons or after fights. Don't do the last portion of the quest though. Azhdal is a level 100 dragon priest, he will kill you if you go in there.
2. Run in HA as much as you can in the early game, let yourself get hit by mudcrabs, go get HA training from the Orc near Markarth (I didn't do this last one until HA was 40 though). When you are fighting low level enemies like wolves and mudcrabs take off your armor and use destruction. Always harvest the animals in the early game, Animal Fat and Garlic/Beehive husk is your friend, and will make you a good amount of gold in the early game (never felt OP though if you follow my advice). Once you are strong enough to fight bandits (have a good amount of Magicka potions and dual cast lvl 25 Destruction spell) you need to loot their items, sell the expensive stuff, and keep the light cheap stuff. With this you'll buy the cheapest soul gems and grind your Enchanting. By 35 hours into the build I had Fortify Destruction 16% on multiple pieces of armor, so fighting became a bit easier. By the end I had used elixirs to get 21% off on my Chest piece and Helmet, as well as the 15% from Azhdal's ring and the 10% from the boots (67% reduction total). This combined with a massive Magicka pool meant I was strong enough to fight enemies 30 levels higher than me.
3. Just make a ton of potions. Eventually you will run out of Mora, but don't fret. Elves ear is sold in one of the stalls in Whiterun, and in Winterhold the Dark Elf near the door to the docks sells a ton of restore Magicka potion supplies (20+ Mora, Ectoplasm, Creep Cluster, Elves Ear). Get good enchanted fortify alchemy gear as soon as you can, keep it in your inventory and put it on when you are crafting potions. By end game you'll be making potions that give you 20 magicka per second and allow you to keep casting during fights. Also quick thing, the College of Winterhold downstairs has a place to practice wards. Here you can replenish your Magicka with the 50% spell absorb, just make sure you don't do it enough to kill you. I used Transmute Blood a little bit, but ended up not liking it, felt too slow and risky.

Once this build got off its feet it was so much fun. Killed some really hard enemies (including a dragon) by level 26. Most of the difficult action started after I had 75 enchanting though. It's definitely a slow build at the beginning, but is a fun one for RP. For my backstory my Dunmer character was sent on a coming of age quest by his tribe because of dreams he's been having. He was told he had to find the Stones of Barenziah which eventually led him to Skyrim and then led him around Skyrim, doing quests at each of the places he went to. Was cool too with the journal mod.
What would I do differently though?
Play as a Breton and put my first 10 level ups into Magicka. Adding 25% spell resistance onto my endgame 39% would bring me up to a whopping 64% plus the 50% spell absorb chance. With how much magic school reduction you need on your enchanted gear having this extra MR would have probably kept my character alive right now. I also would have spent more time in different cities in the early game. Whiterun is nice and safe, but changing up your city and staying there for a few weeks makes the early game less tedious and levels you up faster. Also allows you to go back to previous places and harvest ingredients (I'm looking at you Mora).
All in all I've loved my experience playing Wildlander and have recommended it to a few friends. You guys did an amazing job bringing together the best mods Skyrim has to offer, to make the world really feel real. I sunk an ungodly amount of hours into this character over the past two weeks, and I already have an idea for a new character! And best of all, my game had a bug where Heimskr wouldn't preach in Whiterun... please don't fix it. Bliss, pure bliss.

Household Income = $866k (>$900k with current stock prices); $533k and $333k for self and spouse Spouse and I both maxing 401k (+ match), backdoor ROTH and mega backdoor ROTH for yearly contribution of $137K Net after retirement and taxes = $450k/year or $37.5k/month
HCOL Area (One tier down from Bay Area/NYC): Home Value $1.8M (fairly conservatively, could see 1.9-2M) Purchased Price $1.175M in 2014 Remaining Mortgage $780K (2.875% for ~25 more years)
Recurring monthly expenses: $16K Mortgage and Taxes $5,200 Home Insurance + Umbrella $225 Life Insurance (for both spouses) $90 Car Insurance $230 Gas $100 Daycare $5,200 (drops to $2,700 in September) After School $750 (increases to $1,500 in September) Groceries $1,500 Dining out and takeout $1,000 TV, Internet and Streaming $300 Electricity $300 Gas $350 Water and Sewer $125 Cleaners $500 Landscapers $250 Pest $50 Gym $300
Net Worth $3.6M (with home equity) $1.3M in Retirement Accounts $830k in Brokerage Accounts (public companies, mostly index) $150k Common Stock in private company (my startup exited last year to private equity and 3/4 paid out to cash and 1/4 rolled over as common stock) - Feeling fairly good about this 2-3x over next 3-5 years Checking/Savings $115K $160k - Spread across three 529 accounts
Wife and I are 37 and 38. We have 3 kids (2, 5 and 7) and are done reproducing.
Missing monthly expenses are probably clothes (which I'll estimate around $1,000) and vacations. Due to timing and having kids combined with Covid, we've barely vacationed in the last 7 years since having kids. We spent maybe $3K for 4 days at a driving distance beach house last year. This summer we are celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary flying our kids and a few family members to where we got married and rented a 6 BR AirBnB with a pool on the beach with some family members joining. Even all in this will be less than $10K. We think next year might be prime ages for a trip to Disney (3, 6 and 8), if anybody has any idea of cost and recommendations for a fat Disney trip.
Big questions are what exactly to do with the $15-20K after tax cash per month. My primary thought is just Boglehead into VTI, VXUS and BND, which is fairly close to how our retirement funds are distributed. I'm curious if there are better ways to diversify overall investments beyond just traditional equity markets.
One thing I'm really considering is buying a second home. After our mortgage our daycare (currently $5,200/month) is by far our most significant monthly expense. We'll cut it by 40% this fall and it'll be gone in 3 years. The way I look at it $5,200/month is one hell of a mortgage payment. I really like the idea of buying a summer home on the water (within about 1-1.5 hours from our home). Where I'm looking I see places in the $1-1.6M range, which is somewhere in the $6-10k/month mortgage at current rates. I'd want to budget under the assumption of no supplemental income, but would not be opposed to doing some limited renting (especially if there are any tax or expense benefits to be had). I really like the idea of purchasing in the next 1-3 years where my kids could make memories growing up. With remote work, I can see the family spending months at a time in summers and possibly even moving to some sort of snowbird situation once the kids are into college. This would certainly have a massive impact on liquid assets for saving and firing. What do I really need to be considering in adding a second property?
With our 1.3M in retirement accounts now, if we add $140K/year for the next 15 years we'd be at about $6.5M at 6% interest in tax advantage accounts. Saving an additional $10k/month in brokerage accounts on top of current balances for 15 years would be $3-4M range taking some long term capital gains into account. With a $10M target (do we think that's a realistic target 10-15 years from now or is $20M gonna be the new $10M?) and including home equity (do we believe in including this?) then firing in less than 15 years time definitely seems feasible.

