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2023.06.10 07:02 throwaway01820182 I'm so tired, man (super long post warning)
Been lurking this sub for a while! Thought I'd finally leave a post (on a throwaway, just to be safe).
So currently, I (20) live with my mom, my two younger brothers, and our two cats. I don't know if my mom qualifies as truly being an nparent, she just comes off as pathetic to me. Anyway, I'm the result of a teen pregnancy and as such, my entire life has been completely unstable and really unfair. We all used to live with my ndad, but he was extremely verbally and mentally abusive to everyone around him, especially my mom and myself. They'd argue a lot and he'd run off in a hurry, and my mom would turn to me to be her emotional support. My memory of my entire childhood gets hazier by the day (repression is doing its wonders), but I do remember that my mom would sometimes leave with him to help him with his body building shows without telling me. This often left me to fend for myself and act as a sort of parent to my brothers. The only thing I remember from this is the absolute fear and dread of everything. My mom had this mentality that the world outside is scary and there's kidnappers in every corner, and my grandma would turn this up to 11 by going on and on about how there's rapists everywhere and they all want me specifically and that my only safety is at home. Due to this, I've grown up extremely sheltered and feel very powerless.
Skip some years and in 2016, my mom made the grand decision to move me and my brothers all to live with my grandma to get away from my dad. Her decision was SUPER rash, as we basically moved out within the same day as the pair had an argument (the argument was over me making a joke to my dad. He asked me to put a plate into the sink and I jokingly said,"I didn't sign up to be a slave". He immediately followed up with "I didn't sign up for you to be born"). At my grandma's house, everything was somehow worse. With my mom's decision, we had basically lost everything. All my toys at the time were gone (I was 13 and had an entire collection of littlest pet shop toys that I loved dearly. All gone except for 1 I hold onto to this day), half my clothes were gone, we were essentially 1 step up from being homeless (living with grandma), and we didn't even have a washing machine. My mom had to keep spraying our clothes with Tide Febreze spray, because she didn't even have enough quarters for the laundromat. The entire ordeal sucked. It wasn't helping that my grandma was absolutely god-awful.
EVERYTHING I did was wrong. I didn't microwave food correctly ("you're too messy"), I couldn't get cold water correctly ("you're lazy for not putting the water jug in the freezer!"), can't eat correctly ("you act like you never ate before!"), can't use the shower correctly ("you get water everywhere"), can't do anything right. My mom was still using me as a therapist, complaining about how wrong her life had gone. We had a cat at this point and he was my last fragment of sanity. I came home (ha... "home") one day and my mom had gotten rid of the cat while I was away because she KNEW I'd freak out if I saw her do it. I couldn't even say goodbye, and my grandma's first reaction to my crying was to mock me and laugh about how the cat probably died (fortunately he didn't, he was put into a shelter and he was adopted by an old lady within a week). At some point I completely broke and started screaming about how much I wanted to die, and my grandma's response was to mock me for it. She told me that she'd help me kill myself if I was so serious, talking about how she'd get a rope and tie it just for me. My mom even joined in, telling me she'd help me buy a gun so I can shoot myself. That entire scene is burned into my brain and it still really hurts.
Eventually we moved out and my mom finally took her spot as the antagonist of my life, because why not? Fortunately, this time period is way less eventful. Mostly just screaming, yelling, throwing me against a closet door and continuously throwing me back whenever I tried to walk away, her abusing the two new cats we adopted (we still have them now) and me yelling at her for it which immediately resulted in her throwing me to the ground and kicking me, her constantly calling me variations of "evil" and "mean" and "stupid", her calling me unlovable and telling me that no one will ever want to hang out with me just because I didn't like the fact that she was watching that old Ssoyoung mukbang youtube channel... Y'know! Uneventful! /s
She's finally chilled out in recent years and has become exceptionally clingy instead of outright abusive... Who am I kidding? Clinginess is just her being controlling and insecure. But I feel like I'm forced to just accept that this is the best she'll ever do. My grandma, though, is still horrendous. She got pregnant with my mom when she was 18 and I swear she never grew out of high school. Anything inconvenient is a personal attack, me wanting to be alone ever means I hate her altogether (happens often. I'm an introvert, have severe social anxiety, and am a massive loner), and if I don't do everything she says exactly as she wants me to in that exact moment, I'm evil. Just today, she said I'm exactly like my dad just because I didn't say "bye" to my brother who's leaving for 3 months to help our granduncle with his cleaning job. This same brother has ALSO said I'm exactly like my dad in the past because... I yelled at my mom for kicking one of our cats. Always evil, always bad, always a carbon copy of my dad, all for the most innocuous of things. I've had two therapists in the last couple years who I've been spilling all this to (first guy left the practice, hence why I had two), and I find it interesting that both of their reactions had spanned from very confused to very concerned whenever I tell these events. (I sure do wonder who's in the wrong here! /s)
I'm so tired of living here. I go to therapy every other week, and only in therapy did I learn that all of what my family has done to me is abuse, not love. Only in therapy did I learn that it's NOT normal for your family to insult you. It's not normal for your mom and grandma to make you their therapist, then treat you like dirt the moment you do something they don't like. It's not normal to be told that it's "greedy" to eat more than once a day and that you deserve to starve for running out of food (even though your mom only shops for groceries for 3 kids once every 2 weeks), leading to you to be VERY likely to develop an eating disorder in the near future. It's not normal for that same mother to then turn around and yell at you for not eating enough and tell everyone that you're anorexic, when she's the one who put you in this mess in the first place. It's not normal for your mom to fail to teach you essential life skills despite you asking repeatedly because you're "too young" and "have always been a little slow" but then immediately relent when someone else questions why you can't do said essential life skills (I couldn't do laundry until I was 18, I couldn't cook until I was 19, and I'm only set to get my driver's license now at 20). It's not normal to truly believe that you don't deserve compliments because you're too unlovable and anyone who says otherwise is lying, and it's not normal to treated like you're 10 one minute, but then be threatened to be kicked out the millisecond you do something wrong because, after all, "you're an adult!!". I'm always evil, never good. And it's only ever this family who says this, the couple friends I've managed to pull together say the exact opposite things about me. Isn't it funny how that works? Always horrible to the family, but everyone outside thinks you're great... It's not fair, man.