Am I the only one that feels like there is a lag online? That when I get on there I can’t hit a ball for shit. I can play on Hall of Fame or whatever and score 25 runs a game against a computer but when I get online against another human being, I suck complete ass. It makes me despise the game because I’ve had it since the day it came out. I’ve completed every conquest every moment every promo even TA season 1 and 2 outside of June topps. I’ve spent probably on average two hours a day playing this game. I can recognize the pitches. I know where to pitch but I can’t do a thing online and I hate it. I completely suck ass when I get online. It feels like you don’t get the best cards unless you can be good online. Otherwise you got the same cards as everybody else. At least on madden which diamond dynasty is 100 times better than ultimate team but on madden, I can compete in weekend league or head to head with zero problems but not on here. Not here for that You suck ass comments or nothing like that. It’s a legitimate question. Am I the only one that sucks online LMFAO.????

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Without that horrendous bat flapping around and causing a mess for me, I'm now able to focus all of my efforts on bringing down the blinded bear colossus. It is unfortunate that I lost too many owls in the aerial battle, and that Alexa is too exhausted to help out herself, as that means I won't have any reinforcements available from them coming to Jackie’s aid any time soon. That being said, I know just the fish who might be able to make an early return in their stead.
Since they’ve been resting since the start of the battle, Selene and Hecate have been able to recuperate a bit of their mana pools already. Considering that I’m near 100% confident that it doesn’t matter how much the big bear regenerates if it can’t breathe, plus the fact that it doesn’t take too much mana just to hold some water in place, there’s not much reason to keep them benched much longer. Somehow though, I doubt it’s going to be quite that easy to take the bear colossus down. So why don’t we improve the chances of success a bit with all of this free manna I find myself currently swimming in?
Thanks to the sheer quantity of invaders Deepholm is swarming me in, I’ve got more mana to make use of than ever before, and I’d be a fool not to put it to good use. The steep requirement of having to pay 4 times the mana as any of my other scions to upgrade them is hardly an issue at this moment, so I begin the process of pouring my power into my fish. All the while, I keep an eye trained on the battle at hand, waiting for whatever it is the bear will try next. Deepholm scions don’t just meekly turn over and accept their defeat after all.
While I’m only halfway through providing upgrades to my fish scions, my caution is proven entirely warranted as the bear scion bellows its frustration and rage at the top of its lungs. Unable to proceed along a straight path due to Jackie’s constant interference, the colossus hunkers down for a moment in my lake and covers its head with its paws. Then, as soon as its eyes have had a chance to regenerate once more, it peeks out and gets a lock on my location before Jackie inevitably puts more arrows through the freshly grown eyes. This time it hardly pays the attack any mind, reaching down to its flank with those huge claws and ripping free a sizable chunk of its own flesh. With a great heave, the bear scion sent the chunk sailing through the air where it crashed with a meaty splat against the trunk of my tree.
First of all, …gross. Secondly, that bear has surprisingly good aim to be able to nail the part of my tree trunk that is perfectly in line with where my core is. Lastly, heh-heh, I’m in danger. Unable to use its sight, and no longer able to rely on the bat scion for its sonic guidance, the bear has resorted to using smell to guide its way. And what better trail to follow with one’s strong sense of smell than the stench of one’s own blood and viscera? Without a moment of hesitation, the bear scion is back on its feet, and charging forward once more.
This time, there’s truly nothing we can do to stop its advance, the bear’s nose is too big to fully destroy the bear’s sense of smell, even with Jackie’s arrows desperately blasting pieces off of it. With a tremor that I can feel throughout the entire island, the bear scion slams headfirst into the high cliffs, which only serves to daze the beast for but a moment before it starts awkwardly clambering upwards. I curse vehemently, at this rate the colossus will reach my tree before I’m done with upgrading the twins. I can cut it short and make the current upgrade the last one, but it will still take a minute or so for the twins to become accustomed to their strengthened bodies.
It doesn’t take long for the bear’s claws to scramble against the top of the cliffs, digging in for extra purchase, shortly followed thereafter by the beast’s snarling and arrow-riddled cranium. The twins have only just finished absorbing the mana from the latest upgrade, they’re not going to make it in time. It is at that moment that my saviors made their gallant entry into the fray. Cutting a swathe through the remaining army of normal invaders charged not any of my scions, but the brave surviving members of my defensive forces. Having abandoned their defensive chokepoint in the entrance cave, a combined throng of brawler bunnies and leopards led the way as my froglings and flechette-pines provided cover fire. Beside me, I can feel the consternation roll off of Giorno as he tries to keep some semblance of organization in place amidst an attack that he had most certainly not ordered.
Though our tactics have done a great deal in leveling the playing field in the battle between denizens, there are still a lot of enemies left to deal with, and this attack will only open us up to many more unnecessary casualties. Underneath his annoyed countenance however, I do detect a hint of pride in their reckless attempts to buy me more time. An attempt that certainly pays its dividends.
With a series of tremendous leaps, the brawler bunnies and leopard forces bound up to the limbs of the bear scion and begin hacking away at it with sharp claws and stone swords. They scale up the beast, slashing at every joint and every digit along the way. The colossus roars in pain and slips from the cliffside as the tendons in each limb are systematically severed time and time again. But this moment of victory comes at far too steep a cost.
When the bear scion crashes back into the lake, its sheer mass flattens dozens of my brave denizens at a time. From there it thrashes about, crushing some more of my stalwart defenders and sending others flying through the air. Not wasting the opportunity, my denizens lead the enemy scion over to the remnants of the invader army, where both sides become equally devastated by the beast’s angry flailing. I try to call my denizens back, telling them to retreat, that they’d done enough already. When that failed, I resorted to using some of my mana to make it a direct order. Retreat already! The twins are on the way, swimming around the south side of the island as we speak. There’s no need for any more of you to die!
I can feel the mana drain away as the orders take hold, but then I got a unanimous response back through Alexa’s network. Every single one of them started the retreat and then volunteered themselves to be a rearguard to help cover the escape. Even though technically they were following through with my order, not a single denizen so much as turned around or took a single step backward. They were loopholing me! Those damnable, brave, fools were refusing to leave until my scions could arrive. Who the heck taught you bastards to test the limits of the rules and look for ways to bend them in your favor anyhow!?
It took less than a minute for my twins to arrive. But it took even less time for the bear colossus to finish with its rampage. Now the only living combatants faced each other over a lake stained to the same red as the bear scion’s eyes. As a healer, Selene has seen more than her fair share of nasty injuries, as well as plenty of corpses from my previous encounters with Deepholm’s invaders. But even still, all that experience could not have prepared her for the sight of the slaughter before her. All the violent thrashing had thoroughly frothed the water of the lake, but rather than help hide the bodies below with the white foam it only served to accentuate them by clinging to whatever pieces remained above water.
It left my poor fish heartbroken. Disgust and despair raged inside her alongside a powerful wave of guilt at not recovering fast enough to be able to come to their aid in time. I know, sweetie, I know. But those denizens out there? They bought us enough time to stop any more atrocities from happening. They bet everything on you two and Jackie, and now it’s time to make sure we don’t waste a single death. All that anguish and sorrow you’re feeling? I need you to use it. Use it to hone a blade in your heart to turn against those who spread such senseless violence. It’s time to take up the second half of the saint’s job and smite down that walking calamity of a bear. And you’re not alone, Hecate is right beside you along with Jackie, and together, I know you all can do this.
Pep talk done, Hecate gives her sister a loving nuzzle under her chin before turning her hate-filled eyes to the bear scion as well. She isn’t taking kindly to all the desolation wrought by the colossus either, and is especially pissed by how upset it is making her kind-hearted twin. The white crescent moon mark on her forehead glows faintly in response to her roiling emotions, while after a few deep breaths, Selene’s black crescent moon mark does the same, her eyes now steeled in vindictive determination.
As one, they lifted a massive ball of water into the air and slammed it into the bear scion’s face, completely covering it in a matter of seconds. Meanwhile, I begin the process of funneling mana into Jackie for her own upgrades. The beast hasn’t shown any magical capacity besides its regeneration, but who knows? Maybe it has something up its sleeve that would save it from the same fate as its companion. Better safe than sorry in this case, no?
Evidently, I was correct to prepare for the backup plan, because rather than struggle against the water bubble encasing its face, the bear colossus calmly slurped the water down. The vast amounts of suction overwhelmed the amount of mana the twins could use to keep the water in place, and so it simply disappeared down the beast’s gullet with a taunting smile that seemed to say, “Thanks for the refreshing drink, I was feeling rather parched”. Not a smidge of magic was used, or needed, to easily trounce my hopes of drowning our problems away. What stood before us surely could not be described as anything but the epitome of relentless brute force, a fact which has now been hammered home rather insultingly by the defeat of my plans through lung power of all things.