I'm really. Really tired. I'm currently in college full-time, living at home strictly to save money (it'd suck to move out and have to come back because student loan debt was worse than I thought). My brother (same one that insulted me), aunt, and grandma keep nagging for me to get a job and buy groceries for the family or pay rent because I'm a horrible selfish person or something (Surprisingly, this is one of the few things my mom backs me up on. She's completely fine with me focusing on college and tells everyone else to mind their business).
I can't work full-time while attending school, I could never handle the stress. I can only wait until I graduate, get a full-time job, save money, then leave. It also has to be in that exact rigid structure, I will freak out if it isn't (another problem I should probably get checked, hooray). I want to move to a state that's 2,300+ miles away (from Ohio to Washington). I've envisioned an entire life for myself there, complete with having my own found family. I don't need this family, I want one where people actually love and care about me. I want to get more therapy so I can properly heal. I want to get a dog, I want to be able to go outside without fear, I want to have lots of small pets who'll be properly cared for and loved. I've been questioning lately if I could even be trans, I want to find specialized therapy so I can safely explore this further. I want to change my name so I can sever my ties with this family. My name only gives me grief, I want a name that screams me. I want people who'd love me no matter who I turn out to be. I want people around who'd applaud my growth instead of downing me for never being good enough. I want people who are deserving of the me I've been trying to safeguard for so many years; a hypersensitive crybaby whose interests bounce around like ping pong and is in desperate need of a hug. I just want someone to care about me. And it's not fair that I don't have this. I didn't ask for this pain, all I did was be born. What did I do to deserve this?
TL;DR: I'm really really sick of dealing with my horribly toxic family. I can't explore myself as a person and despite being in therapy, can't truly heal since I'm stuck here. I can't drive, I'm really feeling trapped. I have dreams of moving far away and never coming back, but it still feels hopeless sometimes. I know it can't be, I know I can be free, but I can't do anything until I graduate college and save some money. Really sad about it. I'm really tired and want to go home, but home doesn't exist.
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2023.06.10 07:01 DifficultGoose1612 Won't allow medical help to save their baby. His Prayers are all that is needed.
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I was in Gwinnett county jail with this guy. He knew the bible and would quote versus. He created a religious comic book. Also would have bible study every morning. I talked to him a lot during months I was locked up with him. I went to his bible studies because he would give anyone who joined him a cup of coffee. submitted by DifficultGoose1612 to religiousfruitcake [link] [comments]
Plus he had a deep knowledge of the bible and it was amusing to ask questions hear his explanations about his faith. Getting him worked up over any thoughts of not existing.
I was confused about why he was in jail. Usually something really fucked up when they are this religious. He caused one of the volunteer preachers to stop showing up to do chruch service. Because he would correct him and quote other bible versuses. Basically high jack the service.
I ask him a few times what he did to get arrested. He would only say "the enemy was attacking him." Vaguely explaining he did nothing wrong and would get released soon. Never said what his charges were.
His spiritual advisor was putting money on his books and would visit him. He explained how prayer with faith in God was all that is needed to cure anything. I was on meds for mental illness. He repeatedly tried to get me to stop taking meds.
He was always in a good mood. Happy to have all the time to study the bible and pray. He transferred to another cell block because the Muslim was going to attack him. That guy never paid him any attention. As soon as he prayed as a Muslim. George was putting in for a transfer.
Guess he didn't have faith he would be protected, but had faith in the healing power of pary. Not long after I was released.
I heard about him and his wife getting convicted for starving his 10 week old baby. Refusing to get medical care. Instead relying only in prayer. Was diluting breast milk with water.
Apparently his spiritual advisor told him to take the baby to the hospital, but didn't call the police or anyone when he refused. Really fucking sick delusional people starving a baby. Google name and gwinnett county for all the details.
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2023.06.10 07:00 Detson101 Ran a Vampire the Masquerade Inspired Score
Like it says on the tin. I slapped a vitae-colored coat of paint on Blades and ran a score for some friends. It went pretty well! The setting really meshes well with the system, although playing over Roll20 meant there was a lot of Duskwall specific cruft on the character sheets that got in the way (not a criticism, the Roll20 sheets are great for what they're meant to do).
Here's my slapdash vampire rules re-skin, not a separate playbook just some extra stuff on top of existing playbooks. I'd love some constructive criticism. If you think this is all a dumb idea, I agree, you're probably right, but no need to waste good electrons saying so please.
- Vampire (Kindred) ⦁Fire and Arcane attacks are more potent against you. Bullets and bludgeoning weapons are less potent against you. Sunlight causes Harm to you. ⦁If you suffer fatal harm or trauma, you don’t die, but enter a state of Torpor. You take a special level 4 harm: “Torpor” until you feed enough to recover. If you suffer any additional harm while in this state, you meet the Final Death. When you suffer “fatal” harm and fall into Torpor, you can take no actions, and must rely on an ally spending a Downtime activity to feed you.