With a challenging roar, the bear plowed forward while ignoring the twin’s follow up attacks. Right, plan B it is then. If we can’t suffocate him, then we’ll just have to overwhelm his regeneration with more damage than it can keep up with! In but a moment the bear scion has slammed into my cliffside and begins scaling it once more. This time, Selene and Hecate are there to stop it from making any meaningful progress, their watery slashes biting deep into flesh and disabling limbs long enough for the next attack to land. Where Hecate’s attacks strike necrosis quickly follows, seeping into the flesh until the entire mass falls off to be replaced by newly regenerated meat. Meanwhile, Selen’s strikes shine with the radiant power of her light mana, her slices digging deep through muscles, tendons, and all the way to the bones beneath.
Together they manage to keep the colossus pinned in place to the craggy wall of my island, allowing Jackie all the time she needs to hop around and unleash a torrent of her aether arrows. Rather than strike into the beast herself however, I have her shoot the cliffs themselves where she then sprouts much more massive vines than usual to grasp at the enemy scion and bind it in place. I know that the twins will run out of mana long before I can bleed this invader dry in a battle of attrition, so instead my goal here is to line Jackie up for one big shot to put an end to this colossus once and for all.
Bounding up to the top of the cliff, right over the massive head of the bear, Jackie grows the limbs of her bow out further than even its longbow form, one side planting itself firmly into the stone. With a mighty heave, she stands upon the bow’s limbs and pushes down with all the strength in her legs while hoisting up on the drawstring with her arms. A ballista-sized arrow grows into place, aimed straight down to the skull of the beast below. Through this, Jackie channels the full force of her wind aether. With my hand on her back, I speak softly to into her mind through the bond we share.
“The bigger they are, the harder they fall. Let’s do this Jackie, together!”
Through my hand I channel even more mana into Jackie than before, really packing it into her as fast as the upgrades can handle. 2 more, then 5, then 10. The power swirls around her like a maelstrom that would have left anybody else gritting their teeth to ride out the storm. But not my Jackie. As much as I pushed the mana into her, she matched me by pulling it into her control right away, weaving it into her aether flawlessly. Around the arrow tip the air began to swirl, faster and faster, like a drill turned up to turbo speeds.
This obviously did not go unnoticed by the bear scion, but it was too late for the behemoth to avoid its fate. Bound up tightly in Jackie’s vines while Selen and Hecate kept its prodigious strength locked away through their continuous onslaught. Their mana has already depleted dangerously low once again, but their combined efforts have bought us all the opportunity we need. All the enemy can do is flounder uselessly in its restraints, glaring balefully at Jackie and its impending doom.
With a boom the arrow disappears from Jackie’s bow, boring a path straight through the entire length of the bear scion and continuing deep into the ground beneath it. Jackei’s wind arrow had accelerated freely without any resistance, twisting the air in front of it out of the way and turning the space in front into a devastating drill. Meanwhile, just behind the shaft, the collapse of the resulting vacuum pushed the arrow along even faster than any projectile has ever flown before in this world.
The twisting motion of the air and the shockwaves from the collapsing vacuum bubble didn’t just serve to speed up the arrow however. Like a delayed reaction after the arrow had already sped through, I watched as a spray of blood exploded from the bear’s body, accompanied by the splash of water beneath its feet. I watched as the beast’s jaw was ripped away to hang loosely by a strip of flesh on the right side of its head. From there the arrow had traveled down into the beast’s shoulder and blazed a path all the way through its chest cavity, the aftershocks ripping the bear’s body apart and leaving its left side barely attached anymore. It looked as if some giant had cleaved its axe down the bear’s side, all the way from the shoulders to the hips.
The scion had managed to avoid an instantly fatal blow by twisting its head as far to the side as possible, but that proved to only postpone the inevitable at this point. With that much damage to the internal organs, it couldn’t hope to recover in time. We’d done it, we’d won!
Joyfully, I turned to Giorno, ready to send some mana down to Kelvin next, but what I saw froze me in my tracks. This whole battle, Giorno had been his usual calm and composed self, issuing orders and cooly commanding our forces. But now, he was trembling with a visual amount of fear, his skin blanched of all color. Thoroughly spooked, I racked my brain for anything I might have missed, but I got my answer sooner than expected.
“Kill it, kill it now! We don’t have any time, finish it before it's too late! It’s going to do something to the bear!”
Dutifully, Jackie and the twins ready their next attacks to hasten the bear scion’s demise, but something Giorno said stuck out to me. Wait, the bear is the subject of his sentence, not the object for some reason. But…, that would have to mean…
With wide eyes, I come to a dreadful realization, I never got a mana notification for the bat scion. No, no! No WAY that bastard survived, right? Feeling the sneaking march of dread closing in on my throat, I check the spot where the bat scion had crashed into my island. There it lay, wings in tatters and its chest caved in from impacting the ground, lying in a pool of its own blood. By all accounts, it appears to be dead. But that’s when I notice something off. The pool of blood is moving.
Right before my eyes, I watch as little bubbles capture air inside, and then get mixed in the blood as it slowly circulates out of the lethal wounds and then back into the bat’s body. It must have kept conscious through the crash and is now using its blood magic to just barely keep itself alive. Would that be all the bat was up to, I would have breathed a sigh of relief. But no, all around the crash were scattered splotches of fresh blood, drawn out into a foreboding set of interlocking symbols when viewed from above. The bat was casting something, using its own life as fuel. With a weak wheeze in place of a laugh, the bat scion spoke for one final time.
“Glory be to the Mountainlord. Blood Arts: Sacrifice.”
Accompanied by the ding of a new notification, I watched in horror as all the blood was forcibly wrested from the bat scion’s fresh corpse, instantly mummifying it into a dried-out husk. Then that mass of brackish liquid moved faster than it had any right to, thin tendrils shooting out from the main body quickly dragging the blob to the edge of the island. Before any of my scions could react, it had already latched onto the dying bear’s head and begun pouring itself forcibly through every orifice it could reach.
Writhing in agony at the black-red liquid shoving itself down its throat, nostrils, and eye sockets, my scions lashed into the bear’s body with as much strength as they could, but to no avail. The wounds would begin closing before their attacks could even finish, and from the bear’s torso sprouted several bloody tentacles which wrapped themselves around the dangling left side, pulling it back into place with a wet squelch. The newfound regeneration didn’t, perhaps couldn’t, stop there however. All over the colossus’s body something churned beneath its hide.
Every single muscle in the behemoth’s body squirmed as it doubled, then tripled in size, in some places rupturing the skin as it struggles to contain the roiling mass of flesh. Muscle fibers sprung from the fur like weeds sprouting out of fertile ground, twitching and flailing about looking for something to connect to, until the beast’s entire form was nothing but a bulging mass of undulating flesh vaguely shaped like a bear. From the monstrosities head, the repaired jaw split open far wider than anything still attached to the skull to allow, revealing row after row of sharp fangs growing into place all the way down its throat.
With an unearthly screech, the monstrosity easily tore itself free of the vines and took a swipe at Jackie with its misshapen foreleg. Nobody must have told Deepholm that inflating your musculature so much is a direct reduction in flexibility however, because the blow was slow and cumbersome, allowing Jackie to easily vault backwards out of reach. But Deepholm didn’t need to care about such silly things like flexibility, or the limits of a physical body, as halfway through the swing a series of cracks could be heard as the bear monstrosity’s muscles broke every single bone in its arm, causing it to suddenly stretch out on just the muscles and ligaments, increasing in speed as the limb turned into an impromptu flesh whip tipped with giant claws.
Caught completely by surprise, Jackie could only try to form a hasty shield of roots with her life aether, but the abomination’s claws sundered it with ease, cleaving through her bow, then her arm, and finally raking across her torso. My girl hit the ground, hard, and didn’t get back up. Meanwhile, the twins were still desperately flinging any kind of attack they could think at the bear horror, all to no avail. This affront to nature had such strong regeneration now that nothing in their repertoire could hope to leave any lasting damage.
With thundering steps, the abomination practically oozed up onto my island, all four legs standing firmly upon my territory for the first time. A few steps brought it close enough to brush up against my trunk, and then it sunk its claws deep into the bark and tore a ginormous chunk of wood free. As easily as tearing apart cardboard, Deepholm’s monstrosity began to dig its way deeper and deeper towards my sanctum, and inevitable destruction. From beside my core, a loud snap rang out as the inspector’s white-knuckle grip finally crushed the handle of her kanabo.
“Damn it all, I can’t just sit here at let this happen! I have to–”
Whatever she was about to say was cut off as she took her first step forward, weapon raised with the intent to join the fray. Instantly she was beset by floating swords made of light on all sides, not even given enough time to swear before they all plunged into her body. With a gasp Lydia fell to the floor, covered in wounds. She’d managed to use her ki to shift the trajectory of enough blades away from her vital organs, but she was still grievously wounded and wouldn’t be doing any fighting any time soon.
In what felt like no time at all, the fleshy abomination had reached the final bit of wood separating me from the outside world. With a psychic scream of determination, Leonardo charged forth, combining his life and kinetic affinities to try and brace that final barrier, but his efforts were carelessly brushed aside as the bear’s claws crashed through anyways, collapsing a pile of splinted timber down upon my peaceful crafter. From above and behind, Alexa had joined the twins in trying to drag the enemy scion back, but with barely a sliver of mana left between the three of them, they were little more than flies buzzing uselessly through the air to it.