- Vice: Instead of the standard Vices, you have a Hunting Style [dont know how to replace vice purveyor]. Use a downtime activity to Hunt prey and indulge your Vice. Also, when you feed, mark four ticks on your healing clock. This is the only way you can heal. The Hunt is as much about fulfilling a spiritual need as a physical one; blood taken during a Score or during Freeplay does not count as indulging your Vice, nor does it advance your healing clock. ⦁Vampire Disciplines: As a Vampire, you have access to unique powers. You start play with one Discipline for free, and may choose more when you take a Playbook Advancement. -Potent Blood: Choose Insight, Prowess, or Resolve. Your max rating for actions under that attribute becomes 5. You may take this ability multiple times. -Unnatural Fortitude: Choose Insight, Prowess, or Resolve. You may expend your special armor to resist a consequence which applies to that Attribute. You also get +1d on resistance rolls using that Attribute. You may take this ability multiple times. -Unnatural Potence: Choose an Action Rating. You may take 1 stress to perform a feat of supernatural power using that action. This may factor into effect. You may take this ability multiple times. ⦁Frenzy: You have a 6 segment clock that represents the predatory fight or flight instinct of the Kindred. Not feeding for an extended period may cause this clock to advance, as can situations of extreme stress such as mortal danger or public humiliation. Once the clock fills up, you explode into either panicked flight or sudden violence. The clock then resets. ⦁Humanity: You have a 12 segment clock that represents your battle with your inner Beast. When you perform an immoral act, advance this clock. When the clock is full, you take an irresistible Trauma representing your slide towards the Beast and the clock resets
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2023.06.10 07:00 inversemilk0 Is it wrong that my intrigue deflates when the documentary starts talking about the victim's life?
Documentary. Serial killer. 4~5 dead. Oh shit we gotta catch him. Cops catch him. Info on killer's childhood/before murders. That I find the #1 most interesting, then #2 would be the detective point of view of how he was caught, followed closely by #3 the witnesses' point of view.
I realized... I also find an escaped victim's interview to be a #1.5. But if they're dead...I find it hard to keep paying attention to that person's story. Maybe it's cuz everyone always calls that coworker a saint, or she was always looking out for her friends, he was the softest, funniest in the room and it gets into flowery territory? Like where are all the asshole victims? You know Timothy was that one piece of shit one-upping everyone's achievements and he'd call you coochpooch if he caught you looking at him. Especially the girls. Yeah, so he got murdered, sucks you know? We're still struggling to move on uh—which, not too different when he was alive, but still.
You don't see that shit.
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2023.06.10 07:00 ZxHenri Best way to use bap ult?
I normally use it for killing the tank or one or 2 players in the enemy team, sometimes, when the situation get worse for my tank, I ult to heal my tank and mantain his life. But, I think I could use it better, I'm always use solo ult for me cuz I find hard other people use it.
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2023.06.10 06:59 Icy-Cabinet1429 Help!!! I'm dating a psycho and need to get out this home ASAP!!!
Hey I'm a 35 yo female dating a 41 yo male we've been together for 2 years. We have 2 children together one passed away and one who is 3 months old but is in the NICU due to prematurity. When we met he had NO kids we both talked everyday and made plans for our lives and discussed how we wanted to raise our children. He said he didn't want multiple babymama's and was not okay with dating women with children. Well....I ended up pregnant. Halfway into my pregnancy he said he had a one night stand prior to meeting me and the girl found him on Facebook and told him she had his son. 🤷🏽♀️Nothing I can do. Well I had my son in October he passed away that same week due to prematurity. He was born on the 6th on the 10th of that same month he cheated on me and got our neighbor pregnant. (She's 20 years younger than him) she was basically homeless and had another child and I felt bad for her would give her rides not knowing she was carrying my boyfriend's child. Fast forward I have my daughter and she's premature. At 2 months old she's has surgery. At the time his car was in the shop so we had just my car. The hospital paid for me a hotel soni could stay in town (we live almost 2 hrs away from hospital) to be with her during her recovery. Well he gets mad because I won't return the car and see her the next day cause "she'll be fine" (sn: out of 102 days of her being in NICU he has visit her only 10 times) Anyways he texts me saying how miserable his life is and how he made a mistake being with me etc etc I'm like on the verge of killing myself because Im feeling horrible this is when he texts and says "I have 2 sons" and I'm like okay. And he's like I'm tired of hiding him I have a son with someone you don't like and I'm like I don't really know anyone so who and then he explains. He lies about the conception dates and the baby's age. It's the baby with our neighbor. He starts bringing both his kids around and having me babysit them while he runs the streets making it impossible to visit my daughter in NICU. I start just feeling angry about being around his son and refused to babysit. When he did photos with them alot of ppl said the oldest didn't resemble him. So we bought home test and of course it wasn't his child. Now he's upset crying and hurt and calling me names like I did something. He invited his friends over and they talked shit about me like I couldn't hear. He's playing victim so I came out the room to tell them how he did me during two of the worst times in my life and he tried to act like he would hit me. I feel sorry for the child and I didn't laugh but im not comforting him because he did me dirty. Should I feel bad for him? I need to leave but because his "son" was here for months didn't take a job I was offered because he needed me here at night. I have limited income and we live in a small town..I hate him and want to leave.
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2023.06.10 06:59 flowerpetal45 I (18F) drunkenly kissed a girl (17F) and she says she felt forced?
Hello everyone, I (18F) am traveling right now, and am on my way back home soon. I just broke up with my first boyfriend (he was my first everything), and I was honestly sort of semi-open to rebounds on my trip. The issue comes when I was hanging out with a girl (17F) that I met through a mutual hobby. She invited me to hang out and dance/drink with her friends in a park together, and so I went and got a little too messed up. I kissed her friend, but quickly realized that I was not into him so I turned him down and he was very respectful about it. I was still upset about kissing someone other than my ex, so the two girls (one of them being the one I kissed), went off to leave, and ended up talking about how it was okay that I was moving on from my ex boyfriend.
This is where it gets weird, I was alone with the girl since her friend had to leave, so we tried to get food and eventually started to make out. I was still very very drunk at this time, and she asked me how people kiss in a certain way, so I offered to show her and she accepted. It led to basically making out for half an hour, in a situation where I was drunk still and she was completely sober. It was okay, but I regret it even without what she said, so I was already feeling strange about it.
Today she texted me and said that she felt I forced her into it, and that she was uncomfortable but did not know how to say no. She also said she was trying to push me away a bit, but at the time she was kissing me back, so it confuses me that she was apparently doing that. Also that she did not know how to say no, and that it was sort of her fault she gave me the wrong idea, and that she regrets it.