Fully exposed to the outside world for the first time since my birth into this world, I was now face to face with the monstrosity as it raised its claws for one final strike. But oddly, all the fear and terror that had frozen me still before was utterly absent. I couldn’t even focus on the looming mountain of death in front of me, nor on the panicked shrieks of my scions as they struggled to the last. Rather, my gaze fell upon the prone form of the very first scion I had designated. My strongest defender, and the most earnest girl you would ever meet. With my focus beside her, I could tell that my brave girl was just barely hanging onto life, but she wouldn’t last long at this rate. Every shaky breath was accompanied by a wave of anguish washing over the bond.
Even without a proper physical form, I knelt beside her and gathered her up into one final embrace. I’m so sorry Jackie. The UI might call you guys scions, but truthfully you have all been a family to me, right from the start. I never had one, back in my previous life, so I know I must have messed up so many times, in so many ways. But even still, I had a blast getting to know each and every one of you, wishing for each day to stretch into infinity so I could enjoy our time together forevermore. But I’ve failed you, I’ve failed you all. I’m sorry I couldn’t give you a life full of happier days, and I hope whatever comes in the next life, you can forgive me.
“You’ve been the best daughter I could have ever asked for. I love you.”
Jackie PoV
Everything hurts. My ears won’t stop ringing, and everything around me is moving in super slow motion. Through blurry eyes, I can see my arm lying just out of reach, still clutching my bow tightly, well, half of it anyways. Further away, I can see the blurry shape of the gross thing from Deepholm tearing its way through Mama’s tree. The twins and Alexa were swooping around behind it, but there was no stopping the beast anymore. Pain throbbed through my chest, my heart heavy as it slowly pumped my blood out onto the ground.
I’d failed, again. Right when it mattered most. Some huntress I’d turned out to be. Sure I was able to handle the regular invaders, but against every enemy that ever posed a serious threat, I’d been beaten every time. When I first lost to Miss Lydia, it hadn’t been so bad. Mama told me to learn from it and grow stronger for next time. I’d been useless too against those water birds on the first day. So I trained, and then I trained and I trained and I trained some more. Till the calluses on my paws were bleeding, I practiced every day.
For some reason Mama didn’t like that though, so she forced me to take breaks pretty regularly after that. At first, it felt like she didn’t have faith that my efforts would help with anything, but that feeling faded pretty quickly. She’d always have a bowl of those red fruits she calls strawberries ready for me by her core. Then when I would get settled in beside her and begin munching on the sweet fruit, she would tell me unbelievable stories about the world she remembers from her past life.
Apparently, her old world had jackalopes too, or at least stories of them. Mama says they supposedly had lightning in their veins they could move so fast. Lightning! The big flashes in the sky that make the air go boom. That stuff! The jackalopes from Mama’s world must be really amazing if they could do that. Nervously, I asked her a bit more about it, feeling rather inadequate by comparison, but she ended up talking too much about how technically lightning is in every living creature, but just really really small amounts of it? And something even more confusing about something called eel-ektons that makes it charge based on if they’re in a good mood or not?
Mama does that a lot, going off on tangents about difficult subjects for a long period of time, but even though I couldn’t understand most of it, it is nice just to sit back and listen to her speak. Eventually, she would always notice her rambling, and swap to asking me questions instead. I felt really proud when she asked me so much about my experience training with ki, and later on aether as well. She’d always thank me for my hard work, and for helping her figure out how things work in this world. It made me happy to think that Mama needed me, and that all my efforts were slowly paying off.
And it really felt like I had been improving too! I’d wrangled all the rowdy brawlers into line, and chased off that group of novices. But then that big flying scion came and knocked me out of the fight before I could even tell it was coming. Kelvin was barely a few days old and he had to handle that nasty bat all on his own! And despite all the work I put into developing my aether, I then lost to Miss Lydia again right after that. It felt like I was stuck in place, running as hard as I could but never getting anywhere with it. I did my best to hide it from Mama since she’s so perceptive, but it really hurt.
And now, even after all the faith and strength Mama poured into me, I’d still managed to let her and everybody else down. They’re all going to die, because of me. I’m not sure which is worse at this point, the pain from my injuries or the pain from my failures washing over me. I watched through bleary eyes as the gross bear tore open the deepest part of the tree, and revealed Mama’s core for all the world to see. It’d been a few weeks since our last break together, so when I saw the soft green glow of Mama’s core, it stirred up a weird mix of relief and regret in my heart. I’d missed that comforting glow, but also the only reason I could see it now is because I’d doomed it to oblivion.
Grief filled me up to the brim, and all I could do is wordlessly apologize over and over again.
To my surprise, however, I could feel her presence nearby, and that comforting warmth brushed aside my apologies to fill our bond with light instead. I don’t get it, why is she here? Why is she focusing on me, when the enemy is literally right in front of her core, staring her down? Why is she wasting her time on me when I can barely even move anymore?! And even if I could, we both know I would just let her down some more. So why, why does it feel like I’m back by her side, listening to her tell stories at length, feeling so comfy and secure?
“I……ry….J..ki”
Go on, go! Leave already and focus on someone else, maybe they have a chance to save you, to fix things. Haven’t I failed you enough? I, I can’t do anything but disappoint you. I…I can’t be like the jackalopes from your stories Mama. I’m not good enough for that. I’m sorry.
“..b..en….f…….to me……..t…….ro……sta…”
Despite shoving my weakness, my numerous defeats and doubts to the front and finally showing Mama everything I’d tried to keep hidden from her through the bond, absolutely nothing changed. If anything, the feeling of closeness only increased and that warm feeling wrapped me up even tighter, never wavering for a moment. For a moment, the ringing in my head subsided, but my eyes must still be playing tricks because I thought I could see a bunch of golden sparkles floating in the air around me, forming the vague outline of a person with her arms wrapped around me. The next words came through confidently and clearly, and finally put a name to the feeling I always felt when Mama’s attention was on me.
“I love you.”
…Why? When I’ve already let you down so many times, when you’re about to die because of me…why spend your last moments on this worthless rabbit who couldn’t save anything? The bond held no answers for me, only that same persistent warmth, refusing to relent for so much as a moment. Over in the tree, the bear monster had raised its claw into the air, readying the final strike that would take Mama away for good. A few tears slipped free from my eyes and dropped down to join the blood at my feet. Belatedly, I realized that at some point I must have stood up, but that doesn’t really matter right now.
In fact, standing there, basking in the feeling of being wrapped up in Mama’s love, it felt like a lot of things didn’t matter. My doubts, my fear of not being good enough, and the pain of being proven right. It all felt like wisps of smoke being carried away on the wind. They scattered against the constant reinforcement pouring out from the bond, powerless before it. She’d seen all of my shortcomings, witnessed every downfall, and yet this was always her response. Yellow sparks crackled through my fur, and larger arcs of energy began to flicker back and forth between the branches of the antlers on my head.
Slowly, all the world began to fall away. The ground beneath my feet, the stench of death hanging upon the wind, even the tree itself, along with the slow-motion bear scion bringing its claws down for the kill. There was just me, and there in the distance, the light of Mama’s core, calling me home like a beacon. Under her light, I remembered the simple truth that Mama has always seen and understood so much more than me, guiding me as best she could and celebrating both my success and failures alongside me. For this moment in time, all those complicated and difficult subjects stopped being important. All those times spent hoping I could measure up to the lofty heights she spoke about seemed a silly waste of time. All I had to do was stop trying to become something else. Maybe, just maybe, I was already everything that Mama could see in me, and I just hadn’t realized it yet.
I crouch down low to the ground, those strange sparks increasing in intensity, coiling inside of me like a power I never knew I had. My ears and paws were starting to char black from all the energy flowing through me, but I didn’t feel a thing. After all, none of that mattered. With a mighty leap, I left the feeling of solid earth behind. Wait for me just a little longer, ok Mama? I’m coming to your side.
Blood flash-boiled.
Flesh charred into shattered lumps of charcoal.
Bones fragmented and caved under the tremendous forces at play.
Jackie never got to experience the joy where in this, her latest challenge to a race between herself and the sound carried along through the air, the wind finally lost.
Neither did she get to see how, for the first time in its life, the bear scion’s body was lifted fully up off of the ground and flung to the side like gravity had suddenly reversed its direction.
But perhaps..., someday, there would come a time when she’s relaxing with a bowl of those delectable strawberries once more, and she’ll get to listen to Mama’s voice as she regales her with another one of her wild stories. A story where one little rabbit made all the difference in the world, and through her actions did save the day. Now wouldn’t that be nice?
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Author Notes://
Here it is, the big one! I've had this chapter in mind since before I even started writing this story. In fact, it's what made me say fuck it, I'm gonna try writing it out and see what happens. Sorry again for the long delay on this chapter, I didn't want to split it into anything smaller, so it ended up pretty long. Also, yay! First scion PoV, just like you guys wanted right? xD
I hope you enjoyed reading this part, and I'll see you all again next time for the final conclusion to the Deepholm Arc.