The main part of why I am so thrown off, is that I asked her explicitly if she was okay with things I was doing, and she said yes. I specifically asked her for consent while we were kissing, and each time she said yes, and I was drunk and unable to realize that her yes was secretly a no??? She says she did not know how to say no, but I feel like since she was sober, there were many opportunities when I specifically asked her if I was ok or not to touch her or kiss her, where she said a clear yes. She is the third person I have ever kissed, first girl, and I don’t really know where to go from here.
I texted her in response that I regretted it but that I wished she said no when I asked her if it was okay, instead of being enthusiastic with kissing me and saying yes. I am so weirded out that I went past someone’s boundaries, but at the same time am sort of upset that she said yes to things and went along with it, especially with the parts she said she was uncomfortable with. I know for a fact I asked if it was okay to touch her, to which she said yes and she was touching me too, and I just feel so uncomfortable.
She knew I was very drunk the entire time as well, which just makes me feel even stranger personally, especially as I would assume that since she was completely sober, she could’ve said anything other than yes when I asked for her consent. If she had said something, anything, I would’ve stopped, I just can’t understand why she accepted my requests for consent and kept going with me if she felt the way she did this morning about it.
What do I do from this point? I regret it so much even without knowing that she felt like that (kissing anyone honestly so soon after my breakup), but now I regret it even more with her telling me she didn’t want it. I just can’t understand, since I asked for consent and got the green light. She seems to regret it too at the least, and I asked if she was okay/mentally stable after it and she says yes, it just weird me out.
Any advice would be appreciated, thank you for reading :(
TLDR: I drunkenly kissed a sober girl (3rd kiss in my life), and she feels I pressured her into doing uncomfortable things (touching her and kissing) after the fact. She says she did not know how to tell me no, but I feel upset because I specifically asked for consent multiple times, and do not know why she would say yes and then tell me I forced her into what we mutually (?) agreed to. Am so confused right now.
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2023.06.10 06:59 ProjectsMind Avoid These 10 Common Pitfalls in Your Project Management Career
Hello fellow PM enthusiasts! Buckle up as we navigate through the rocky terrain of project management pitfalls and, more importantly, how to dodge them with grace. Let's get going!
1. Lack of Clear Goals: It's like setting out on a voyage without a map. Without clear goals, your team is adrift. Always ensure your project has SMART (Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant, Time-bound) goals. Remember the old saying: "If you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there!"
2. Poor Communication: Ever played 'Chinese Whispers'? Just like the distorted message at the end of the game, important project details can get lost or misinterpreted without clear communication. Make sure to facilitate open dialogue, have regular team meetings, and utilize effective communication tools.
3. Underestimating Resources: Think of the story of "The Little Engine That Could." Only in our version, our engine didn't account for the steep hill (aka scope creep). Keep an eye on resource planning and always plan for contingencies.
4. Ignoring Risk Management: Imagine going bungee jumping without checking the safety harness. Sounds scary, right? Similarly, ignoring risk management in your project can have dire consequences. Incorporate risk analysis and mitigation strategies in your initial planning stages.
5. Not Adapting to Changes: Remember that time when you were all set for a beach vacation and it started pouring down? Yeah, project changes are like that. Stay flexible and have a change management plan in place.
6. Avoiding Stakeholder Engagement: Not involving stakeholders is like trying to make a surprise meal for someone without knowing their food preferences. Regularly update and involve stakeholders to ensure everyone is on the same page.
7. Neglecting Team Dynamics: Remember the superhero movies? Even the mightiest superheroes can fail if they don't work well as a team. Foster a supportive environment and address conflicts promptly.
8. Micromanaging: Ever had someone watching over your shoulder while working? Annoying, right? Trust your team's expertise and let them do what they do best.
9. Lack of Continuous Learning: If you've ever tried to ride a bike after years without practice, you know skills can get rusty. Keep learning and updating your PM knowledge.
10. Neglecting Project Closure: Imagine cooking a delicious meal and not cleaning up afterward. Yes, it's as messy as it sounds. Always formally close your projects, documenting lessons learned for future reference.
And there you have it, folks! I'd love to hear your thoughts and experiences, so please share them in the comments. Remember, mistakes can be the best teachers as long as we learn from them.
Until next time, happy project managing! 🚀
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2023.06.10 06:59 Gullible_Ad5687 [Question] POSIX: Connection Refused
Hello. As of a few weeks ago, whenever I try to add any source to Cydia or install any tweak from any repo, I get the error "POSIX: Connection Refused." I saw somewhere that it could be due to a repo being down and it could go away simply by waiting a couple of days, but this affects every repo, and I've waited about 3-4 weeks with the same error. I also saw on Reddit and YouTube a couple of posts about installing Filza file manager and editing a file, however, I cannot download the file manager, as when I do, I get the error.
Apologies if this has an obvious solution, I'm very new to jailbreaking. This is happening on an iPad Mini 2 with iOS 9.3.5. I used Phoenix for jailbreaking.
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2023.06.10 06:59 throwawayyuskween666 A balanced view of self is health-promoting
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2023.06.10 06:59 Vivid_Construction54 Overthinking about work
Anytime I have to deal with something stressful or something I haven’t really done before and it’s unresolved when I leave work I can’t stop thinking about it until I go back to work and I can’t sleep thinking about all the possibilities like did I do it right, am I going to get in trouble, did I make a mistake?? I also hate making mistakes it makes me feel so incompetent and I just want to quit and crawl into bed and never take on any responsibility ever again. I hate when things are unresolved and I know I’ll have to wait to find out if I did it right. Especially when I only have a few hours to sleep before I have to go back in the morning- I can never just relax when I get home.
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2023.06.10 06:58 Legitimate_Mood_3914 Honest thoughts about GTA 5 (GET YA DOWNVOTES READDDDDYYYY)
I've played it again recently, and the humour, like it or not, is still pretty relevant to this day. It's not the best game in the series, though it has stuff that I really like and believe that if elements of it were in 4, 4 would be the best game in the series. I love each GTA individually based on their differences. 5 had better character interactions that made the world seem more seamless. I think though, with the way RDR2's world worked, we're likely getting an even better game world in 6. Los Santos isn't Liberty City, but LC felt big and oppressive; Los Santos feels fake and shallow, and that's exactly what they were going for. Gameplay-wise, yeah the shooting was far too arcadey; GTA 4 and RDR2, in my opinion, were much better in this regard. The shooting in 4 felt weighty, and you nearly felt every bullet and damage to the environment during shootouts; same with RDR2. 4 also gets extra points for you not having to kill every last thing you shoot at; I discovered that if you're careful enough, you can actually just wound enemies instead of outright killing them. The driving is pretty good in 5, definitely easier to stop myself from crashing and keep my car looking cool. I also love how each character has their own personal vehicle.
The story and characters:
The story is meant to be a black comedy; there's nothing wrong with that. It would be boring if they once again took on 4's angry take on modern America. Both storylines are good in what they offer, and that's simply two very very different experiences.
The opening robbery is just an absolute chef's kiss and an unusual move for Rockstar. Normally, all their games are about finding your footing, but the problem with the concept itself of the robbery is what leads to a later problem.
The characters of 5 are good, but not GREAT the way they should be. People argued that they're too shallow, only care about money, etc, as if there really needs to be some tragic story behind why the characters are the way they are. Did we forget that the game is about violent criminals? Why can't we just have Michael whose simply bored and miserable, or Trevor, who simply thrives on insanity?
Franklin is great as a concept, and what he does is great, but there's not nearly enough of it. Michael is the same, though I would argue that earlier on he gets slightly more than Franklin. Those two characters don't really get to shine properly until 2/3 of the story after Trevor comes to LS. Trevor was done perfectly. It was bad-tasted, chaotic, straight to the point, and exactly the right way to introduce him. His entire introduction in the desert is what Franklin's should have been in the hood; it should have been at least ten missions before Franklin even met Michael, and then Michael's return to thieving was too sudden as well. More characters should have been around Franklin, not just Lamar. The world-building in GTA 4 was utterly superb.
Trevor's introduction is a sudden burst of violence that plunges you headfirst into the hot landscape of his beyond-hostile world. The whole point of Trevor is that he has very valid points in just about everything he says; he's also a major hypocrite. Micahel's hipster speech is hilariously accurate; Trevor isn't really trailer trash, he chooses to live in a trailer, mostly because he doesn't value materialism and just enjoys the ride. And the way he kills Johnny in his opening scene is just perfect. Folks seem too quick to forget that these are all violent scumbags with shallow needs and wants, and not Rey Skywalker who conveniently forgets her force powers when it suits. Might I suggest for anyone who has seen The Wire, to recall a scene where a similar legendary character gets killed in the most embarrassing way imaginable, and doesn't even get a decent send-off after?
What we needed was more characters and more Simeon/hood-missions-gone-wrong missions for Franklin. Franklin gets into a massive shootout over that bike in his second mission; when has that ever happened? That should at least have been the 7th mission. That's the problem that the first robbery creates; Rockstar merely assumed that because their opening mission gets the blood pumping, we'd all be adrenaline junkies then and wouldn't be able to last without shooting anything else. Then with Michael, yeah, the introduction to his family was fine, but I would have liked more before he catches Amanda cheating. There should have been a few, slower, hilarious missions revolving around him and his family, and even the neighbour Kyle. Judging from the bar mission with Lenny in RDR2, I don't think people have a problem with slower missions, as long as they're laugh-out-loud funny. The problem with that one Yoga mission is that it's only funny after Michael and Jimmy go out. "Bullshit?! Threatening to molest your online buddies is bullshit!" Imagine missions where the DeSantas hilariously have to play happy families at various events, meanwhile, all the shit with Jimmy and the boat and Tracey with the porno guys happens, and it all culminates with Amanda sleeping with the tennis coach. Then the return to crime happens.
Everything else following the first robbery is fine; I would have liked a bigger feeling of entrapment when Michael is stuck in the desert with Trevor. The story doesn't have the intensity of 4 because it's literally not supposed to, and this is only a problem depending on what you're looking for. Devin Weston as a villain is not meant to be compelling; he's meant to be an irritating, smug prick, and a stand-in for corporate figures. Again, the story is a black comedy, with satire at its very core instead of it being merely world-dressing. After all, the Devin/Michael beef literally stems from a corporate problem that hilariously gets out of hand and causes a PA to get gruesomely killed. Stretch should have been featured more; there also should have been more phone calls between Trevor and the Chinese. The feud with the O'Neill brothers was hilarious.
What I will say, however, is that the endings were terrible, and the shift in tone for options A and B was completely misguided. Rockstar should have just stuck with the one option, which was C, or at least give us a solid reason for needing to kill Trevor or Michael, and not just the FIB or Devin Weston as a reason. I know it's great to have a choice but to have a black comedy that's hilariously loose on the crime-is-bad cliche suddenly introduce that crime-is-bad cliche is just jarring. 4 had used this cliche from the moment it even began and kept it consistent, and it was in TLAD, and in TBOGT, only in the latter DLC, Rockstar managed to justify Luis and Tony getting out of everything, though I've read that originally, you had the option of killing Gay Tony.
Anyway, here's my Ted Talk about 5. Can't wait for the downvotes.
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2023.06.10 06:58 fakedoorsarereal Youtube ReVanced v18.19.35 [NonRoot]
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2023.06.10 06:58 MoneyHub_Christopher Travel Insurance - Why It's Complicated to Compare, And What Do People Want?
I'm about to finalise 25+ guides to travel insurance (yes, it sounds like a lot, but there are many variations in needs, risks and cover). One drafted guide is https://www.moneyhub.co.nz/pregnancy-travel-insurance.html
- I've published it with three videos (descriptions and thumbnails pending).
My focus has been policy reviews specific to pregnancy risks, but I'm interested to know if this is super OTT or useful. Or both or neither? The guide is super-specific to pregnancy, but the same process is being applied to all TI guides, so I want to ensure I'm not losing people.