Greetings Builders, Devs, Base Destroyers, Planetmans/Womans Of Planetside 2
I will try to keep this as simple and easy to read as possible. To summarize, I have spent an excessive amount of time testing every construction object on live/PTS and have created a list of improvements to a lot of common problems every single builder has encountered during their time building. This is focused primarily on placement arrows on buildings and mention of module slots or lack thereof. Please note, most images talk about either the arrow placements being changed, module slots being added/moved or a combination of the two.
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Walls
Rampart Walls + Solid Walls. The new placement arrows are too strict. In this image RampartWall1 the previous system would gladly accept it. Here is a proposed solution in this image RampartWall2 . In this image, SolidWallMeme I have proposed solutions to fix everything regarding the recently added grievances including the new attachment to the back of solid walls. ImpossibleWall + ImpossibleWall2
Bulwark Walls. This image proposes changes to the SmallBulkwarkWall . Here are changes to the large bulwark wall LargeBulkwarkWall
Blast Gates + Blast Wall. The blast gate currently serves no purpose. BlastGate & BlastGate2 will give it a vital reason to be used in the foundation of a base. Much like other walls, the blast wall requires a module slot to be useful BlastWall .
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STRUCTURES
Infantry Tunnel. The infantry tunnel is a cool structure, but pointless when added to a base due to the lack of module slots. InfantryTunnel . Module Options: Repair, Durability
Infantry Tower. The dark light feature on it is awesome, however a module slot would make it a go-to object in bases. InfantryTower . Module Options: Repair, Durability
Pillbox: The pillbox lost its reliability in the new update. Adding a second module slot would resolve this allowing a durability module to be installed. Pillbox
Vehicle Bridge. THE COOLEST STRUCTURE TO EVER BE ADDED TO PLANETSIDE. The bridge has so much potential. Unfortunately, it struggles to find it’s place among reliable buildings. A module slot in the center would allow more utility for this gigantic structure as seen in this picture. THEMEGABRIDGE . In terms of the bridge arrows, moving them down slightly would allow more locations to be considered TheBridgeArrows . Module Options: Repair, Durability.
Ammo Tower. The option to install an equipment module would be an extreme convenience for tank drivers nearby to replace consumables.
Vehicle Gates. As I have stated over the many years, this shouldn’t be allowed. FloatingVehicleGate . Adding a second arrow attached to the stairs would resolve any exploitative placements. Consider adding a second one beside it to install both durability and repair to bring back the previous level of reliability. FloatingVehicleGate2 .
The Silo. The silo is, simply put, TOO BIG. It clips with tree branches way below terrain, or rocks that you can't actually see above ground. It is too wide, trying to put it tightly beside a wall doesn't work because the hitbox is actually bigger than the prefab itself.. Silo . I propose cutting the base of the silo by about 35%. I also propose reducing the width of the bottom portion for an easier time making condensed bases.
Command Center. Command Center & A Tiny Rock Why is the collision box on this structure SO, DAMN, BIG! The amount of cool places you COULD put this but you can’t. All due to something as silly as a rock being 5 meters away from the actual building. Now don't let me mention the air pad attached to it. The Air pad Center . This really should not exist. Why does the command center's air pad need to check if there is a collision 50 meters below it. Consider making the air pad collision box a separate entity, detached from the main structure collision box.
Cortium Silo Reserve. It's in a good place. A cool feature that has had some gossip would be allowing the silo to either function independently or expand the range of a current silo. By placing it on the edge of the main silo range, it would extend the range (from the point it is placed at) by adding an additional 25 meter radius of connected silo zone.
Glaive + Flail. Moving them higher above ground is a good call. It leaves more room for a base being assaulted to take down the flail/glaive. However, there needs to be death-immunity while inside a spawn tube when a flail hits the roof of your base. Theoretically, you shouldn’t die at all while in the structure.
MODULE BALANCE
The repair module; 0.5% -> 1% per second. A single tank being able to take down a base from render range is not okay. The previous system would require at least TWO tanks to take a wall down. If I remember correctly, the old repair module repaired at a rate of 350hp per second. (Around 2-2.5% in current system math)
The fortress shield module; 60 Seconds to 75/90 seconds. Cost; 500 -> 1000/2000 respectively.
Increasing the duration of the fortress shield would allow the module runner time to replace broken constructs, repair, participate in a fight or do many other roles left unfilled. 60 seconds basically leaves you running from A -> B -> A every 60 seconds in a hot zone. The exponential increase in cost would be a tradeoff for the player having more time to do other tasks.
Heavy repair module; 60 seconds to 75/90 seconds. Repair Rate; 2% -> 3% per second. Health Added -> 8000 to 10000. Cost 500 -> 1000/2000 respectively
The increased abilities of the heavy repair module would make it a more ‘attractive’ choice than choosing the fortress shield module 9/10 times. In its current form, it is not strong, it is equivalent to the old standard repair module. The exponential increase in cost would be a tradeoff for the player having more time to do other tasks.
The Firewall Module; Let this be installed into vehicle/air terminals and command center. It is called a firewall module and it should act like one. Forcing an infiltrator to hack this module would allow builders who are not at their base a bit more time to react. With the loss of AI and painspires, this would help remedy repeat situations where a player runs to get cortium and by the time they return, there are half a dozen lightnings and sunderers in your base.
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If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I have been playing since 2012. I love this game, specifically construction. The ability to be creative in a FPS is not seen in any other games and the current version of construction really limits what a builder can do. I believe the proposed changes would benefit every, single, builder. It would ease almost all frustrations regarding durability and increase the amount of reliability of player objects, including increasing the amount of usable structures in base foundations.
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Thanks for reading,
ToxicToast