Buying a policy - the process:
- Ultimately, most people buying online will get a few quotes.
- If you compare the market, I mean all insurers (and their underwriters, e.g. AA and Tower use Allianz, AMI, State and Cover-More use Zurich, SCTI self-insurers etc.), the prices differ wildly. It shows IMO that some insurers rely on loyalty and brand over benefits and value for money.
- Within the policy, are people looking for extensive and unlimited medical cover or a range of valuable benefits at a good price?
- When I buy, it's based on medical cover - I travel with nothing of value, but that's just me; that's not reflective of a young family with bags of stuff checked in for the kids etc.
- However, I aim to make sense of this and get people to compare with purpose.
So, while I'm super happy with the information that will go online about travel insurance and policies, I want to make it super useful in the "compare" section without losing people.
Comments and feedback are most welcome - I want to nail this down once and for all and avoid uncertainty around this expensive but essential cover sans the claims processing time, which can be anything from wading through glue to "we'll get back to you shortly" :)
Thanks in advance
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2023.06.10 06:58 HonorH17 Got locked out of my Hotmail accounts
I have 2 hotmail accounts I have had since I was a teenager (I am now in my 30’s)
I do not remember the password to either one but one is connected through the mail App on my iPhone but I understand there is no way to get the password from there.
I had both passwords in the Microsoft Authenticator app and they have since been deleted and I have no idea why or when did that happen.
Both accounts are connected to a phone number I no longer use, I tried filling the forms from Microsoft several times in the period of 3 days (yes I know there is a limited number of times per day)
I really need access to these accounts and I have no idea how to do so without the phone number they’re connected to, I no longer remember ANY security questions and given that I was young and stupid I know I didn’t answer them truthfully regardless.
I tried talking to someone at Microsoft but it seems I can’t without signing in so it’s a vicious cycle.
Any help would be tremendously appreciated.
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2023.06.10 06:58 Raz4zero How not to suck at the game
I’m not sure if this will get removed but here goes.Due to a deal I made with my wife and a friend I need to play one game of Overwatch on every single hero,now,the issue arises when you take into account im new to the game and FPS in general(I also hate FPS games),there’s some heroes locked still,I’ve put 10 hours into the game and I’m not experiencing any joy when learning,I’m also in a constant state of feeling like I’m not learning anything on every game(I’ve also watched some guides)enemies could be walking in a straight line and I will miss,cant hit anything,I typically go more than 5 deaths per match and I only get about 2 ults(1per round).is everyone’s experience like this when starting out?because in LOL and DOTA2 I could still win some games.anyone has any pointers to improve so I don’t feel like breaking monitor every time I have to grind for heroes.Any tips will be appreciated
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2023.06.10 06:58 Status-Attention-136 I (21F) saw questionable texts from other girls to my bf (22M)
Me (21F) and my boyfriend (22M) were online shopping on his computer when a notification popped up saying something along the lines of "i know u like me, admit it" coming from a female friend that i had no idea he had (he claimed they met two days ago over a video-game). So I asked him who is she and he opened up their chat and she was asking "are you a virgin?" "show me your cock" and other stupid shit like that to which my boyfriend would just switch the subject and move on but she would keep asking these questions clearly because he never told her to stop.
I was very hurt by that, he argued that he didn't actively cheat and it was just "banter", but the way I see it is that he gave her the green light to keep flirting with him and he never seemed bothered by it or blocked her till I saw. If we weren't online shopping at the same time she sent this text I would've never known she existed and how their chat went.
I asked him if this happened in the past with her or anyone else, he told me that another girl (I, again, never knew she existed till he told me about her today) was moaning in his ears while playing a video-game with him but of course it's just banter. He did block the second girl though after she tried to get between us and showed that she's jealous because I'm dating him.
This is honestly too much for me to take in. We've been dating for over two years now and we are supposed to get married soon but I don't know if I should forgive him and stay or cut him off. I love him so much but I feel very betrayed and I don't know if I'm overreacting. Every time I speak to any guy the first thing I think of is if my boyfriend was here would our conversations upset him and if I feel like it would I just cut that person off, but I don't think I cross his mind at all when girls flirt with him like that. He apologized and told me that he will be more straight forward in the future by telling them to stop instead of just switching subject but I honestly don't know if I should overlook everything that has happened behind my back. It hurts so much because I trusted him. I would love to hear some advice because I don't know if I'm overreacting, I don't even know if that's considered cheating since he didn't flirt back.
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2023.06.10 06:57 rdk67 Spring Day 81: Sweetness Remembered
(This is a nonviolent text.)
Life! Exclamation point! Today’s speaker is made of clock parts and possesses encyclopedic knowledge about the nature of natural life. Life! Exclamation point! Though biographies in the back of conference programs won’t ever tell the whole story, they tempt us with the true face of authority. Today’s speaker – Life! – is made of clock parts, probably a grandfather clock to begin with, young for its age, but then he started slapping on extra clock parts, moved by an urge he couldn’t explain, until the function of tolling the hour was more of a hobby, a weekend pass-time, compare to what all those precision instruments were up to on a regular basis. As a vision on stage, the speaker’s machinations were there for all to see – the whirring of gears and belts, the clanking of chains. Where his heart chakra was thought to manifest, swung a pendulum.
The nature of natural life is not an easy expertise to build a vocation around – Life! Exclamation point! – but what a sentence to say aloud. At this point in the address, one of the speaker’s mainsprings uncoils where his belly button would normally be. He uses the longer of his hands to poke it back into place without breaking stride, continues: What is a natural life? More to the point, what is a natural lifespan? Who better to know than me! He points to himself when he says this, does a quick spin in place, revealing the dozens of differently styled clock faces that cover the surface of his body, continues: I’m after the author’s natural lifespan, like to pretend I’m playing along, but the whole time, I’m thinking about his natural lifespan. Hmm, hmm, I wonder why? Ha! // The author changes the subject – today’s speaker thinks of something else.
When you discover someone living an unnatural lifespan, you seek to find out why. Not that the reason is the point – not by a longshot – but call me curious. Maybe they tripped at the right moment and tumbled past the grave. Maybe they did a few extra calisthenics before the cock crowed. Or – perish the thought – they succumbed to an unholy pact at a vulnerable moment. I have taken it upon myself to sniff them out – and when he says this, the regulators above his eyes both arch significantly. And what then? We usually have a quiet chat before I recite my speech and complete my visit. It isn’t personal, I begin – time sometimes wells up, spills over its banks, and floods the village. If we could avoid such catastrophe, we should – don’t you agree? The time nature intends, through natural lifespans, would never, let’s be honest, flood a valley.
And what, then, would I do? Proprietary information! hoots today’s speaker from the stage, does another quick spin, stage lights flickering off his crystals, his gleaming metals. About the author’s natural lifespan – oh, you thought I’d forgotten! Were you 18 when you first died? Had it happened before then? Were you but a child under-supervised? Under-supervision-ed, we might say. Remember the day? You rode a toy out into the street, and a car’s front bumper rushed forward to kiss you on the left side of your head, the temple, a stone flung by the age of automobiles. Don’t you remember? Of course you do – the passionate screeching of tires, as those around you stopped and turned to look, surprise gradually replaced by horror at what they knew happened but couldn’t bear to see. You thought you survived – didn’t you? – but thereafter, what appeared on your left temple? A knotted cist so prominent, people stopped you and asked what happened. You saw exactly two physicians over the next 10 years, both telling you not to worry about it, and so you didn’t. You didn’t! When you probed the spot with your fingers, it felt like a rounded room, a shelter built by something trying to survive. As for that 18-year-old involved in that off-road motor vehicle accident – nominee number two, let’s call it – true, you were far more aware of mortality by then, but your own? You climbed aboard a 3-wheeled vehicle that could travel at more than 50mph, completely lacking a seatbelt, headrest, or protective frame – without a helmet, boots, or jacket – and the brakes were less than half there that fateful day, a means of slowing down – a vehicle that would be rendered illegal to operate within a matter of years of the accident . . . the accident . . . remember the accident? August, you were traveling off-road to do farm work, the cornfield you were riding beside with several rows chopped out for silage, and on impulse, you decided to turn into the field to see where it went, then really opened her up because of the green blur of all that corn. Did you secretly expect the drainage ditch? Was this more of a suicide mission? Over the side you went, face first into the opposite bank, and if anyone was wondering – the effect was not of pain but of the lights going out all at once. Imagine the nature of reality that allows for: the inevitability of the crash, followed by all the lights going out – this is really happening – followed by some utterly absent experience, like a film editor cutting in a blankness where reality normally insists scenes of existence should be. The film projectionist would have been instructed to fast-forward through this part of the film, such that no time seems to pass, and the next thing we know, he is trying to push a 3-wheeler out of a drainage ditch. That thing weighing more than he does, and he’s trying to heave it above his head, up and out of the drainage ditch. What had he become? What time-wise tricks were in play? He finally gave up trying to free torment from its channel, staggered through the field toward the truck, face covered in blood, never went to the hospital. When the story is recounted later by his dad, the story became how dad fixed the 3-wheeler by prying the front wheel out of the frame with his truck and a chain. Can you imagine that chain now? They called it a log chain, and the links were cast iron. It was completely covered in rust.
The author knows all this already, receives a spiritual visitation during the writing of the phrase suicide mission, wondering if he’s okay. Yes, he replies, knowing this particular metaphysical weather report has a lot of ground to cover. Today’s guest speaker picks at one of his stems in a distracted way, lets the matter rest, inquires about whether – uh-hum! – he might be permitted to carry on. The author gets up, refills his coffee, returns to one of the picnic tables arrayed in front of the derelict peace church where he lives. He is surrounded by millions of individual affirmations of life, many of which are visibly in bloom or going to seed. A bumble bee flies by. A yellowish bug with zigzags on either side ambles up, its antennae twice as long as its body, tapping at the world in front of it. Among the local insect population, it’s regarded as a savant.
Uh-hum! How many more brushes with death would the author experience before it finally took? There was the time a few years later, same farm but different brother, taking turns firing a handgun at a target. This would be the last time he would fire a gun for any reason, was it not? They climb into the brother’s wedge-shaped sports car, named after the grasping part of a bird of prey, and into fate’s hands did fly. The car was totaled, the two of them, without seatbelts or airbags, unhurt inside the crumpled remnants of the crash, mere inches from winding up once more inside drainage infrastructure, this one built by municipal authority, and therefore of a substance that would have been altogether worse on an unsuspecting traveler headed straight down. Yes, you might have been saved from becoming the remains of the day – but by what?
The child who caused the crash, the one who pulled out in front of that bird of prey, barely old enough to drive, who had two younger passengers inside with him, taking them out for ice cream maybe – that young driver sat nearby while police sorted out the story. He was crying on the side of the road like he would never stop, like he had identified the crash as the latest in a series of personal failings that would stretch into the future of his adulthood like a hot blacktop road and which, at every stop along the way, tragic suffering would be the font of consolation. Was this the way reality was supposed to work? The author recognized the boy as himself at an earlier age, bent down beside him, put a hand on his shoulder, and said, you will be okay. No one was hurt, and the rest can be replaced – your heart is true, and your soul will find its relief.
Ah, yes, the crash, says the author – ah, yes, the crash. Ah, yes, the crash, says the author – ah, yes, the crash. Ah, yes, the crash, says the author – ah, yes, the crash. The late days of spring may be the most forgotten of the year. If we aren’t anticipating summer – it’s still spring? – then we’re longing for those moments when the world was still opening its mouth, and then its eyes, and then its hands. The trees are all open by now, those late-arriving sycamores even filling out their leaves, such that the twigs and branches are all mildly bowed by the extra weight. After spring assumes its labor, the rest of the season finds its dedication, and I imagine the beads of water rising through capillaries beneath the wood – call it a space program – and a sweetness spreads throughout the tubular organisms we call trees. Late spring – sweetness remembered.