Just to cite that I am under guidance of two college counseling companies! One is from my country and the other one is based in the US, so everything mine is well-thought! They care carefully of my essays, selection of college list, and more.
Demographics
• Gender: Female • Race/Ethnicity: Latin American • Type of School: Selective and public one, never had a student going to study in the US • Hooks: none • I am a first-generation student and low-income (<30k a year)
Intended Major(s): Computer Science + Math + linguistics or Symbolic Systems at Stanford
Academics • 8.8 / 10 (that can look ok but is actually very high. At my school is common to fail and repeat subjects next semester) • Rank: School doesn’t rank
Standardized Testing • SAT: Waiting my june scores! • ACT: Didn’t take it • AP/IB: School neither doesn’t offer Aps nor IB
Awards • RISE finalist 2023 (don’t know yet if I am becoming Global Winner) • Technovation Global Semifinalist 2023 (waiting for more results, but that’s very good for now) • +12 awards in math olympiads! I rank top 40 at math and top 15 in algorithms/informatics in the nation
Extracurriculars

1. Co-founder of Math-teaching NGO — Organize/teach 20+ students across 20+ math classes. Prepare 500+ pages of lessons. Mentees have won 25+ medals. Already earned 15k from goverment funds. We are going to public schools and playing logical games with more than 100 students.
   
2. Co-founder of Logical thinking club — Led 40+ study sessions solving 500+ problems, improving critical thinking/analytical skills. Helped boost their confidence and desire to excel.
   
3. Intern at a local clothing store — Developing store’s first website (via Java, CSS, HTML, MongoDB). Earned R$200K profits via 200+ sales, creating 1K+ IG content, 10+ FB/Google ads.
   
4. Korean and Spanish teacher — Helped 200 mentees (ages 12-50+) rise to intermediate Spanish and basic Korean. Made 3 study guides 260+ total pages used by my students.
   
5. Viki translator — Collaborated with team of 11 to translate 200+ hours of Korean dramas, films, variety shows into English subtitles, reaching 10+ million people.
   
6. Informatics mentor of indigenous communities — Helped lecture 80+ Indigenous students on computer basics. Collaborated with team of 9 to adapt methodology to be inclusive of students’ needs.
   
7. Self-studied 6 languages (I do speak 7 languages)
   
8. PROMYS 2023 — super prestigious math summer program where I will conduct research this summer
   
9. Paid researcher at the main institute of mathematics in my country! It will not be published though
   
10. Revisor of SAT Math at the biggest company in my country that prepares students for standardized test to study abroad — I am initiating this actually, but already revised 60 questions that will go to an ebook.
    

I already did a bit more, but I guess these are the main ones.
Letters of Recommendation
Since everything mine is revised, I guess this will be okay. Anyways, I asked 3 letters:

1. Teacher of the language of my country: He is literally a writer! Also, we had deep conversations and he already praised me a lot.
2. Math teacher: He is literally my friend. Also, he is the head professor of my NGO. Already wrote a LOR to me that helped me get into PROMYS and Canada/USA Mathcamp.
3. Counselor: He has been my teacher for several years. He knows me and praised me of how much I do my best in every subject.

Essays
I have a really tough story (criminal family) and I know how to communicate how I overcame this, helped relatives, and found my place/mission in the world that connects with what I will pursue at college.
Universities
My dream is to pursue symbolic systems at stanford, but I am in love with Brown and Duke. I will apply to another few colleges like Wellesley, Williams, Northwestern, Richmond, and other safeties and targets.

If you send gifts on Tik Tok, this is for you.
Think to yourself, how much money do you make per year?
What do you have to do in order to make that money?
Do you have really nice things like expensive cars, big house, tons in savings while traveling the world on vacation?
If not, why are you sending gifts to 20 YEAR OLDS MAKING THEM RICH???For those of you who don’t know, every 100,000 coins a creator gets, they profit $500 while TikTok takes the other $500(50/50 split). If you take a look at the rankings each night, it’s typically the same 100 people every night with the lowest being 200,000 coins and the highest usually around 3 MILLION coins! That means these lower end creators are making $1,000 PER DAY which is $350,000/year while the big time creators are making $5,000- $15,000 PER DAY which is $2,000,000 - $6,000,000 A YEAR!!! You think I’m joking? The numbers are right there in the rankings. DO THE MATH!! These guys can go LIVE a few hours a day a few days a week(which is fun for them) and make 6-7 FIGURES ANNUALLY.
Meanwhile you’re busting your ass at your 9-5 job just trying to get by making these people filthy friggin rich. And the worst part is, these creators don’t do shit!! These creators make you feel like your important and gas your head up and make you feel like you’re apart of this great team. They don’t give a shit about you. If you stop gifting them, you’ll never hear from them again and if you do it’s to find out why you’re not gifting them anymore.
You work too damn hard to give your money away for other people to live the way YOU should be living. STOP GIFTING THESE PEOPLE because if you look at your total coins spent and do the math on how much money it equates to, it’s going to make you SICK to your stomach when you realize you’ve gifted out THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS to these random people. Just think about what you could have done with that money!?!! I’m sure you could think of a bunch of things….Instead you gave it to a creator and it just covered their trip to Bora Bora. I know it’s addicting as hell but I hope this helps you understand how stupid it really is. I was one of those gifters until I understood all of this. If you’re gonna gift someone, give it to the creator that actually has real content and puts a ton of effort into it. Stop giving it to the people who just battle all F*cking day which is no different than a lazy person without a job getting on tik tok everyday begging for donations. I bet you wouldn’t gift that person. You would make fun of them and tell them to stop begging and to get a job. Well, WHAT’S THE DIFFERENCE!?!? NO MORE GIFTING!!
Spoil yourself with your hard working money. Not random people who don’t give a damn about you. Or, give it to someone who actually truly needs it like a homeless veteran, or a kid who’s never been to a ball game, or someone behind on bills. Not some tik toker who’s already rich as hell.
I hope if you’ve read all of this, it’s opened your eyes. For those of you that still choose to gift, it’s your money so do as you please but if you have half a brain, you’ll stop making other people rich when there’s others who could use it including yourself!

Back in mid march I (F 26) started talking to this guy, let’s call him Mike (M 25). He was responding to an r4r post I made.
He expressed interest but also expressed how it was unfortunate because in two weeks he was going “on vacation to an only beach for six months” his words not mine.
He told me later on after some healthy conversation, really in depth stuff, I wish I never deleted my account so I could go back and read it, but it was really nice and engaging. That he’s actually in the Air Force and he was being deployed to Qatar.
I don’t know why he was so roundabout with it, but looking into some subreddits I could see why.
But it never stopped us from talking, sharing the same goals and aspirations for what we wanted for ourselves in a future relationship. But it was never figurative with other people, it was us talking to each other like it was our future together.
We planned to meet a couple nights before he left but he got anxious about being deployed and didn’t want to go somewhere to meet someone he’s just met, before flying across the world. (This part is important)
I should also note that we live three hours apart, and spent those two weeks talking almost everyday, playing video games, spending time on call with each other. So on and so forth.
He expressed wanting to write letters back and forth because of how traditional and nice it is to get them versus online communication. So I told him I’ll write him letters! (I like creative things and I love to write so this is in my wheelhouse.)
I got excited and would tell him about the stickers and stamps I was going to get and the fancy parchment paper, really the whole nine yards. And he shared in that excitement, he wanted to see the things I found.
That’s how it was for those two weeks.
After he was deployed obviously communication cut short quickly afterwards with an intermittent message every now and again. And this is where it gets tough for me because I see people in the service Air Force, Marines, Military, etc- posting on TikTok and the like every so often so it makes me doubt the lack of communication we have.
When I asked about letters he told me that the process of getting mail was tedious, it was a two mile walk just to get to the place and it was only on an every two week basis that mail came in.
I believe him because how would I know? I did tell him I was going to write him letters and give them to him when he gets back and he found that super sweet and said ‘I love that’ so, even after 3 months and intermittent messages, every so often one or two exclaiming his interest in me still (one message that he openly expresses regretting not meeting me that one night) I’ve been writing him letters.
But it’s been a month since I’ve gotten a message from him, I can’t help but worry and doubt. But I would love some advice because I don’t know what it’s like to be involved with someone in the service, is all of this normal? Despite TikTokers in the service making it seem like there’s a lot of free time, is this much radio silence normal? And should I keep writing these letters despite things being so quiet?

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Over 25 years ago, a little boy named Andy received a Buzz Lightyear action figure in the 1995 Pixar film Toy Story. Now, all these years later, audiences will finally see the movie that inspired that action figure in the Toy Story spin-off movie, Lightyear, which is soaring into theatres this weekend.
This is not the Buzz Lightyear you know and love—the one who is best friends with Woody and voiced by Tim Allen. This is the original Buzz Lightyear, a bonafide space ranger voiced by Chris Evans, who is stranded on a hostile planet that is 4.2 million lightyears from Earth, alongside his commander and crew. The Lightyear cast also includes the voices of Keke Palmer, Peter Sohn, James Brolin, Taika Waititi, Dale Soules, Uzo Aduba, and Isiah Whitlock Jr.
With this new Toy Story adventure coming to theatres, you may feel the urge to revisit the classics. The decider is here to help with that. Read on to find out what Toy Story movies to watch before Lightyear and how to stream the Toy Story.