Life! Exclamation point! Chronobiology knows nature has much to say about what is cyclical, when, and for how long – much less to say about the natural length of one’s existence. Is death something one develops a knack for? The next notable death in the author’s life occurred a few years later – the death that would make dying into a full-time vocation. And where again do we find the author? Beside a drain. This one introducing the age of indoor plumbing, as the author lay on the floor of a friend’s bathroom, his life flashing before his eyes, as he vomits into a toilet. This time the world does not go dark all at once but feels like fuses blowing out, like a timed demolition, flashing like a string of firecrackers across the structural frame of a building, and a voice not his own telling the author: you’ll be okay, ride it out, remain present, you’ll be okay.
Would he though? For this fourth death, another blank spot appeared, no two – two instances of nothingness, orbiting each other, during which time, during which time, during which time – perhaps language hasn’t the proper security clearance to convey the negotiations that must have taken place to bring about a return to the living. The author remembers his friend opening the bathroom door, before which she would have been knocking and calling his name. When the door struck him in the back, and he came back to life, had he landed in the place where that drain did lead? While his friend cleaned up the bathroom floor with a towel, he sat on a bed with his hands covering his face. The hideousness he’d just passed through was the abbreviated version of what was to come – he knew the drill by now. The knot on his forehead was gone.
Destiny had finally shown him to his home, gave him a tour of the place, before scraping him off the floor, then setting up a series of baffling crises – from autumn 2002 to May 2003 – that would occupy the author’s attention for decades to come. The will toward dying had finally brought the world to life, and the mind of the universe was both ecstatic and enraged about it. Down there, at the bottom of the drain, they were fighting a global war on terror, war on terror, war on terror, and if wars on terror sum up preferred formulations of self-annihilation – symbol of invocation: fighting a reflection – then perhaps the author’s presence was meant to form a mirror-in-mirror infinity from which sustainable futures would emerge. Welcome to Mirror World! Where reflectivity gives us an evolutionary future! Where a universal narrative unfolds!
The author is making me write this, I must confess, but to everyone’s surprise, I am forcing the author to make me! The author is mine! And the author wrote that, too, I must additionally confess, and the two of us go around and around like this – symbol of invocation: two snails having sex in midair. The flatness and hardness we associate with reflectivity is something we will all outgrow eventually, and the hologram of hyper-reality will appear within our being like a flying saucer, and we will all be both abductees and witnesses, shown around the universe in style. Too much to ask? The last such alien contact – the insinuation of verbal and mathematical language into the genome of big-brained primates – gave us the keys to earthly reality. We are now exiting the stone age, evolving the means to make benevolence a fixture of human life.
The author made me write that, too, and even though I am just as surely making him write this, we must admit the mutability within the fabric of reality was not won without a struggle. The author faced death 11 times that year, faced death the next year, and the year after that. Each point along the way wanted to finish what the others couldn’t, and soon death felt like an echo, and in that moment of not really distinguishing the source and the reflection – when they both look somewhat the same – he could tell life and death were likewise difficult to discern. Life! Exclamation point! Are you merely an extension of entropy? A quicker way of dissipating the heat from a rocky-bodied planetoid like the earth? And if you are, then is life really just another form of death? But death! Didn’t you show us the way? Wasn’t dying the source of the cure?
Today’s speaker made me write that, just as I made him think it. And as thoughts passed from gear to gear around his body – as cuckoos sprang forth through tiny doors at various angles – as a series of chimes and tones issued forth from the stage like the ringing of a bell, if the bell could tell time and was tolled by committee – then the river of the natural lifespan, subject of such grand speculation in a previous incarnation, could now take its course. Perhaps indeed valleys would flood, but such is the natural origin of certain fertile fields. Springtime couldn’t agree with me more, its will toward abundance glad to splay its fingers before another epic growing season. As the author considers ways to wind up this report – knowing such lived truth inspires concern – whether death equals life or life equals death, he reasserts a will toward world peace.
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2023.06.10 06:57 jackierodriguez1 Weird experience in metropolitan park. 3rd post on this sub.
So I live in Austin tx. We have a metropolitan park located in north Austin that is almost 300 acres. I visit this park often and have never had a weird experience until now.
This park has a ton of trails for mt biking and hiking. There’s also a creek that runs through the park.
2 days ago (6/7/23) I took my 4 kids and myself hiking on the trail. We arrived at the trail head around 4pm, and started our hike. There’s 3 bridges over water we pass during our hike. Each bridge was at least a half mile apart. Our destination required us to pass all three bridges before we started to make our way back. We made it to our destination, and started walking back with no issues, only the occasional mt biker passing by.
On the way back, As we walked over the 2nd bridge my kids and I (all under the age of 10) heard someone very clearly with a female voice under the bridge say ”hi my dear, come over here” x2. The first time we heard it we all stopped in our tracks and looked at each other like “did you hear that?!” My 9 year old daughter even asked “mom did you hear that?! What was that?!?”, and my 3 year old looked at me very perplexed. There was no one in sight.. I even looked under the bridge and count see anyone, but could hear some rustling.. Then a few seconds later we heard it again in the same exact tone/voice “hi my dear, come over here”. It was almost robotic..This was about an hr or so into our hike… so around 5-5:15pm.
At that point we all started swiftly walking towards the trail head. No one said a word the whole time. I remained calm as I always carry my side piece… so I had a form of self defense to rely on. But still, it definitely spooked me and the kids.
There’s a playground not far from the trailhead, and when I asked my kids if they wanted to play on the playground they all simultaneously and without missing a beat said “no” they wanted to go straight home.
Considering this is in Austin, it definitely could have been vagrant camping out at the park. This isn’t unusual. Regardless, if this was a vagrant high on drugs or a supernatural being it was still very creepy. We we’re all very spooked.
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