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Over 25 years ago, a little boy named Andy received a Buzz Lightyear action figure in the 1995 Pixar film Toy Story. Now, all these years later, audiences will finally see the movie that inspired that action figure in the Toy Story spin-off movie, Lightyear, which is soaring into theatres this weekend.
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This is not the Buzz Lightyear you know and love—the one who is best friends with Woody and voiced by Tim Allen. This is the original Buzz Lightyear, a bonafide space ranger voiced by Chris Evans, who is stranded on a hostile planet that is 4.2 million lightyears from Earth, alongside his commander and crew. The Lightyear cast also includes the voices of Keke Palmer, Peter Sohn, James Brolin, Taika Waititi, Dale Soules, Uzo Aduba, and Isiah Whitlock Jr.
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With this new Toy Story adventure coming to theatres, you may feel the urge to revisit the classics. The decider is here to help with that. Read on to find out what Toy Story movies to watch before Lightyear and how to stream the Toy Story.
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Can I Stream Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse?
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You can’t stream Lightyear yet — but you’ll be able to soon. As a Disney movie, you can expect Lightyear to drop on their streaming service, Disney Plus, in the coming weeks, but the exact date of when that might happen hasn’t been announced yet.
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Generally, with their cinematic releases, Disney and Pixar tend to follow either a 30-day release window or a 45-day release window. We don’t know which one they’re going with yet for Lightyear, but this means that given the movie’s global release date is June 17, we can expect Lightyear to be on Disney Plus sometime between July 21 and August 3, 2022.
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Where To Watch Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse Online
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With a new Lightyear coming out very soon, you may want to rewatch all the movies. Or, if you haven’t given the animated adventure films a shot, now is your chance.
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Lightyear can all be streamed using an HBO Max or Hulu subscription. If you’d prefer to rent the movies, only the first two are on Prime Video. Otherwise, all three films can be rented on YouTube, Apple TV+, or Google Play Movies & TV.
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The second film in the franchise, Lightyear, will be released on June 17, 2022. Right now, it’s not confirmed where the movie will be streamed after its big-screen release.
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Is Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse on Netflix?
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Lightyear is not available to watch on Netflix. Suppose you’re interested in other movies and shows. In that case, one can access the vast library of titles within Netflix under various subscription costs depending on the plan you choose: $9.99 per month for the basic plan, $15.99 monthly for the standard plan, and $19.99 a month for the premium plan.
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Is Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse on Disney Plus?
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No sign of Lightyear on Disney+, which is proof that the House of Mouse doesn’t have its hands on every franchise! Home to the likes of ‘Star Wars, ‘Marvel’, ‘Pixar’, National Geographic’, ESPN, STAR, and so much more, Disney+ is available at the annual membership fee of $79.99 or the monthly cost of $7.99. If you’re a fan of even one of these brands, then signing up to Disney+ is worth it, and there aren’t any ads, either.
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Is Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse on HBO Max?
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Sorry, Lightyear is not available on HBO Max. There is a lot of content from HBO Max for $14.99 a month, such a subscription is ad-free, and it allows you to access all the titles in the library of HBO Max. The streaming platform announced an ad-supported version that costs a lot less at $9.99 per month.
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Is Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse on Hulu?
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They’re not on Hulu, either! But prices for this streaming service currently start at $6.99 per month or $69.99 for the whole year. The ad-free version costs $12.99 per month, $64.99 per month for Hulu + Live TV, or $70.99 for the ad-free Hulu + Live TV.
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Is Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse 2022 on Amazon Video?
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Unfortunately, Lightyear is not available to stream for free on Amazon Prime Video. However, you can choose other shows and movies to watch from there as it has a wide variety of shows and movies that you can choose from for $14.99 a month.
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Is Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse on Peacock?
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Lightyear is not available to watch on Peacock at the time of writing. Peacock offers a subscription costing $4.99 a month or $49.99 per year for a premium account. Like its namesake, the streaming platform is free with the content out in the open. However, limited.
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Who Is in the Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse Cast?
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Captain America himself, Chris Evans, will be the voice of the film’s titular Space Ranger. Apart from Evans, Keke Palmer (Scream Queens), Dale Soules (Orange Is the New Black), and Taika Waititi (Jojo Rabbit) have also been announced as part of the cast, lending their voices to other ambitious recruits at Star Command. The voice cast includes Uzo Aduba, James Brolin, Mary McDonald-Lewis, Efren Ramirez, Peter Sohn, and Isiah Whitlock Jr. Bonus: Check out this featurette where the cast talks about what Buzz Lightyear means to them.

Lumity is my favorite pairing out of everything because of how healthy and pure and real their relationship was. They were awkward, so it didn't seem implausible, and they were absolutely adorable. My first wlw relationship was an absolute mess, and we both made a million mistakes. Amity and Luz were ~14 when their relationship began (source: S3, E3 "Since you spent your 15th birthday helping us rebuild the Isle..." Eda). My first serious wlw relationship was at 16, and we still fucked things up terribly. I love Lumity so much, but I can't help but feel a little jealous that they could make things work in a healthy dynamic even while having the entire world on their shoulders so young. I also do wish that homosexuality wasn't so controversial, since the Boiling Isles did give them a healthy space to nurture their relationship. I guess even though I'm happy with myself and satisfied with who I am after doing a lot of growing, I still have that sapphic yearning haha

I was on another sub and caught the topic of women with short hair just wanting to look like boys and memories kinda steamrolled. I think it’s something that we can kinda commiserate on and now after summarizing I want to get it out.
When I was around 3-4, my dad took a nap and left me unsupervised. I was watching tv and got ahold of a pair of scissors and decided that I wanted to look like my aunt (who never had anything longer than a crew cut for as long as I can remember). I managed some approximation of a short bob from the hair that was previously down to my backside.
My mom was horrified and furious at dad. She immediately rushed me somewhere to fix it.
She spent the next several years making fun that I looked like a boy, calling me a particular boy’s name, just all out ridiculing me. All while refusing to let me grow my hair back out (her reasoning was that my hair was so fine and it would thicken it), shopping in the boy’s section (granted, that’s the only place we found pants that fit, but it didn’t help matters) while simultaneously joking that she’d trade me in for an actual boy if she had the chance.
That I was a regular target for bullying in school changed nothing for her and helped me none at all.
I spent a lot of years doing every possible thing I could think of to not be confused as a boy. Extra on makeup and hair and “girly” clothes, refusing to do “boy” activities even when we sent out to play. I sat or on the swings because those were safe. Hating every minute of it.
There’s nothing at all wrong with those “girly” things but they weren’t me. I wanted my jeans, or cut offs and tshirts and tanks. Dresses were pretty…on hangers or on other people. I just needed to fit. Even though what I actually needed was for the teasing to stop.
I remember that whole ordeal probably more clearly than maybe I should considering how early it started. I also remember how scared I was that I would be mistaken for a boy and it would all come back. Even up into my 20s I never went shorter than shoulders and there was heavy attention paid to being pretty enough and wanted as a girl enough that there could be no chance at confusion.
Then at 25, I had a kid. I let it grow that time for three years, it was down to my waist for the first time since I’d cut it as a toddler. The postpartum shedding happened and my now ex told me I wasn’t allowed to cut it off. It went to a bob (shortest I’d had it in years) two days later.
I shaved it a few years ago for cancer support for a coworker. My daughter told me I looked like a boy and asked me why I wanted a boy’s haircut. I made it a point to say that it wasn’t a boy’s or a girl’s cut, it’s just my cut and I like it. I’ve given her (mostly) free reign on her own hair with the exception that if she wants long hair she’s got to take care of it.
I’m 36 now and my cut is a whole lot closer to auntie’s crew cut than I managed as a toddler and I’ll never go back. I’ll Nair my whole head before I do that.
I’m not afraid of being mistaken for a guy. I actually don’t mind at all if I am. But I don’t think that was my fear even back then. If it hadn’t been for the teasing and ridicule, maybe I wouldn’t have minded it then either.

YNAB is telling me I have more money assigned than I have for next month. I don't understand. If I look at this month, I have a little bit of money unassigned (about $29), but I also have this orange alert on the right column that I don't understand:
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I'm not sure how I can have an amount assigned in the future, the same amount negatively assigned next month, and a negative amount equal to the sum of the two in next month's ready to assign? $25.06 is the amount I have already spent in my "Transportation" (gas) category so far this month, a category that is not yet fully funded.
When I look at July, I have one red category, a cell phone bill, for $30. I'm not sure why I see this. The same category shows fully spent for June, and no more money assigned to it. So I just don't get what is going wrong, or what I'm missing.